NO.
NOOOO

GODDD I HATE THAT NOISE
it's just like, one of those noises that drives me NUTS. Like, I'm not even sure it's the clippy noise, but rather you hear it once, and then....
...
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*CLINK*

GAHHH THAT PAUSE MAKES ME ANTICIPATE IT
it's so groooooooossssss

Am I the only one that is bothered by it? What sounds squick you guys out?

This guy is the funniest shit ever. He rants kinda like me though so I guess TRIGGER WARNING IF YOU'RE EXTRA SPESHUL SENSITIVE

Am I the only one who geniunely loves teachers and coaches? I love learning and stuff. I've always been the one to like, actually TALK to my teachers, and treat them like humans instead of caretakers. But in orchestra, in my section, there's this one girl who's also on Colourguard, and she's always disrespectful to the person teaching her, being lazy and saying that she won't practice things that we're going to do.

Hey Oasis! Life is going so good right now :)

Yesterday, KT came over and we had an AWESOME time. It was like 80 degrees out, which is pretty hot for my part of Washington, and we had a watergun/hose fight in the front yard (wet t-shirt contest?). And then I taught her all my guard stuff! So she totally might join, which is awesome! And then at like 10, we went to see Harry Potter pt. 2, second time for me XP Cried the whole movie AGAIN!

Ah... today in guard, we learned Fred. It's a routine on rifle, and it is absolutely amazing. It's so easy but looks so flashy! :D

Kind of sucks because two of my relatives do it, which makes it hard for me to come out.

My mom said once something along the lines of that nobody's really bisexual, they're just really gay and just switch over occassionally. She played softball and has tons of lesbian friends, one that got married to a man and had kids and is a lesbian now, and she probably takes that as being no "middle ground".

I just feel unimportant to anyone right now.

I come home and I'm really just this roommate to my parents. My mom, dad, and I all eat dinner in seperate rooms. My mom only comes in to yell at me or to tell me to do something.

It's a really broken family, right now.

I wish my parents acted more like they loved me and tried to understand me instead of just shutting me out. I may be the one in my room all day, but it's them that force me here.

None of my in-real-life friends ever text me to check up on me or anything and it's really frustrating.

Colourguard is amazing, maaaan!

So our rifle tech went off to teach his own guard, and we got a new guy, and he is sooooooo gay.

Oh man. So that means all our coaches are gay now! Jmac and Amanda are getting married soon <3 and then JB, our leader, is super gay and his boyfriend's adorable, and then Mattie is super gay and ohgod <3

The only fun things anymore are physical therapy, lessons, and Colourguard. FRIENDS Y U NO WANT TO HANG OUT >:C

I'ven't been posting since nothing cool has been happening lately at all.

NOTHING >:C

KT is off on a 3-week vacation so I'm kinda alone. My 4th of July sucked :C

Ah... I've been drawing a lot. I just finally got my tablet driver software to work on my laptop so I can draw on it :D

I've been playing Portal 2 and Ocarina of Time lately. <3 Also been playing pokemon, training myself a pretty cool team. If anyone wants to battle... :P <3

So last night around 2 AM, my sister's fiancee had a seizure in his sleep and had to be taken to the emergency room.

It was really scary. I've never had anything that scary happen before. He's thankfully doing alright, but the doctors don't know why he had the seizure yet and are doing tons of tests on him.

My mom and I drove to the hospital last night when it happened to see him, and he just looked like a mess :( When I got home, it was like 4 AM. I had physical therapy this morning at 10. So I'm really tired.

I mean, I told him I had to go do something, and then he figured out what I was up to, BUT I CHANGED THE SUBJECT.

AND HE BROUGHT IT BACK TO THAT.

WHY?!

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Anyways, yes. Jbro is just... *shakes head* I don't even know anymore. If he's just being playful, it's a damn weird way of doing it cause he never cared before about that stuff.

Sorry I'ven't been posting much lately, guys XP

I've been such a sloth! Mom woke me up early today and we went out to go shooooppingggg :D
I bought three books :) One is called This Is Your Brain On Music and I <3 <3 <3 <3 it.

In fact, I wanna share a quote with you that ABSOLUTELY AMAZES ME

"Contrary to the old, simplistic notion that art and music are processed in the right hemisphere of our brains, with language and mathematics in the left, recent findings from my laboratory and those of my colleagues are showing us that music is distributed throughout the brain.

Oasis, help me out. I'm having super horrible headaches lately. What's a good thing to help it feel better? It's driving me nuts.

See, growing up, my mother's always been absent from my life emotionally.

She has really bad anger issues that were imparted into my sister, which is why my sister used to beat me.

But, me and my sister have learned to be different. While my mother is reactive, we aim to be proactive.

The difference is that, being reactive, you "react" to situations instead of aiming to improve them. You think things happen to YOU, not just happen. You think everything is everyone else's fault. You're easily put-off by people when they oppose you, or say something you don't like.