Should I come out? I feel comfortable with myself and my identity, so I know I'm ready. My friends are very supportive of me, so I am fine emotionally. I am in a pretty gay/bi/transsexual friendly area, so I feel safe.
But how do I come out? Do I just announce it to the world? Or do I only tell if some one asks? I would rather announce myself, but how? Any ideas here would be very very very very helpful.
After I yelled him out, got mad at him, punched him and walked out, I felt better.
That sentence was a lie. I didn't yell at him, punch him or walk away from him. I'm too chicken. I know I should have at least yelled at him, but I didn't. Why? He left me for his stupid friends, I really really really needed him at that moment.
Why am I even still thinking about that? I don't need to. Aarg.
You said we could talk tomorrow. You apologized, but did you really mean it? I assume that you must, you said it in front of your friends. To them you are the 'tough' guy, who would never apologize,. especially not to your female loser friend.
Now you tell me you won't be there. Well, I won't be either. So there! You liar. I cry now, because of you. Liar. You promise me, then you 'forget.' Liar. You're a heartless bitch, you know that? I hate you. Liar. You tell me you want to be friends, but when they show up, all those promises go out the window. Who cares what you think!
I needed to talk to you so badly. i was crying as you got your bike ready. You didn't see because I don't let you see me cry. it makes me feel vulnerable to your kindness. You pulled out of the driveway and then they were there. They questioned you, pestered you. You listened. I saw your face as you rode back to the house to call your mom. You always cared too much about what they thought. You showed that to me today. They made a few snide remarks and rode away, dragging you behind them.
J's a jerk. M is nicer to me than J ever was, I love my laptop, hungry, pizza? Curry, dog, smelly, yummy curry, oh! A butterfly!, I like yellow things, friends? Why is E still out of town? Why is J such a jerk? Stupid iTouch, why can't i see The President Of The united States Of America? Why am I not 21? Beatles, Music, hungry, C's hot, E2 is leaving, sad, hungry, braincramp, where is C2? Swimming, summer, hot, Big Lake, swimming, yummy food, hungry...
THank you for listening to my thought process.
Spring Break is Finally here!!!!!!!!!!! I wonder why they call it Spring break, in AK it's Break-up Break! Slush, slush, slush and mre slush. But right now we are actually having a downpour of snow! Yay! I'm going skiing!!!!!!!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I just realized that I have three huge creative stories due sometime between April 21st and June 30th. Has anyone ever done Nanowrimo?????? It's this organization thing where you set a word goal for yourself and you try and reach it by the end of the month. If you reach it, CreateSpace will give you a free copy of your novel. My story isn't quite finished, and it has to be done by June 31st. My story is about this society where everyone is queer. I lost the story almost 15 pages ago, and now I'm stuck.
I was remembering this Mock wedding that me and my friend (let's call her Jane) Jane set up. We had this whole ceremony, but we changed the 'You may now Kiss the bride' to 'You may now hug the bride'. It was really fun actually, but the sad part is that L (I'm calling her Lisa) was the 'best woman' and not the bride. I really like Lisa, too, but, well, she just is the kind of person that you can look at all you want, but she is a real loner. Oh well.
THe stupid school Board didn't give our teeny-tiny school enough money so now we don't have a math teacher for Algebra I anymore. Stupid school.
Because I feel like it I'm going to list all th naughty words I konw
Now direct them all at the stupid school district. Thank you.
One of my friends said, when I came out to her, that she thought she had gaydar. She said that she knew that I was queer. That was weird. I know that she doesn't lie, so that isn't an option. Can she have gaydar if she's straight? Does gaydar even exist????? If it does, I could really use it. Have any of you read AM I BLUE? A collection of coming out stories??????????? I wish I had gay fantasy #3. Desperately. Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yay, let's be happy that the snow is melting! Not! Sacrifice to the cloud bears!!!!!!!!!! Blood! Snow!!!!!! I'm sick. nO school for me! I also hung out with two idiots last night. My friend and his classmate. My friend, let's call him George was being a jerk. He always puts me down whenever he thinks someone might tease him for hanging out with me. Shut up, George! Who cares! We're friends!!!!! His classmate is nice sometimes, but same deal with the teasing. George was being a jerk cause he thought that his classmate, Fred, was going to tease him and Fred was being a jerk for the same reason.
I am so fucking tired. I stayed up until 11:30 last night and I woke up at 5:00. Is anyone else sleep-deprived? I don't even have good dreams!!! I keep having the same dream; I am talking in Russian and everyone can understand me, but I have no idea what i am saying!!!!! Then someone comes up to me and they say something, in russian and everyone laughs. then i say 'Da, eta pravda' which means 'Yes, that's the truth.' then whoever it is takes me to this little tiny pit in the ground and they start burrying me alive. it is a really creepy dream and I keep having it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was on my forum post on this site the other day and We were talking about Gay and Lesbian Books that are not trashy and this random person busts in and "yells" 'AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! LESBIAN RAPISTS WHEREVER I GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' it was totally random and then she went on and on about how queers are all prostitutes and rapists. then she tried to tell us that she was for Gay rights. Like hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a jerk (and other words I won't type because they are too crude)! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!