i remember when you told me

once or twice, that you left a spot next to you in bed every night

1200 miles (well it’s actually 1267, you’d chime in) away

and yet you kept a space there

in case I, sleepily, crept into your arms in the midst of the night

to sleep

breathe

rest with you

now it is i, 1200 miles away

who leaves a spot for you every sleepless night

my bed’s not big enough for your 6’2” body

and definitely not your dick,

i’d say, like always, ever-the-immature-one

and we’d laugh just like before, your childlike giggle

-No more Miche. She stopped liking me. Broken heart, yadda yadda.
-sorted things out with the long distance relationship boy. He's got mental health issues, which we're working on finding compromises to. Got to a bit of an understanding with that now, so things are....well. Things are very nice, very comfortable, very happy. Very, very, very, amazing.
-got a haircut. I am a sexy beast, yo. my self confidence levels have gone up, been eating right, even excersizing. i feel very good about myself. the boyfriend may be helping a lot though, being nonabusive or douchey and all.... ;)

So I'm leaving for Champs this weekend with my show band, hopefully we'll kick majour ass. :) I'll let you guys know how we do when I get back!

But- GUYS CHECK OUT MY HALLOWEEN COSTUME

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/65360_121110901379082_3693350...

http://sphotos-b.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/60725_121109488045890_1670148...

Y'all bitches be so fukken jealous of my engineer costume!

So, we had our second competition this weekend, and we took sweepstakes! Woo! :) It was rainy and gross, yet we still scored an 87.4 I think. Pretty goddamn awesome! :)

Some photos of me in uni for your viewing pleasure:

http://sphotos-b.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/541247_487672404590074_710755...

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash4/308023_484948301529151_910452... me and my two friends :)

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http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/580789_4019558321965_59021806...

So I was gonna write this earlier, but I've been asleep for most of the day. I'll probably get to a nice, thorough journal sometime when I'm not pasing out. took some codeiene cough syrpup a while ago so i'm starting to fel the efffects

#1- last journal,, Miche kind of "brok eup with me" abd said we couldn't flirt
#2- this was promptly ignored again as of yesterday at the band compettition, on the bus ride home/being outside in the cold
#3- we had a band competition that I'll post photos/videos of so you can check it out

sometimes i just want to gut myself

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash4/308109_109753165848189_120364...

guess what

guess what guys

SOMEONE TOOK MICHELLE TO HOMECOMING OH YES

IT WAS ME

c:

So friday night after the football game, the whole show band goes to a local italian food joint and hangs out. So I bought us dinner and then c: she asked me to go to Homecoming with her!

Okay so I'm really tired, so I'm gonna copy/paste my chat block chunk of data to read from if you want to know what happened. It was... very good C:

ok so like a bunch of shit happened with the lady so things aren't great anymore

I don't know at the minute if I'll be unlazy enough to write about it

BUT FIRST OK guys I finally got a facebook so
if anyone wants to friend me or something idk http://www.facebook.com/shelby.noelle.79 here you go

So my first very real, very gay set of news might take a while to write but I'm thoroughly excited. You'll have to wait a moment though c:

Right now, I'm sitting at home eating breakfast and watching Harry Potter. But SHELBY! you might say, It's a school day!

Well, yes. I'm in Running Start, a college in the high school program. So as it is, I go to first period (orchestra) and then I come home and I"m done with school (until college starts on the 24th, then that's a whole 'nother story, but I'll get to that when it happens).

So, I finallllly have time to write things!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BosZxa1bYcE

30 minute documentary... Pretty interesting!...

so today I had a horrible migraine all day

I get them rather often, at least once a week.

So.. tsk.. news!

My dad bought me a car! It's absolutely amazing actually, like, I'm so happy with it. It's a 2001 black jeep grand cherokee and it's gorgeous. It has a lot of small issues and one big engine issue, but dad got it for like 1/7 of the cost. He's a great mechanic though so he'll fix it up awesome c:

http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7ak4ox3qj1qcbr5g.jpg
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7ak5jqFRj1qcbr5g.jpg

LOOK BETTER QUALITY THIS TIME

Anyways if you were just here for the hair, go ‘head and X out now

so first off- HAIRCUT!

SHITTY WEBCAM QUALITY PICS GO
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m78poqjj6h1qd5s4ho1_500.jpg

I love my haircut. It's very short and shaved on the back and sides, and the bangs are just POOF. I basically schmear styling clay/gel on it and tousle it and it's all good to go c: or just wake up and let the bedhead fly.

Anyways- My life has been really great!!!! a few possible new love interests, but nothing serious or permanent, AWESOME TIMES with a few of my close, older friends :) and guard is starting up, too!

We find it difficult to understand that other people are human beings in the same way we are. We idealize them as gods, or dismiss them as animals

So I just finished rereading Paper Towns, by John Green. I haven't read it in years, and I always love his books. They get me thinking.

For any who have not read the book, and some who have, it is not a love story- Not romantic love, at least. Despite it involving Quentin, the main character, being in love with Margo Roth Speigleman, the main lesson of the book is this-

BUT ABOUT WHAT, I DO NOT KNOW

today I went shopping, bought some new shorts for band camp and POKEMON SHIRTS!
they're kinda lame b/c they're just pikachu, but egh. Any pokemon shirt is good for me c:

I have been handling the breakup well, mostly! c: In fact, I have a NEW BOYTHING
we've got a bromance. He's my brofriend.

really we're both too fukken awkward to make the relationship any sort of feelsy on a regular basis so we like call each other dude and be dicks to people and play video games

that is our relationship so far

I like it