so i got Strawberry Perl, YAY! and i'm reviewing one of my old demos (going on one year already). it's the 2009 Demo, although this is the first anyone has heard of it or the first time i've metioned that i used to make demo tapes. back in 2009 i was inspired by Beck to make these rowdy off the wall Folk tunes, then in mid 2010 i came across "Anonymous: Coranto" and i was with classical guitar. i'm going to play my old Folk Guitar now.

ugh... SENIOR RESEARCH PROJECT SUCKS! and i can't figure out my physics homework. in other news i'm going to sign up for a video game tournament (i'm addicted to this "new" pc game) and a few of my friends will join me. if only life were simpler and not so unnecessarily complicated. i just think if life were less complex we would all be significantly happier, if only, if only.

so yeah i'm a bit under the weather. speaking of weather it's nice and cool outside which is always welcome in the lone star state. i have some Paco de Lucia on to try and see if music works as a healer (see, Kircher: "Antidotum Taratulae"). it feels weird afterall this is my first sick day of senior year. i wonder how my friends are enjoying being in school with nothing to do today since the freshmen are testing. oh well, i'm just trying to stay alive, and so far it's working.

so i finally got tired of the annoying red lump on my eyelid... i got some alcohol pads and sterilized the utility knife along with the tweezers. THE SURGERY WAS A SUCCESS! i used the "really pointy thing" to poke the very top of the lump, presto! lots of pus (gag). and i squezzed some out with the tweezers and then used my fingers for the rest. normally i'm scared of sharp things near my eyes, but this lump was the last straw. anyway i've put some alcohol on the wound and it should heal up nicely.

it's times like these when i want i could go back. back to when i was junior. the whole world was my oyster and me and "T" were at the top of the world, nothing could stop the two best friends. i was passing all my classes, Beck's early folk tunes tape i compiled was the soundtrack for the whole year. i want to go back when things were just a little simpler. i thought i was unstoppable, an example of "if i can do it you can too". only now do i see many more flaws and my youthful thinking disappearing into the mystique of adulthood.

my grandfather has taken a sudden turn for the worse. it's times like these i wish i had spent more time with him (and learned spanish to better communicate with him). :(

i don't know why (and i was so happy with my small accomplishment) that i didn't mention that i finally crossed into Exodus in The Old Testament. it's funny the amount of attention a person can get (these days from what i'm guessing) from just reading the bible in a public setting. it's not so much as "why?" but more "how is being religious a bad thing?". it's not like i'm converting people left and right and supporting Scott Lively or that Defend The Family crap. i'm all for my rights and people being able to be with whatever beliefs they have.

i wish i had friends who were really friends. the friends i would see even after school was over, the friends that wouldn't mind seeing all my sides. maybe a friend or two who shared interests in music and playing music. if only, there were people i could "hang out" with who would be proud to have me as a friend. sure there is always college to make new friends, but that would be different, it's always different, i'm just too different. it's odd, or maybe i'm odd, that there are no people who could relate to me or tolerate me. there must be something wrong with me, maybe.

so i had my little casio and one thing led to another and i found out that it goes down to C2 instead of what was previously thought. now i can play all these new songs in my room instead of going to the living room to play them on the upright. I'M SO HAPPY! C2 TO C6 YES! CASIO! AHHH! (laughing) i had to get that out of my system. :)

my old icon, it's a small portion from one of the pages of "The Lute Book of Margaret Board". what's written, if you can see it, it's a title of song "Half Hannikin" one of my very favorites. also if you notice it's at the end of a Lute Tablature line, 6 lines, to represent the first six courses and letters were used to represent the frets,
c. d. e. f. g. a. b. c. d.
1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. just like that, complicated isn't it?

well at least it's easier than notation. i've already found a site and a few songs by some no-name band... so yeah, it's a start! :)

i wish i could wear clothing of the opposite sex. i could make it work. i just like gender-bending. is that weird? oh well. it's not a fetish thing, i guess it's a werid shot at being attractive and having some new positive self image. i saw a skirt and thought "i wonder, what it would be like to wear a skirt?".

i saw a song title (one thing led to another) and i thought "Teen Dream" by Shaun Cassidy. ohh, he's so cute! well in 1977 he was. i haven't seen a recent photo, just assuming that 30 odd years takes a toll. i wish i could have one day with "1977 Shaun Cassidy" ohh how lovely it would be, of course he's probably not gay... but at least i can dream.

can't stop listening to the DOS Techno Virus. uh signing up for the sat's, ends in two weeks. so i have some luck there, finally got around to cleaning my old notebook, did the typed report, and just watched Charlie Schmidt's "Keyboard Cat". now i have sometime to myself. :)

so i'm learning to play Minuet in G Major by: Johann Sebastian Bach. and also learning Minuet in A minor by Henry Purcell. i have not been reading my bible recently, i don't feel bad however i am obligated. i've had to many things to do recently, mainly STUPID ENGLISH 4. anyway back to the bible, i just don't want to forget where i left off. OHH! i just remembered i have a chesse danish behind my notebook (computer)! well i better get back to music theory homework. i still have yet to find time to sign up for the sat's. oh well i can work it out. :)