I love you, I love you in a way I can never truly show completely. It's there, like the dust particles that you're inhaling right now (The kind you can only see when it's in front of a bright sunbeam early on the sunday mornings when you sit and watch a little too much tv) and you probably don't even notice, but I'm there, and I know you love me too, even if sometimes you don't show it well either. Maybe it's time to show it more, because you mean the world to me, and I love you, you're one of the best friends I have EVER had
Ehh. Both. I had a great day at school, I mean, and after school was EPIC! T was breakdancing for me :3 Oh, and I got some good pictures of Chaddikins fo' yo' all XD
But... After school I got into an arguement with my mother. She's so scary. We went out to dinner, and I spent the whole time focusing my gaze on the pepper shaker and scratched coffee pot, avoiding looking to my right at all. It's not the fact that I didn't get my way that upset me, it was how she TALKS to me.
God, addicted to this song!
Just just just listen! It's AWESOMELY pervy!!
Ahh, Jason Mraz!!! XDDDD
It's really sexy and hot though >///<;;;
Sorry, sorry! But they make me so happy!
Just in case you missed my old, best ones, I'll put them on here too.
I have a headache, and I'm not happy about today because my buddy L is coming over to work on a project with me, and she can be sorta... scary when she's mad D:
But really, I'm trying to relax and feel better...
It's one of THOSE days, where I feel like throwing up.
Ugh, ugh, ewwwww I feel icky. I want to lay down and sleep... But I can't. Maybe if I throw up, she won't have to come over, and then I can just play the new games my dad bought me today. Yeahhhh.
I'm lonely. I want a girlfriend. I want someone to snuggle wuggle with me T___T
Today. Was. Awesome. I dunno why!
Well that's a lie. I was in a GREAT mood, got more sleep AND got up early and ate breakfast...
Then I listened to some Matt Morris. He's gay! He has a husband named Sean, too :3 either way, he's a past student of my orchestra teacher and I'm addicted to his songs... Beautifully haunting voice.
Today's a great day with a stressful ending. We'll start at the beginning.
I slept in until seven, an hour later than my usual. When I finally awoke, sat up in my bed and rubbed the clutches of sleep and the leftover nighttime out of my eyes, I noticed how awfully beautiful the sunrise was, shining dimly through my window.
I was glad I didn't have my lamp plugged in, because I had missed this beauty for too long. I may sleep in more often, just to see that. The way the room was just faintly lit, the sky a light pink color... It was gorgeous.
She's so freakin' beautiful that I blush almost instantly. Ohgod how embarrassing!!!! D:
Anyways, just a little bit of my contact with her...
I sat at her desk during social studies and wrote "Hi C :) -Shelby!"
So I wore my only dress to school today.
And people told me it looked great! :D I was very happy with how many people loved seeing me in a dress, that I looked good >///<
Flattery... It's a lovely thing.
It's super effective! XD
Haha. Just joking. Actually, there is a very pretty girl that I think might be closeted. I dunno *shrug* she seems like she'd be bi. I just want to know another girl in real life that's either bi or lesbian! D: I only know... two, and I don't see one that often. We'll call her H. And then there's K, who's a meanie-head to me. So why try for them? >_>;;
I miss you.
There's nothing in the world I want more than for you to stop hating me.
You've tried to prove that there's nothing I can do anymore.
But I have to. For me? Not so much for me as for everyone. For Katy, for Hannah. For the people I can't keep seeing hurt by all the turmoil. Don't you miss it? Hanging out with me and Katy and Hannah and laughing and cracking jokes and being best buddies?
Well, I know I do. I screwed up real bad. And no matter what I do, you'll never forgive me and forget it. It's just who you are.
World tennis finals?
It was WEIRD. He's a year younger than me, and VERY creepy sometimes. Not that he's not funny, just...
Haha, I keep saying that. Too much holocaust studying XD
So I had to totally rejectttttt him XD
Ooh. One of the people I know just exploded on me again. God, I'm getting great at keeping my temper down! It's excellent news for me :)
I'm slowly getting stronger every day! Yay! <3
Ahh. Sometimes I guess all you need is someone just as strong to guide you. ^__^
I'm addicted to this movie.
What is it about it? The fact that Belle is just the perfect princess to me? Or the fact that the beast would be like, the perfect guy for me? Haha. I dunno. Something about a person who's misunderstood, hard to control, yet protective is... very attractive to me XD
Except I feel like that sometimes. Maybe I AM the beast then. Sounds like picture time to me! :D
I'm really enjoying drawing lately. It's quite lovely. I wonder if I make shorter journals if people'll comment?
...I never really knew about being anything but straight, you know? I was ignorant. I used to be that girl in kindergarten that liked dragons and sword fighting and video games and comfortable pants! I was the little girl always bragging to the guys about her accomplishments with digging holes and wrestling and playing Pokemon.
I was the tomboy. But then I started noticing alot how I would say to girls like "You know, if you were a man I'd date you"
*Funny thing, Chad, I said that to Hannah first! XD and now she's mah wifey*