Well, the Judas Priests show kicked ass and everyone was hitting on my friend and I. She was so gorgeous, and she kept getting so close to me, touching me the whole time to whisper something or let me know that she was having a great time. After the show, she asked me to go to her dad's place for the weekend and we just got back last night. We've had a great time everywhere lately. I'm so glad we're friends, but I can't help but feel like I want more than that with her.

Yay! I'm going to see the concert with the friend I've been in-love with forever, but lately, I've been trying to just keep my thoughts towards her as casual and friendly. She got us tickets for my b-day and it's gonna be so awesome! I just know that we'll have a great time. Anyway, I met this young woman that works in a sports bar that my friends and i go to, to play pool. She's so beautiful, anyway, the funny thing is that she looks like a teacher I had my senior year and i had the hugest crush on the teacher she looks like. She even acts like her....so for a while i thought it was her and i was scared to talk to her, since i told my teacher how i felt after graduation. Well, then i bumped into her at another place i like to play pool at near home (with my sis) and she was there. I worked up enough courage to come up to her and talk, then i realized she wasn't my teacher (she's gorgeous though!) and we laugh about it now.

I'm still in-love with her.
Just don't know what to say,
and i don't know whether
she's straight or gay.

I do know, however, the
nature of my feelings.
I also acknowlege the
way she reads my mind.

We used to talk about it-
The way she always knows,
but that was when
she gave in...for only a moment.
And like the elephant,
I will never forget that
sweet moment.

This isn't meant to be a poem.

An answer to all,
but what was the question?
Frantically searching,
giving me indigestion.

"Confusion," she says,
"is my middle name."
But what about the first
or the last?
I'm sick of this game!

Can't I just grow up already?
I'm tired of being stupid!
But as my body ferments here,
I keep getting struck by cupid.

I don't know what to say, except that I'm pretty confused. As far as things have been going with my bestfriend...she's still with her boyfriend, but we hang out all the time. I've been in love with her for almost two years and I can say that i've barely looked at anyone else. Well, for the first time since I've met her, I found myself attracted to a co-worker. She's hot and i'm gonna stop working there over the summer, so i don't think there will be much complication (famous last words). Anyway, i catch her looking at me and she caught me looking a few times as well. I can tell there's something there, especially the way she holds my gaze, so i decided to drop a note on her car after work.

I procrastinate! Who doesn't, shiit! Anywho, I just felt like telling everyone hello tonight. I stopped hanging out with my homesters, cause' a "Lost" re-run came on and they all turn into drones when that happens. I hate that show and I don't really watch much more than movies, the simpsons, and old school cartoons (i.e. Popeye, Loony Tunes, Betty Boop, gumby, etc.) Claymation kicks ass! - WHatever happened to the California Raisens? They rocked my sawks off!

I wrote that poem while I was in class. I should've been paying attention to the teacher going over shit that may show up on the final, but I couldn't. Sometimes I start believing everyone, when they say I'm ADD, but I just think I'm spaced-out sometimes. Anyway, I procrastinate on just about everything, but I have this amazing capability of catching up pretty quickly. I guess this explains my love life and everything else I'm passionate about. heh

I'm feeling something-
I don't know what.
I'm wanting someone-
They don't know who.

I try to tell you-
I don't know how.
Let's go some place-
I don't know where.

I want to love you-
You ask me, "when?"
And I reply,
"Just give me ten!"

I'd color your lips-
red with my love.
I'd taste the juicy filling.

Before, I held in all
of my feelings.
Since then, I've been
forever spilling.

And yesterday, was the day
that you told me.
It seems so long ago.
In honor and remembrance,
with some flowers.
I re-let you know.

Dark Ages

Sad and lonely,yet full of life. Why is it that we
go on this way?
Like Lambert, the cowardly lion...
Always looking for some other way.

Sometimes, I'm driven to just shout out in the silence.
Then again I grow tired of all the noise.
"How old are you, again?" she says.
And I still can't find any of my toys.

---So, I guess it's barely possible to break out of old habbits.

I love music.
U do 2.
Body moving to it.
oh, the things i wanna do!

Though I can't say why,
I feel the reel, I try to fight.
I catch the tude' in your eye.
2 bad my feet are both
pointing right.

So back I stay,
to watch you move.
Your body's beauty
belongs in the Louvre.

Nothing too interesting. We watched the movie, "Bong Water," and it it pretty hillarious! Anyway, Jack Black and Britney Murphy are so funny in that movie...so is Andy Dick. The cool thing, was that we just hung out, without pot and yes, it's the girl I'm in love with. Anywho, I love being near her and I'm glad that we could just do nothing interesting, together!

Today's been a really great day! A friend called me for help and advice. I'm glad that I was able to be the one who she called for that sort of consolation. Anyway, we had a really great, long, conversation and it just ended in a really positive way. Friendship is really a blessing! I hope everyone can feel what I feel right now, because I feel loved.

Words words words.
That's all I can write.
No wisdom.
I'm just dumb.
I can't do anything right!

Where's the brain
that used to be so smart?
That was just an illusion;
A bad brain fart.

"What's wrong with you?"
I say to myself, casually.
"Where's that smile you give
away so easily?"

"I can't say, today..."
"Just wait for tomorrow."
Please, GOD, take
away my sorrow.

Um...I used to smoke the reefer everyday after work, sometimes before work, before surfing, whenever hanging out with friends, etc. Often times, beer would be there too, if not something harder. Anyway, quite recently I did shrooms with my sister and a couple of old buddies of ours and she flipped the way I did a year before. I was trying to prove to myself that I could control my mind, but watching my sister lose it, just made me feel like shit. Anyway, I realized what kinda mistake I made by taking them right as they started to work. Then I apologized as sincerely as I possibly could to God, just so he'd make it go away, so I could calm my sister down and get her back to reality.