somtimes i wonder if i've missed out on being a normal teenager... but oh well. it's not as if you can have a second shot at your teen years. sometimes i wish i lived in 17th century europe. that way i could play the lute and live off my day's earnings and travel all across europe, sort of like John Dowland. it's not glamorous to all, but to me that's the impossible dream. sure there wasn't a place for gays but it would be just the same in a way, i wouldn't be able to be open about it but i could live my dream. i would give everything up just to be free. free from the modern cage i call life.

today i finally got signal.
so anyway my senior year started off (monday) with; power going out in one building, an air conditioner catching fire on an other building, and a teacher getting stuck in an elevator... so it was a very exciting start! anyway i've got some ussual classes and many electives, my favorite class right now is Music Theory, so i'm going to learn to read and write music notation. also today i was the first person to bring a guitar! well i'll write more another time.

tomorrow marks the start of my senior year! :)

so anyway i'm reaching this site from my neighbors unsecured wifi hotspot. my HP G62 is super nice! the wireless on it is incredible, great signal! my internet service provider should make software compatible with Windows 7... it would make it so much more better.
the one problem is transferring all my music from my old Compaq Presario C500 to the new notebook... so much music.

won't be on here for awhile. stupid Windows 7 64 bit (my new computer) will not recognize my usb modem. so i'll be back soon. :)

sometimes i wonder if it's a bad thing that i've never experienced love.

if i had a choice between playing the 10-course Lute or a Viol i would not know which to choose. then again maybe i would choose the Bajo Sexto or Baroque Guitar. i've always wanted to play different stringed instruments it's the sound that stirs me and it's like i feel that i can communicate more through that instrument, but i remember that with any instrument you can communicate many things. sometimes i find that if i accidentally hit my classical guitar on my knee or i scratch it i say "oww" it's sort of like the instrument is a part of me.

AOL CD COLLECTING! yes aol cd collecting. remember those? the cd would come in the mail and you didn't know what to do with it, so you tossed the cd in the trash and kept the case for some other cd. well they're actually worth money now. :)

i'm not scared of heights anymore... i'm scared of cars. i have no idea where my mental health went, but it seems to be gone. i don't know if i need thearapy or something, maybe mood relaxers. i need something to help. i dreamt of the expierience again it freaked me out. i've been trying to preoccupy my mind with positive thoughts but it only works half the time. any help is appreciated.

Excersize No. 1

Tuning: EADGBe
Capo on 3rd fret

08/10/10

= - Hold string position

e|----------------------------------|
B|----------------------------------|
G|----------------------------------|
D|----------------------------------|
A|-------------0--2--0------------|
E|--0--2--4=======4--2--0--| ©

recently i've started having a few flashbacks of something i care not to mention. i guess i should be happy since i've found the secret of cloning peoples usernames in chat rooms. i don't know why i'm not happy. i have everything i could ever want, but i feel so empty.

just thinking. i don't know if i ever mentioned i taught myself to read guitar tablature. well i have and i've gone back to my baroque and classical study. i've been familiarizing myself with life. last night my sister's boyfriend beat her up and it woke me up at 4 a.m. it was inevitable. i was so mad... no one disturbs my slumber. so my mom called the cops. long story short my sister has stockholm syndrome for him and she didn't want him to go. so we kicked him out and my sister is still here with her kids. ahh...

a few days ago i got a Jim Dunlop capo for my guitar... and it's so awesome! so i've been working on some stuff (capo on the 3rd fret) and i'm getting really crazy good results. i'm now close to finishing a new folk song, it sounds kind of of like 1960's country, which is the sound i've been shooting for. i haven't recorded much in a few weeks so i'm back on track after the sabbatical in which i worked on my classical and baroque music study, still working on that too.

maybe i write and talk too much about myself.

today i got to thinking about my steel string. the 12 string guitar with 6 strings and covered in stickers. i got the guitar in 2007 from my aunt and uncle who were getting rid of some things. at first i thought nothing of it and i kept it as a decorative piece in the livingroom. in 2008 i started experimenting with the acoustic sound and it went from there. in 2008 i refurbished it to the best of my ability, which was a cleaning, new strings, bridge pins, and a strap. then i put stickers on it like on Beck's guitar, although not the same i recreated a few.