Telling the family

caraboo. — Thu, 06 Jan 2011 07:14:59 +0300

For one telling my family, (again), wasnt a choice i really had to make, because someone else decided to make it for me. Its almost as if my whole coming out experience was dictated by other dramatic, gossipy, nieve people.

It's getting cold

caraboo. — Fri, 29 Oct 2010 02:45:34 +0400

This fall weather thats finally is finally sweeping in, it brings back so many things. It would seem that my life are always is always at its height when summer ends, but once the leaves begin to wilt and fall from their home, so do i.

From my first serious girlfriend and i, pumpkin picking, going on walks through the forests, be a secret from my parents, the excitment of sneaking around. To my frist love, i will never get over it, and since her, its as if no one else is quite right.

"I feel like I'm in the middle of a crowded room screaming and no one even looks up."

caraboo. — Sat, 25 Sep 2010 08:45:34 +0400

I currently find that i mean absolutly nothing to the world. Not only do the people i care for and consider really close inch further from me daily because they only see their pain.. I never hurt, im never going through much, and right now theres alot going on and im overwhelmed, scared, terrified even. All the times ive dropped everything to help a friend, all the times ive ignored my own problems to help someone out with theres, knowing what they were going through was worse and they needed me more than i needed them.

It's never your enemies that get you, it's always the people you are close to.

caraboo. — Fri, 17 Sep 2010 04:37:42 +0400

Lets see. Ill start this with a connection to my readers no matter how few there will be of you.

When was the last time you got backstabbed? Yesturday? A month ago? Was it by an ex? A best friend? Family? Well im feeling that same sting i know youve felt or are feeling.

the unexpected things.. somtimes are the most beauitful.

caraboo. — Mon, 13 Sep 2010 06:27:10 +0400

I hung out with this girl i met at famous footwear, we had like a 30 minute conversation about shoes , so decided to meet at starbucks today. Anyway.. it was so awsome, i didnt know she was gay, but she deffinatly was hinting at it. No moves were made, but i could feel friction between our legs that were so close under the tabel. theres somthing there. its exciting and scary.

Music softens the soul and fuels strength.

caraboo. — Fri, 10 Sep 2010 02:56:47 +0400

So im listening to the great escape by moby featureing azure ray.. its just so amazing. and can be related to so many different things. I feel as if its way to easy to relate to being in the closet. If im not mistaken i do beleive moby himself is gay, in which cases these lyrics sing a tale of confinment and being silent. I encourage people to listen. Its beautiful..

I somtimes think we exist to save eachother from our selves.

caraboo. — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 05:57:28 +0400

Today i realized, that i have a need for nurturing. I need someone to care about me, i have a need for someone to care about what im doing, to care if im hurting, to care when im doing somthing stupid. And whats even worse about today, is that i realized that i no longer have anyone like that. Some how i take care of everyone else, but no one takes care of me. shity situation.

so tonight..

caraboo. — Sun, 05 Sep 2010 09:19:33 +0400

Tonight was this big street dance thing at my town. there was alot happening. Me being the negative puss that i am is sad as shit about the giril i love being with this guy now.. so i wasnt exactly in the mood to do anything. Plusss i sprained my ankel at my soccer turnament today so a street dance which involved walking and dancing didnt seem like a great thing to do.

Girl problems, suprising? (not)

caraboo. — Thu, 02 Sep 2010 06:31:32 +0400

So ive been with this girl, for around 2 years now.. shes absolutly amazing, i mean ive never ever tried as hard as i have with her, ive never put so much into anything. And i find that she puts the same exact if not more effort into me. Well she went to collge last weekend,, far away from me (Shes brilliant).

Goodbye Closet

caraboo. — Wed, 01 Sep 2010 07:02:03 +0400

Well i came out all but 4 years ago, but i just fund this site and think its amazing. So i feel an obligation to haveing my True E coming out story on here. (haha) Ive never actually written a blog so this is a bit new to me. Comments to let me know if their are any tips to makeing it better or more intresting would be amazing!!