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saweeeetttt — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 23:38:44 -0500

the lips of salt
I taste it all
and bask in you again

the tears of rain
they drip and strain
into my memory bank

and eyes of fire
release desire
to acquire you again

into a soul
that's lost control
and at whole, I am not again.

a torturous ride
that builds and divides
and relies on fate once more

to bring me home
to a feeling I've known

walking towards me

saweeeetttt — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 22:33:08 -0500

she's walking slowly towards me
her honesty, it lightens her stride
I catch her nerves she thinks hidden closely.
closely like all she keeps inside
A beauty that she cannot see
but as it emanates on me
I feel i'm free and given purpose
to dive inside, never reach surface
and we can float on through this life
leaving behind the empty strife
start life anew, forget our past

fa;skl

saweeeetttt — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 12:39:08 -0400

We step into the garden
I’m heavy hearted and falling fast
So many things I’ve never seen
Are we here now? Is this my past?
The sun is showering our love
With energy that is unending
With you, I feel I’ve seen enough
With you, the answers are still pending
But I am shaking with such doubt
You hold me close to fight the tremor
Your body tangled up in mine

d;a

saweeeetttt — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 16:09:31 -0400

Love is a word that I don’t know
A distant place that I can’t go
It’s passing by and I’m trying to hold it
But my hands are too weak to grasp and mold it
Into the beauty I thought it could be
Into a statue of just you and me
And all that I have is this notion
And all that I am is confused emotion

I analyze people and pictures and places

bdfa;k

saweeeetttt — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 00:41:17 -0400

When I ran away from you all I needed was peace of mind
A slippery slope to help me float through the river that narrowly winds
But beside me was your shadow and below me was myself
And everything above me faded; faded into something else
So while I drifted through dirty water with empty thoughts that brought me shame
I tried to recognize our meaning, I tried to remember my own name

she stayed

saweeeetttt — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 15:22:44 -0400

Where do we go when the eyes fall back?
When the heart is black with pain?
And the rain is filling up your cup
That’s been empty since you drank it up
And you need a second dose of medicine.

So you sit around a table with a label on your head
And everybody has the same excuse as you
You laugh your head off, you want to get off
Forget about the truth you thought you knew.

sweet

saweeeetttt — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 18:51:51 -0400

Our time is based on measurements
Shades of color that make no sense
The view is skewed and broken
Only selective words are spoken
We speak in a language of hate
And dream of love as if it’s fate
It seems everyone’s dreams are the same
Forgo all work and aspire fame
And who is to blame?
A mysterious question
Our choices lead us to the place we were destined.

fdfdfabtm

saweeeetttt — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 10:29:27 -0400

sun setting slow and the leaves blowing faster
skin getting thick, lips are soaked with disaster
just an imposter composing a rapture
of beautiful lies holding strong with great stature
you are like a statue made of stone
and I'm just a loser getting stoned
post-pone the final let down, please
can't take this shaking in my knees
I need the breeze to carry me home

...

saweeeetttt — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 19:50:49 -0400

she let me taste her lips
but missed the context of my kiss.
and then I slipped beneath the sheets
and drown in my own self-defeat.
her eyes were glaring stares of desire
what my heart never did require.
yearning for love I could not receive,
her scent, all that my lungs could breathe.
deceiving me, triggering madness
far too much damage to access.

ahh

saweeeetttt — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 00:19:03 -0400

Memories of walking hand in hand
They reappear without consent
And every word I whispered in your ear
Every desire I could repent
They sent shivers through your bones
And in your bones I gave you strength
The distance that we traveled seemed so far
Though, I know pain added length
And now I hang upon your walls
In the pictures that you slowly painted
Colors illuminated so vibrantly

childhood

saweeeetttt — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 13:31:16 -0400

The sun was shining brighter
The leaves blew and created melodies
The burden was always lighter
Nothing separated you from me
The truth was never found
But there were never any questions
And every time you looked around
You never saw your own reflection
Everybody had a heart
You never realized the pain
And when the clouds came rolling in
You ran and danced in the rain

hm

saweeeetttt — Thu, 29 May 2008 19:20:50 -0400

And how much time is spent alone
Questioning all that we can never control?
I sit in my head with the static on low
Drifting into a world that I will never know
Chasing the answers that don’t even exist
My heart beat is too heavy to hear what I’ve missed
I look behind me and all that I find
Is my shadow racing the thoughts in my mind
When the race has ended my answers are questioned

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saweeeetttt — Fri, 16 May 2008 12:45:00 -0400

The blankest stares are hovering over me and I gasp for air to breathe
to seep inside these veins and not in vain to bring me what I need
And suddenly the memory of you and me is all I see
what could I be when it was for nothing?
and I believed we stood for something.
You reappear everywhere, your ghost is haunting me
I look behind and there you trail, inhaling my faith and taunting me

dude

saweeeetttt — Tue, 13 May 2008 11:40:54 -0400

Sinking beneath the sheets are the spirits that lie within us
Taking breaths between the words that creep and slip in between us
A silhouette is formed by shadows cast from the moon that carries the sky
It binds the broken light that creates night and tangles you and I
Within the darkness of a world that burdens all of us so deeply

seperated you from me

saweeeetttt — Thu, 01 May 2008 21:11:55 -0400

Curiously waiting
Through these days of separating
Never knowing why I’m here
But drowning wild in the fear
Sometimes I like the sound
the world can make
When it all goes down
It all goes down just to come back up
And up there, I can’t get enough
Hallucinating, I am free
I separated you from me

Mysteries are golden
Driving me to break the mold