you know when you feel as though you've made some sort of terrible mistake
BUT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU DID WRONG
and it just fucks with you?
edit : NEVER MIND I AM REALLY DUMB. oh my god.
otherwise... i don't know.
being loved doesn't make me any happier, really
(... later tonight, editing and continuing this journal:
i still hear the calls
i still find it beautiful
i still hide there sometimes
i fear your cousin
i am ashamed
PEOPLE WHO BITCH ABOUT SHELBY SAYING WHAT SHE HAS TO SAY
AT THE END OF THE DAY THE WORST THING THAT HAPPENED IS THIS :
SOMEONE ON THE INTERNET THAT YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW DISAGREES WITH YOU.
THAT'S ALL THERE IS TO IT.
i had a lovely weekend, how about you guys?
DO YOU GUYS WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY? YEAH?
so i go to school and i brought all my product with me because i was going straight to my friend's place after work and we were going to a party
BUT I LEFT EVERYTHING AT SCHOOL
so i go to work and i realize this so after work i have to do a 2 hour detour by bus to get everything because otherwise i wouldn't have anything til monday, so by then it's like 8 and i still hadn't eaten anything and i almost lost my fox tail clip on my bag in the snow O_O
i'm hungover and waiting for my lovely
this is why i hate people from my high school
(DELETED LINK FOR PRIVACY)
i wish i had screen captured the whole conversation!
amorevolous - affectionate; loving
apanthropinization - withdrawal from human concerns or the human world
blateration - chatter; babbling
boreism - behaviour of a boring person
caprizant - of the pulse, uneven or irregular
deartuate - to disremember
eternitarian - one who believes in the eternity of souls
fallaciloquence - deceitful speech
lugent - weeping; mourning
murklins - in the dark
phlyarologist - one who talks nonsense
tenellous - somewhat tender
vicambulate - to walk about in the streets
xenization - fact of traveling as a stranger
The kids got the radio blasting
I'm on the sidewalk sweating
The girls know how to move to the music
I wanna get
And it's getting hot in the city
Everyone's wet and sticky
I don't mind the heat when the beat
Is getting me
On my feet
My boy's on the cord with a Popsicle
This street in the heat in the beating sun
There's only one thing keeping me downtown
ugh guys my life sucks
i only have 2 dior sweaters
i make my romantic interest mixtapes and collages and i don't get anything back :( we're celebrating vday tmrow though so maybe he'll get me something, the bitch
BLERGH TEENAGE ANGST LOL
edit : expect me to post glitter graphics EVERYWHERE from now on
edit again! : I HAD SO MUCH FUN DOING MY ABOUT ME PAGE OMG
trois bouteilles de vin, notre palais secret, ton ombre derrière le drap, s'embrasser après une cigarette, écouter The Virgin Suicides, ne pas écouter The Virgin Suicides, admirer l'autre dans sa nudité, The Start Of Something par Voxtrot
(is it bad that i really want to get him to try mdma with me? i'm sure i could convince him. i love the way it makes everything seem too beautiful and surreal, i just want to share that with someone. is that so bad? i just want to know what it would be like, with him.)
today, i was a boy in love.
i have a valentine (-:
i'm going to fall in love with this boy, i swear. i keep messing up but i am always forgiven. i just want to do lovely things all the time for him
like write letters, or draw, or make mixtapes, or eat sushi, or go to the grocery store to mess around. (jeff, here is your cue to comment)
and i am so cliché
and everything that usually hurts. but it doesn't.
we're both so scared of this because we've had pain
but we're still naive and young.
and i used to be so convinced that misery was beautiful
A. Roles have inversed and I have become so ashamed, ashamed of being human, living. I was supposed to be the dead one, the robot, the fuck up. I was the rotten one. I was the one who was dying to be sad, for a reason to be sad. I only ever wanted to be interesting.
je serai pour toujours un enfant lunatique
perdu dans un monde trop grand et trop beau