Sometimes i wish i was a star
nothing can hurt me cause id be so far

Sometimes i wish i was a fish
just swim away and never reminisce

Sometimes i wish i was a tear
when bullshit comes ill just dry up and disappear

But in the end none of those wishes will ever come true
like the wish i made about me and u but now look `were through
must have been cheap glue
no more sunny days
now the skies are blue

Ghetto but i like it

No one else comes close to you
No one makes me feel the way you do
You're so special girl to me
And you'll always be eternally
Every time I hold you near
You always say the words I love to hear
Girl with just a touch you can do so much
No one else comes close

And when I wake up to
The touch of your head on my shoulder
You're my dream come true
Girl you know I'll always treasure

Healing just takes time
whether ur young or old
warm up ur heart when its stone cold
like a paper cut it will keep stinging
and as ur lips taste the salty rivers of tears ur eyes are bringing
you, will heal
and wake up to something real
and when u put ur hand over the cut u will feel
a scar burned deeply within ur soul
and thats something about life u can never control
like the rose that grew from the concrete

My homegirl asked if i still loved my bestfriend
and i told her this : After everything happened
i closed the door and sunk deeper and deeper
with every depressing thought that went in my mind and with every shot i took into the hole i went
and some how after i gave up on everything and everyone i stood right over it
and starting with that i filled it in and
i put everything that happend at the very bottom

Are your eyes dry?
if not why?
Just got a lil somethin in your eye
cryin over over a guy
some bird shit fall from the sky
some vix you apply
or you just getting ready to say goodbye

if any of my guesses are right don't deny
don't create another lie
of why ur eyes aren't dry
is it the same reason as before
or is this a newly opened door
causing more tears to spill on the floor
you always tellin me its nun just, ignore

I have this in my info on aim but i wanted to share it with oasis

If you understand it then great but if you don't just take your time reading it

Just a bunch of pawns in lifes game
and look at yourself now, look at what you became
just a mother fuckin lame pawn...in lifes game
and who is to blame for what you became
who's name will you claim
what a shame, you blew out your own flame
all the obstacles you overcame

Happy new years to everyone by the way.

so like most of the kids in seattle im tipsyyyy

this is dedicated to the girl that broke my heart
lemme give u one last cry ma...

i wrote this and i was going to give it to you, but u never gave me that chance

Oh how the sky just seems to write your name in every cloud
and the waves paint the words of my heart out loud
i want to be the one to kiss the tears away

Just soaking there in the tub
i decide to just go under the water for a bit
and while im in it i think to myself what if i stay down here
and my life flashes before my eyes
All the people i have loved and hated are looking at me
and as i look at my mothers eyes, i surface.

I lay in bed
Darkness is all i see
im not longer afraid of what hides behind the closet
but what hides behind my heart

Well another sleepless night here in seattle, it rained for christmas and i stayed in and ate my heart out but the side effect of all that food in my tummy is that im bloated now.

So how did your christmas go?

Right now my phone is full of text messages from people wishin happy holidays.

Im listening to BSB - show me the meaning of being lonely , random song but what is the meaning of that song? Last night i just sat on top of the monkey bars and watched the stars then i fell off the monkey bars...

Well ive gotten my computer back =]

Things i want to do :

1. I want to wish everyone happy holidays
2. I want to get my cd key for counter strike.
3. I want all my music files back
4. Snuggle =]

ok well so far my break has been koo its amazing how
some days can go buy so slow or fast depending on how you feel.
I think this is the same with how much you eat too =]

Its amazing how some people just don't learn after one mistake isn't that the point of a mistake to learn from what you did. Life is full of em. I still don't know the meaning of life and love but i do know to love life cause i know life will never love me =] IF LIFE GIVES U FRENCH FRIES ` YOU EAT THEM. Then u get fat and eventually blow up but hey we all die. I remember as a kidd i use to cry at the thought of dying but now im just rambling on and i bet most of you don't find that intresting.

Ok so ive been single...this means im unable to snuggle or kiss anyone snuggling and kissing are like my favorite things and well i made a big mistake but at the time it felt to good to feel like a regret. My homechick came by, the one that i was benifits with this summer i have no intension of ever going out with her though because it would cause to much drama but we hung out for a few hours and chatted till the early morning i got tired and decided i would head home since she lives far she asked if she could stay for a while till her ride gets here in the afternoon so i snuck her into my place and i cooked her some food =] then we just sat shillen on the bed chatting some snuggling was done and then it led to a kiss then kissing what im trying to get to here is that now i feel very selfish for only caring about my feelings and making her confused again i called her and she said it was koo she knew how i felt and she said she felt the same way i was relieved but i learned my lesson but then again what will i do the next time i get lonely O_O damn well i guess we will have to wait and see eh?

Well im on for a little now..my computer crashed im using someone elses at the moment and decided i should fill you guys//girls in though i doubt that anyone has noticed me missing =] yes well right now im just hoping for winter break to get here any faster...i know the week is going to go by very slow and i still havent bought all the gifts for my friend...and im going bankedrupt lol. As always single i picked single and not yet ready for a relationship on the poll but then i thought about it and maybe its because i wanted to be single i may never know its not like theres many people im talking to now.