The radioactive penguins in my head are taking over....

Craves_Blood — Wed, 26 Mar 2003 05:13:15 +0300

*AHH!! the penguins!*
The horror.....

I haven't wrote in the longest time..

I got that from webgurus.com. I added some on my webpage: http://randomthoughts.com

What happened lately:
-Me and James went to the movies, blah blah blah
-Me and Rachael were talking about kissing, but we haven't kissed yet.
-I'm suppose to go to Misty's friday, and I told her I would kiss her for her b-day. Rachael would kill me if she found out!

Problems....

Craves_Blood — Sun, 16 Mar 2003 00:00:28 +0300

Tim told Rachael in a note, that he loved me, and that when me and James break up, I'm going out with him. He told me he wished I was his. I don't like him, only as a friend! I told him that but he doesn't understand.
~*~
Shannon said she loved Jonathan when she's only fucking met him once. I was pissed, because I like Jonathan...more than I should.
~*~
James is in Tennessee and is staying the weekend with his dad. He called me earlier. I think maybe this time, things will go good, and we will go out longer than we did before. I really like James.

Rob Zombie, and Twisted Sister...awesome!

Craves_Blood — Fri, 14 Mar 2003 03:40:57 +0300

She had a corpse under her bed..she had her fun, but now he is dead....her mama said feed the desire, her brother said throw him on the fire!

I wish it was that easy ^ lol..... I'm listening to Carnival of Souls (Rob Zombie). He is so awesome. Twisted Sister, I was listening to earlier is awesome, too!

What Happened March 12, 2003:
~Joey took both my packs of cigarettes, and my cd "The Eminem Show". I got his necklace.

Two of my guy friends said they might be bi....

Craves_Blood — Wed, 12 Mar 2003 01:30:12 +0300

(I'm trying this, but I won't be on until tomorrow)
March 10, 2003
~Well, Rachael had a denist app. this morning so she didn't ride the bus. Joey told me she had been crying because Josh, Daniel and me had been ignoring her. And today when I saw her and was going to talk to her, she ignored me, so I'm pissed. Things were so much easier when we were just friends.
~Jonathan and Tim both came to me, seperately of course, and told me they might be bi, and not to tell anyone.

Innocent, or so I had thought....

Craves_Blood — Sat, 08 Mar 2003 23:06:46 +0300

I went out with Will, I don't know if I have said anythign about him lately. We only dated for 3 days. The convo we had that we started going out:

Tasha: R u still going with that Ella girl?
Will: No, why?
T: just wonderin
W: do you like me?
T: maybe
W: why do you want to go out with me? for sex?
T: lol...I can get that from others...j/k I don't know. I just like you.
W: Ok, I will go out with you. when do you want it?

Chris asked if he could watch...

Craves_Blood — Thu, 06 Mar 2003 01:44:41 +0300

Lol...I have "Tasha L/S Rachael" on my hand and "You're a naugthy girl. Go to my room." on my other. Chris asked why I had Rachael on my hand, and I said that was my g/f's name, and he went "You're a lesbian?" He said it out loud, and I laughed. I told him I was bisexual, and he asked if he could watch me and my girlfriend, lol...

Jonathan was feeling on me yesterday in tutoring, hehe..

Me and Danielle were making fun of Kenny all day. (What is surpising is we were enemies like a month ago.)

I really have nothing to say.

Craves_Blood — Sun, 02 Mar 2003 23:58:46 +0300

I found my old neopets account passwords. Now I have 5 accounts, but I've only tried to get into the first 4.

1) craves_blood

What would the PENGUINS do?

Craves_Blood — Sat, 01 Mar 2003 23:03:22 +0300

Sorry...I am addicted to Penguins. I had an imaginary friend who was a penguin...his named was Bob...*tear* Krystal killed him! *sob* Anyways.....

I was thinking about animals. Not like that! I was just wondering if animals have emotions like humans, could they have the feelings of wanting the same gender? I don't know.

I'm screwed up today...
I took a self-quiz of whether I have depression. There was 15 questions, yes and no. I had zero no's. That's bad.

Almost Gone

Craves_Blood — Thu, 27 Feb 2003 19:08:26 +0300

My short story: And this actually kinda happened. I had drifted off and then realize the water was over my face.

If you could have killed Hitler, would you have?

Craves_Blood — Fri, 11 Apr 2003 12:00:00 +0400

* No * Yes * Maybe

Poem, and then a letter to a slutty ass bitch

Craves_Blood — Tue, 25 Feb 2003 03:41:49 +0300

my poem ~feb. 23, 2003

I can't feel; I can't breathe
My throat shuts off
The pain is numbed by the fact I want to die
My lungs burn as the water comes in
The slits on my wrists bleed
As the water turns a dark red
My eyes are open and stare at nothing
I wait for him, the angel of death
To take me to hell, at least it's better then this.

~*~*~*

My letter to Stacy, former friend. She called me a slut on Friday for some stupid shit. I sent it in the mail yesterday.

YAY!!!! And other shit.

Craves_Blood — Thu, 20 Feb 2003 03:53:28 +0300

Hehe....My crush and me are going out now. Rachael is my best friend and now she's my girlfriend, too. But she's dating Josh and Daniel, too. Daniel knows about me, but Josh doesn't know about either of us. Lol...

I wrote James a letter. I really regret breaking up with him back at Christmas. :( I think I fell in love with him over then, but didn't realize it. But he's going out with Stacy, my ex-best friend.

Unanswered Questions (Wow...such nice work on V-day, huh?)

Craves_Blood — Sat, 15 Feb 2003 19:03:33 +0300

I wrote this yesterday after school.

Unanswered Questions

What's wrong with me?
That everyone but me sees....
Why can't I find love?
I'm left here to bleed.

My destiny is to be alone.
This is what it seems.

Why did he leave me?
And hurt me all the way through.
Why do I feel this pain?
And he feels nothing. He shows nothing. I am nothing.

I hate to be alone sometimes.

My Name Poems (I'm so freakin' bored!)

Craves_Blood — Wed, 12 Feb 2003 22:25:47 +0300

poems.....

Over and over again.....

Craves_Blood — Wed, 12 Feb 2003 19:45:41 +0300

Trevor broke up with me, but I haven't cried or cut myself or anything. I think I realized I mixed up love and lust. I'm starting to think I will never find love.

Rachael still likes me and I really like her. But she hasn't asked me out again, and I'm kinda afraid to ask her out. She's one of my best friends and I don't want to lose that.

Joey hasn't said anything about going out, and he's acting like a jackass, so I say: fuck him and not literally.