garsh darned it! she loves me, she loves me not...i don't know. does it have to do with me? i don't know. so confused...

today's the day I go to Italy! i won't be able to post for 9 days. *tear*

one of my friends today said that she had read my latest blogs and said she had the same feelings of confusion in her life to. She's bi and has a bfriend. So now there's two of us confused as all hells wondering where the the hells we stand. cute ain't it?

yeah, a little poem to describe the toil of feelings inside. trying to clear my mind so i let it go and am tryin to find it now. it likes to run away. *sigh* stuff...

I've been really thinking recently. My brains about to explode. For the last three years I've identified myself as bi, but recently I don't know. I feel I might be lesbian. Help?

I came across and article on the net that said that Gay people are God's Chosen People. Then I came across another article that said the complete opposite.

I really don't know. I used to know who I am, now I'm not so sure. I'm lost...

a poem made up on the spot...ahh...feeling really bad...

hehehe...one of my friends gave me a sticker that had a rainbow on it and said "I don't even think straight".

I am back. I've been gone due to recent surgery and haven't been able reach a computer. But I am back! I was thinking the other day,(yes I know, run and hide)how family will betray family. How they will take dark secrets and use them against you.

I was in class today, and this guy whose always being a jerk, turns to me and says,"Are you a lesbian? Because you're wearing that rainbow button." I turn to him and say,"Yeah, why do you care?" He gives me a strange look like I was supposed to be insulted. I laugh, then he says," Is that that the button means, that you're a Lesbian?" I say back to him smiling, "yep." I sort of lied because I'm only bi, but I didn't care, he's always been a jerk so I needed some humor.

I'm new. There's nothing much I can tell you except I'm bi. It's cool. I've mostly accepted myself. I wish my family can say the same. They don't really accept it. That's alright though. They'll come around eventually. I'm 18. I'm graduating this year. I don't really have plans for after that. I don't have a significant other though. I wish that I did sometimes. No one at my school really pays me any mind.