Best news, my sonogram results came in normal. Although I still have a small spint of pain every so often everything is okay apparently. The doctor said if the pain was persistent for a few weeks that there would be a reevaluation. So I'm hoping for the best and I'm going to take some (prescribed) medication.

Oh and I found this.
it seems to be a good analysys on the issue that seems set-in-stone.

Just an update: got the sonogram today and things still seem fine. I feel like apologizing for what happened yesterday but this wasen't my doing. I suppose this is too familiar of when I used to have massive dramatic episodes (oh past self, you were so "blah"). Anyway Yamamoto. Yama, I'm seriously disappointed in you.

So tomorrow I'm pretty sure they (doctors) are going to want to operate on my testes. I have to admit I'm nervous but I know now that it will have to happen. The pain isn't really bad it's like a 3 for the most part on a 1-10 scale of pain. But my left one is really being strange and now I think something is going on with my right one now.

A dull pain in either one of the testicles... :(
I'm seriously hoping it's not Torsion or Cancer.

So my applying to college has gone terrible. I missed a deadline on submitting payment and subsequently all (three) of my classes were dropped. But there is hope, all I have to do is reregister them and submit my papers. So apparently while I was having to do all of these things no one told me about that.

So anyway, I found out today that my Adoptive Dad (who I love very much) has MRSA. This is new unlike when I found out he had AIDS. My Mom isn't freaked out because she's been careful around him since she just doesn't know what he has anymore. I was at my dads apartment a few days ago and I'm not sure how long he's had it and stuff.

There just isn't much to post as there used to be. Summer!

So to my dismay not much has been happening. That's mainly the reason why I haven't had much too write about here. But I suppose this has been long overdue since my long and work oriented Senior Year. So aside from the recent drama there really hasen't been anything really important or attention grabbing going on in my life.

I've recognized my behavior has once again caused much chatter amogst those who've followed this little disagreement. I would like to say that I believe I have a right to an opinion, I feel that I acted just as any other person would have when someone portrays your beliefs to be destructive and dangerous.

(WARNING JEFF RELIGIOUS CONTENT! HOLY SHIT {OH SHIT GOING TO HELL FOR THAT ONE [PARENTHECEPTION]} DON'T LOOK. LIKE TOTALLY FOR REAL SHIT RIGHT HERE.)

I've been reflecting the past few days, I've been thinking deeply as well. I've been wanting to improve myself, and pleasently I've been surprised by some improvements. What has been plaguing me for quite sometime though has been, being good before The Lord. I feel I'm still not quite that great, but I feel I'm getting there.

Jeff why did you feel it was approprite to show me this?

So yesterday I finally graduated High School. It was amazing, and yet throughout the whole thing I kind of just floated through it like a dream, before I knew it, it was over and done. And no I didn't fall or trip at graduation, except at one point my gown almost tried to trip me, but I took care of that with a simple pull.

I'm surprisingly calm about graduation about to take place. My main fear that's been following me is tripping on the stage at graduation. But that probably won't happen. The plan for getting where we need to go is going well and organization is going smoothly. I'll finally be done with High School, I'm getting my Diploma. :-D

Well, it's finally here. I'm going to graduate and I don't really know how to feel. It's a mix of subtle happyness and deep thought. I'm very excited though, even though I have trouble expressing how happy I am. I suppose I've never had something of this magnitude to be happy about. I just can't believe I managed to do it. I haven't had so much confidence in myself in awhile.

Graduation in two days. And I'm going to go to college! All of my shit finally got together!