Views?

Meow — Fri, 28 Sep 2012 22:56:35 +0400

http://www.viewzone.com/homosexual.html

Advice Please!

Meow — Tue, 25 Sep 2012 20:34:58 +0400

PV sent me a request on facebook...to list me as her sister.
:((

It's Been Ages.

Meow — Sat, 25 Aug 2012 00:14:03 +0400

It has indeed been ages since I've written. Started my first semester of college, and all that.
Basically wanted to write about a specific thing. Outside our mess (canteen), is a board telling us the menu for the day. When I went there yesterday, the following was written.
"Come out of the closet! LGBT sammelan." (BTW sammelan is a meet.)

So, I told her.

Meow — Thu, 21 Jun 2012 23:19:39 +0400

I told Aachoo, in a moment of impulsiveness, over texts.
I told her that I liked someone, and there was no chance, and whether I should tell them. She said that I should, since it wouldn't harm anything anyway. And then she was like, so, who is this lucky person ;)
And I said, you.
She was extremely cool about it, said that she found me a very comfortable person to be with, that it wouldn't change anything and that she didn't feel awkward or whatever. So, couldn't ask for a better reaction.
But I suddenly like her a lot more.

Update

Meow — Fri, 15 Jun 2012 18:26:22 +0400

It's been ages since I've updated this thing. Mainly because I haven't done anything apart from sleeping and reading all day for some time now!

But today went to an amusement park with some friends. Even though it was bloody hot, we had more fun that I remember having in a while..

I am starting to think I may still like this guy that I was flip flopping over for r some time. He is a very good friend of mine.
But my approach to this now is...I don't care!

Activate:Mode Blabbermouth.

Meow — Tue, 05 Jun 2012 23:04:34 +0400

Yes. I'm at that stage where I want to tell everyone that I am questioning. Not literally everyone, but my friends. All of them. While I realise that it is good to tell a few close friends, I have told like six people over the past five months. Today spur of the moment blurted it out to a friend. She won't tell anyone, but what if she does? At some point I am going to tell someone who will turn out not to accept it or, worse, will tell other people. Aargh.
Basically, I have become a bit of a blabbermouth about the issue.
Is it common? Anyone had this sudden urge?

It's been a while.

Meow — Tue, 22 May 2012 21:34:50 +0400

So, today, I had just come back from a walk, and was generally watching TV with my mom, and she randomly says, "I can't imagine you married and with kids. Can you?". I just gave her a look and made a funny face, all geared up to joke about how I'd probably be less mature that my newborn, when all of a sudden she goes, "You're not a lesbian, are you?"
Hmm. I'm a very bad liar. So no point in saying, "no." So I just sat down, 'coolly', and said, well, we will see about all that. Inside, I was all, FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

This is what needs to change.

Meow — Fri, 20 Apr 2012 09:57:48 +0400

http://deaf-poetry.blogspot.in/2012/01/curious-case-of-invisibleindian-l...

This is really what needs to change. It is sad, yet true.

Dreams

Meow — Mon, 16 Apr 2012 13:43:52 +0400

I really want to have a lucid dream. It seems really cool. Supposedly you can train yourself to have them but you need to keep a dream journal and stuff and remind yourself to perform regular reality checks, and I cann't bring myself to do that sort of stuff.
So I guess I'll have to make do with my regular, nonsensical dreams as of now.
Has anyone else had a lucid dream?

Things are better, maybe

Meow — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 17:30:03 +0400

It's been a while. Admitting everything to myself has made things a lot better, in a way.
So, I can hope to move on from this!! Yay :)
I am far far far away from telling people, apart from the few close one I've already told. That's a bridge I'll cross when I come to it (specifically, when I'm earning).

Life..is..meh.

Meow — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 13:59:27 +0300

So. In the midst of all this whole exam stuff, I'm still trying to shake off that hollow, twinging pain in my stomach.
So I finally accepted it. After So Long. I guess I do love her. Maybe I feel so bad because she will never feel the same way! I am in love with a straight girl. Siggghhh

Random questions?

Meow — Sat, 03 Mar 2012 09:37:18 +0300

I was just reading this post where people from all over were invited to air their views on homosexuality on twitter, and of course there were a whole load of homophobic comments. But a trend that was easily noticeable, was that a lot of people were completely against men being gay, but were fine with women being gay. What is up with that??

My Budday!

Meow — Tue, 28 Feb 2012 20:46:56 +0300

So, today was my birthday.
It was, by usual standards, really boring. I just studied all day. And spoke to people.
But, it was pretty enjoyable. There is something about sunlight, which doesn't allow you to feel unhappy.
I'm finally 18 though! Yay.
Wait. I still feel like a nerdy 14 year old. :\
Oh and ended the day with brownies and icecream. \m/

A page from my diary

Meow — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 10:19:56 +0300

This is a page from my journal. Both types of writing are me, obviously.
GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY
STOP KIDDING YOURSELF.
YOU'RE GAY.
LIVE WITH IT.
DEAL WITH IT.
Who is this poophead above me, anyway? Why is it something I have to 'deal' with, 'live with'? It's not going anywhere, right? It's really not that big a deal.
WHATEVER. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT?
What can I do about it, dumbass? You are starting to irritate me. Imma sit around and study, that's what I
m going to do about it. Stop making this such a big deal. Quit it! Shut up and get out for a bit!

Random thoughts

Meow — Fri, 24 Feb 2012 09:50:39 +0300

Hey. This is my first time doing this. It's pretty miserable outside, sort of refecting my mood currently.
So, I have a problem. Everytime I admit to myself that I like the girl, I feel crappy. I'm a girl too. Yes, I've done this many times. It's like, when I say to myself, "you love her", I'm thinking, What now? What do I do with it? She's really straight. With a boyfriend. Who I'm not really that jealous of, funnily. They're meant for each other. But what do I do with it??