Dude.
I got the most girl action today EVER. I got my ass squeezed, some gropage, AND some snuggling.
But then she was like "I WANT TO BE A MAN " and it kinda ruined the mood.

Psh, that was in P.E., too...

Anyways, on a more sad note, I really need to pour out some stuff, so, don't mind me...

Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

<3

Heehee, well, I have a performance today with the Show Band. So I had to get up early. We finally get our dresses today- I'm so excited! It'll be AWESOME. I absolutely love performing, even if I get a little bit nervous. Once the music starts and I get into the zone- Hell, you bettah watch out :P

Mmm, I'm so happy though. Life is great! I wonder if anybody will ask me to Homecoming at school? Doubt it, but, hey ya never know! One girl I know had eleven guys ask her...

I'm amazed. A few weeks into high school and I've already found two bisexual girls to be my friends- One year older, but that's no problem at all. One of them, I'll call her M, thinks that she's a man and wants to be a transgender to see if maybe it feels better, but can't. Her mother won't allow her, and it's really sad. She's amazing though, and I really love her. She likes to reach her arm around me and say things like "Hey baybeee" and stuff. It's awesome.

How did I do this? Find two freakin' bi girls like, ASAP. I don't get how, but I'm going to see if I can jump on this boat!

But I hope he believes in me, just for today.

Just for today, could the message get through; Just for today, can he hear me?

Maybe it would be easier to just send him a letter, like Santa Claus.

I don't know if I've really displayed my absolute love for theater on here, but I do. I've always wanted to be part of it because I just enjoy it so damn much. I can't sing, though. Nor can I act. I could be prop girl?
But then it hit me today!

PIT ORCHESTRA.

Yeeeeeeeees.

I left out creme brules from last night's dessert and I'm eating them anyways. Too yummy to waste.

My sister said some terrible things today and I don't feel like doing anything but play viola, sleep, eat food, and play video games. Maybe some art. It's such a hassle. This last week has gone down the shithole. What am I supposed to do? God.

Does anybody want to come over and watch happy movies and snuggle with me on the couch? We can eat yummy food and laugh and be warm under comfy blankets. And then get into a pillowfight :3

Just a suggestion! :D

Like today.

Everything seems better now :)

Daddy found a harmonica and he cleaned it up and gave it to me. Personally, playing a new instrument is awesome even if a harmonica doesn't really count XD It's so much fun!

I'm really sick and I should go to bed. I'm coughing and sniffling and it's gross and bleck. I got a B+ on my Trig. quiz 8D It's awesome!

I hate being sick. It's the type of sick that is so typical of movies and stuff, the runny nose, sore throat, fuzzy head sort of cold that makes you just wanna chug a bottle of Nyquil and take a nap.

God I wish it were that easy.

Is it possible to get a hangover from anything that's just incredibly awesome? Nothing like a few hours in a wet, cramped rock cave at the beach... with someone... ;D

Today was great until he said the words "Don't get mad at me..."

Then it went to shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

Damnit. I thought things were going uphill and then they went pshyoom D:

Please please please things get better again. I hate this feeling.

I don't know what to be jealous about.

Everything about today was fabulous- The smell of cotton candy, smokers cooking pork to be mixed with barbeque sauce, grilled meats, hot dogs, and the fresh sea air (mixed, of course, with the fishy-but-yet-not smell of sundried seaweed), the music loud and the waves lapping against the rocky shore, and the crowds of people bustling to look at the hand-made crafts of beautiful colors of all sort.

It's not even that I don't know what to say, I just don't know how to say it. That's what I love so much about Orchestra class, the unspoken, misunderstood words can flow from my soul and out into the air, beautiful for people to hear. Or terrible, and out of tune, and broken. Your soul, your heart, makes the music.

Anybody else but me absolutely love them? They're my favorite right now.

Here's the first cover I heard from them:

I AM writing a journal, HAH.
Take that.

Um, but seriously, all my recent romantic endeavors are indeed very Heterosexual and I feel bad writing about that on here.

I loooove orchestra and being second chair Violist. Mr. Orchestra is on CRACK I swear and he likes to project his voice very, very, loudly in my direction. And stuff.

Love him :)

Fuckin' dentists. Does anybody else but me REALLY hate going? I don't like someone staring in my mouth for an hour and poking my gums accidentally when they're scraping my teeth.
Gawd.
And I NEVER floss because it's a pain. I have sensitive gums DX I don't want to go, but I have to. Lovely, lucky me.

I could never be a dentist. Mouths look so weird when they're all open and bleckkk.

Are there any days where you feel like nobody will listen and care about anything you have to say cuz you're being a drama-queen-whine-whore?

WHOO I AM THERE.

Anyways, so I'll just write out stuff here and see if it helps.

Um. So I haven't been getting much sleep (This morning I woke up at like, six thirty, too) because I keep falling half asleep and dreaming that I'm doing drill, so I'll be like "WTF Why am I laying on the ground? I need to reset and do that run again!!!" and so I'll sit up and wake up and this'll go on till like, 5 AM or later D: It's so annoying...