Made mulled wine with my sister today WHICH IS SO FUCKING DELICIOUS GODDAMNIT.

and I have to drink the extras
and
mygod
It's so heavenly

But I've had a bad day so I'm trying to drink the sorrow away and I don't feel much better.

Worst Christmas ever. I don't want to wake up tomorrow because I know exactly how my head will feel

(Sort of like this does but all wrapped up in a ball)

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Oh god shoot me
I hate my life right now, my head feels like it was crushed between two semi's.

Is like, everyone going to midnight mass or some shit?

All my best buds are gone D':

I really don't want to be alive right now *headdesk* SUPER PMS POWERS HAVE ACTIVATED and I am SO PISSED OFFFFFFFF
I has super rage powers that cannot be controlled. If he doesn't fffksohksrth have a present for me on my B-day I am going to cry :C
I am so upset D':

Chelly just wants to be loved and I am so lonely right nooow. ANGST JOURNAL HOORAH.

It's one of my favorite pasttimes.
EVER.

I don't know why, like, the way they look so nice after I wrap them and making a mystery for the person who gets it, it's just great.

My parents are gone so I could go see what my presents are, but that's cheating ;)

Wrap wrap wrap
I got my boyfriend a five pound Hershey's bar for Christmas. Like 30-50 bucks right thar
apparetly he hasn't gotten me anything yet, for B-day or X-mas, so I'm sort of worried he'll get me nothing D':
But he's a lazy little dude and is probably waiting until last minute or shumtheeng

The sleeping picture is dark and blurry but hey
he's a studmuffin

LOL

Just joking. I mean, if you're really interested, okay XDDD
He's so cute :3

Just really happy here :3
And sore... D:

D'AWW OMG :'3
I love it when he tells me goodnight :'D

YAY FOR NO PRIVACY but I want to show off the adorableness

Jonah: Im always cute :3 <3 but i am gonna go to sleep <3 i love you :3 <3 lots lots and lots <3

AHH SO MANY HEARTS AND SO CUTE AND ADORABLE X3

Am I a lucky girl?
YES I am a lucky girl :'D

Love it when everything goes my way.

I've been poke-dorking out for my whole life and last night I stayed up until three doing it

AGAIIIN

Rival, when do I get my battle? I AM GETTING ANTSY MMKAY? :)

But seriously the whole boyfriend issues have been cleared up, we hung out today
and
it
was
great

and I am so happy, like, you don't even know. He fell asleep for like two hours and he is so adorable when he sleeps. He woke up a few times and looked at me, so I said "Hi, sleepy!" and then he hugged me and kissed me a few times, mumbled something, and fell back asleep XD

I don't know why I even call her that.

It's so pathetic; a hopeless, pathetic phrase.

There's no way she can be my best friend. I see where her priorities lay.

To start this off, I want to say:

This journal will probably offend alot of people because I'm just gonna be really honest and I want to say now:
If your views aren't the same as mine, you can argue, but be polite.

I do want you to tell me your views, but don't say I'm wrong. Everone can approach things the way they believe.

My boyfriend is Bisexual.

I think.

(Ha-ha. I said lesbian so you'd freak out but you know, it was just really catchy.)

Or at least, I definitely think he's hiding something in the closet.

In fact, I can barely talk now. Most of it comes out like a squeaky whisper.

God, I've never had this happen to me. It's so weird. I'm drinking tea with honey and praying it goes away by tomorrow or everyone will laugh at me.

Then again, it'll probably be funny.

So I had Messiah today, which was pretty fun, although I had to stop halfway during the practice because I had a coughing fit. It was soooo-o-o-o-oooo embarrassing, you don't even know. I felt like I was getting everyone germy and bleh.

http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2010/12/two-dad-mice/

Such an interesting article :)

I have been sooo sick lately. I've got the worst sore throat. I've also been coughing up a little bit of blood. Scary... I'm hoping I just had a nosebleed and it went down my sinuses and shit. Otherwise I might have Strep... Which I've had like a bajillion times D: <

I keep going to school even though I'm super sick though. I hate hate HAAAATE missing school with a passion for one reason: Having to go to the attendance office. It's such a hassle...

God, you guys are going to *love* this friend I have neglected to tell you about.

Super Duck thinks she is hilarious, and we both agree that she just might possibly be a clone of FCG.

...Considering she's in the closet, totally into me, and is in my French Class.

For all intrensic purposes I would LOVE to call her FCG but even if I have permission, that would be stealing! So I shall call her... T-rex. Yes. In fact, that little quote in my title is directly from her.

I think,
it is ironic

That if someone, let's say, stops drinking
Or smoking
or even doing drugs;

People tell them they are proud of them.

I'm proud of you for overcoming that.

But cutting?

Cutting never gets the same treatment. It's like it's a taboo, inhumane practice, not an addiction like the rest.

Or for, daresay, attention.

Momentary break from Oasis, kay guys?

I need some damn rest XD

I think I ultimately fell asleep at like, two last night. I was having sooo much trouble sleeping... It's Super Duck's fault, though, cuz after hearing that music I whipped out my old Yellow Version and started KICKIN' ASS. But then I looked away from the screen and noticed it was like midnight XD

Aughhh why must the high school mornings be so early ;__; My class grades go like
A-
A
A-
A-
B-
A

Had a glass of red wine. Which, by any means, should not make me buzzed. But I'm tiny so there.

Had a pretty good Thanksgiving. Sort of avoiding to talk to people until my buzz kicks off so I won't sound like an idiot, but hey! I always do XD
And anyways, it's particularily fun.

I'm one of the happy/lovey drunk people, who just can't stop giggling or hugging people. Which is good, right?

Okay
So it's gone but now I remember that I feel like shit.

There's so much going wrong...

It keeps getting worse.

First he says "I'd love to hang out with you this weekend" but now he doesn't want to because he's lazy and tired.

Hmm, my other option is going and getting high with one of my dude friends, and I just KNOW telling him that's my other option will piss him off.

But you know. I'm not that mean. I don't think I'll go to that, either, considering he likes to touch me even when I say no.... Bad idea, yes?

Do you guys think it's completely reasonable to get mad because your significant other hasn't replied to your text in two hours and therefore you were sleeping the whole time and wake up and he still hasn't replied... and get upset?

Or is that just expecting too much of them?

Sometimes I just want to kill him