ok, i should add something to my last post. it does mean something, just not in a relationship way. no commitment or attachments. but she does care for me as a friend

what do you think of friends with benifits?

my head hurts. i hate stress. i'm sorry i don't have anything more interesting to say

my life is really awful. i don't even want to go into it, but i don't understand why everyone has to fuck with my heart. i just don't get it. and its always by the same people over and over again. sometimes i want to disappear...to fade away and see if anyone notices. but maybe someday i'll find someone who just loves me for me. maybe someday i'll love myself too.

this has been a long week for me. i need a break from my life. even being sick didn't give me any real rest. i had a bit of a moment with my online ex, but she is still too busy for me, even though she says shes still in love with me. so thats not happening. then theres the girl in maryland who also likes me and i can't be with.

i sound all cool with all my girl problems, but its not fun. i'd rather not have any, especially because i'm in in a relationship with any of them.

i love flirting with her. i wonder what will happen on saturday. i'm not going to let myself get hurt this time. i'll see what happens between us and back out if i need to. but of course i like her...so who knows? one must take risks!

i think i'm gonna be in a causal type relationship with this girl. more like friends that are close physically too. i'll see what happens when i see her again but that should be interesting. she doesnt want a commited realationship, and i don't really think i could either that this point. i just need someone to hold me.

theres a girl who lives across the country that has a crush on me. thats not going to happen though, for many reasons, distance being the main one. thats been stressing me out, to add on to everything else.

i'm not really sure if i'm gay or just bisexual. i really hate labels, i feel like i don't fit into any of them.

hello. new to this site...