There are just some things that you have to get off your mind sometimes. I, again, haven't been on this website for almost a year. It seems to come in annual increments that I must write at least one journal to keep up with this site. Sadly, I have barely anytime to write more. I am in Germany, with a broken jaw, and I just came from Afghanistan. Say what you will about that war. It doesn't affect me any. Unless you have been there, you have absolutely no clue.

Tell me how retarded this is.

I haven't been on in a while. It's been about almost three years. I joined the Marine Corps, been in a year and a half, and stationed on Okinawa, Japan. It's been somehing else, I never thought I would grow up this much in such a short amount of time. Hope everyone has been doing well.

PT

dating is bad....
relationships are bad...

leave them alone, and nobody gets hurt.

kapeish.

damn ya'll. i got fucked over AGAIN.

shit.

i had enough of lying girls, and girls who play games. and girls that dont even know what they want, and girls who dont care, and girls who just dont understand where you are coming from when you couldnt say what you mean any louder or clearer. i mean jeez. so i mean, know what you want before you talk to me, or else i am just going to just say whatever and drop it. cause all this not caring is starting to rub off on me...

When you break up. and you end up still being in love with that chick/dude...

drop the bitch like a rock

get drunk

smoke...

and find some sexy ass girls (boys for the guys), to come and make you fell better :P

know what i mean... :]

sweetness....:P

Cause thinking about them not thinking about you, can cause serious waste of mental energy...

Have you ever loved someone so much... its impossible for you to be together... you dont really talk much anymore... but they are still on your mind as when you were with them, i dont know. i dont know if i need to get over it... or if its there for a good reason, i just don tknow... i dont know if she still feels the same... i miss her like crazy, and id do anything for her... i got a job... still working on the grades...

There was NEVER any charade,
It was only to you, the heart I gave,
The feelings I felt were only for you,
And what you called a lie, was in fact, true...

You act like there was such a burden on your life,
And you didn't care enough to even think twice,
You say its hard to trust me and what I do,
When it should be ME who worries about you,

You never had to do anything but leave,
It was easy for you... it was hard for me,

This is just something I wrote... so yea...

My heart is still yours
Though you crush it perfectly
I am addicted to the pain you cause me
And how you hurt me endlessly

When you kick me when I'm down
I love it more and more
The way you make my heart break
And leave it cold and sore

The way my stomach gets sick
when I see you with another person
Come on now, just give me more
Make my heartache worsen

someone kill me... life just isnt fair... you finally find the perfect one... the most perfect one...and you cant make it work... i guess its true... sometimes love just isnt enough...fuck...

I have been fooled so many times, yet i trust her, i don't know there is something about her that makes me want to just be with her forever, i have never felt like this for anyone else, not christa not anyone. and they all have been mean and they have successfully fooled me with their fake love, but truthfully i think i have found it, and it is the most insane beautiful feeling ever, i love her more than anything, i would do anything for her, to make her happy and to keep her that way.

wow, i dont get life...

wow, i dont get life...

why is it that, i always and forever want to talk to her. but shes really busy all the time, and so i think she doesnt have time for me (well she really doesnt truthfully) i know its not her fault, just venting and saying it hurts... alot.--- comment please.