Angsty baww-riffic journal from me. Just a warning.

It's like everyone is mad at me today-
but I don't know what I did.

Wouldn't you be concerned if your friend was doing homework so often they never got out of the house or did anything fun?

Wouldn't you hate it if someone promised to be a better friend and then just treated you even worse?

This site is so gay, omg. I've never been around such gayness in my life. Why are we all just so gay?

Hurrr :P

Anyways, in Health today, we played "Pass the Compliment" And what I got today made me really happy so I'm gonna share with you guys :)

You seem really fun! :)
You seem very kind and sweet :)
You are super cool! And unique :) I miss you and your mom, and softball with you!
You are really nice and cool. I was in your group once, but I hope we can talk more!
You are verrrry funny and smart, and you don't care what people think.

Let me in,
little pig.
Open up and let me in.
It's cold out here,
little pig.
So open up and let me in.
Let me in, let me in.

I'm begging you,
little pig.
Open up and let me in.
The snow is around my ankles;
little pig.
Please open up and let me in.
Let me in, little pig.

I see your house is straw,
little pig.
No use pretending it's brick.
You asked me to come over,
little pig.
Please open up for me,
little pig, little pig.

I thought you loved me,
little pig.
Open up and let my love in.
I promise I won't hurt you,
little pig.
I want to help you.

My body doesn't know it yet, but I've only gotten like three hours of sleep.

I'm gonna dieeeeeeeeeeeee

He gives me the tummy fuzzies <3

I've always thought the term "butterflies" was highly innacurate- It's more like a big cotton ball soaked in gasoline is lit on fire in your chest. You inhale and it ignites faster, a warmth spreading through you.

I love him :)

We spent the day together and maybe, this time, we didn't do that much- But I had such a good time. I could tell he did, too. He took a three hour nap, or somewhere around that (I think longer) and it was so cute to watch him sleep and wake up occasionally. When he did, he'd hug me and kiss me and fall back asleep XD

I went to the doctor about my constant back pain lately.

She said that I might have Arthritis, or worse :(

Which really scares me. She wanted to take X-rays of my spine but I told her it's not a big deal unless it won't go away, so I got set up to do physical therapy. My back really hurts.

So I don't know how much I'll be able to post, but I'm gonna try. I'm sorry guys.

I'm praying it's just some growing pains or muscle soreness from my heavy backpack, but I don't know.

I'm writing an essay about this. BUT UNFORTUNATELY Oasis randomly cleared my writing TWICE after I had gotten around ten lengthy paragraphs done. So I am going to post this and edit it when I'm done writing it SO THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN AGAIN.

Made me so mad.

That was embarrassing, nevermind.

Anybody else excited for Pokemon Black/White?

First off, I have to ask

What are YOUR dreams? What do you want to be when you grow up?

Think about it really hard.

At a young age, we all answer the stereotypical sort of "Firemen/woman!" "Teacher!" "Zookeeper!" "Astronaut!" "President!" sort of jobs (By the way, if I missed yours when you were little, please tell me ;) )

But as we grow older, we realize- Holy shit, there is so much I could do, would do, would LIKE to do.

There are an infinite amount of paths we can partake down, HAVE gone down already.
Think about your journey so far-
Are you happy with the progress?

Man I am zombified lately.

I feel like I'm some walking dead husk of a person. All I do is eat, sleep, play video games, masturbate, and attempt to talk to people.

BUT I DO HAVE STORIES. I put on happy face for jew.

So I ACTUALLY INVITED T-REX OVER TO SPEND THE NIGHT
AND SHE SAID YES, YEA?

AND THEN
HER MOM
WAS LIKE
OH WAIT NEVERMIND, WE'RE GOING TO YOUR GRANDMA'S

and I was like
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

So yeah, she couldn't come over after all... :c

And Boyfriend was like "Ah, it's okay, you guys woulda got all lezzy anyways"

XD

Went to boyfriend's house

It was his dad's birthday :) He got an ice cream cake and I got the first slice, which was the biggest XD He's soooo cool! He's like the nicest dad ever. And boyfriend likes to mess my hair up, so whenever I fix it, then his dad will run up and mess it up again.

Why do they like to pick on me? ;_;
XD

I am a huge video game fan- Especially for the music.
I suppose the first music I ever got addicted to was two of the Final Fantasy games- 1 and 7.

Gosh, what a difference in sound between those two. And even moreso for the most recent!
I've been listening to the main theme from game one until the final one, and it's so marvelous hearing a change from a tritonal beep up into a full-blown orchestra. It's beautiful :) But they're all amazing!

Well I need two kinds of advice XD Fun advice, and serious advice.

I'll start with the fun :P

So this week, we have school off. It's midwinter break, yo! And I was totally going to invite T-rex over and hang out, yo. BUT THERE'S A HUGE PROBLEM, MAN. I'm like... A dude. I play video games with my few friends. T-rex is a total chick. WHAT DO GIRLS DO AT SLEEPOVERS?
I HAVE NO IDEA, OMG XD

So today was T-rex's birthday
AND I GAVE HER A BIRTHDAY SPANK YEAHHH MAN
and she was like OH. SHELBY YOU SPANKED ME, OH NOOO~ but she was totally laughing XD Which I think is AWESOME.

And then she ran after me on the way to the busses XD "SHELBY! SHELBY WAIT FOR MEEEEEEEEE"
it's so cute XD
and then it was hailing and it went down her shirt... XD She was like AHHH IT'S COLD, COLD IN MY BRA RIGHT NOW

"And I'm not your bra "

But uh, not much else happened today. But I just thought I'd tell you it's T-rex's birthday :D