Today, at my bus stop, the kids were there again and they were also using the "that's so gay", "he's so gay" kinda stuff. What made me even sadder was that the elementary school kids were using it too on the bus.
It's hopeless to stop this.
SO, I suggest that we just let the insensitives just HAVE the word gay, and come up with a new one.
I'd prefer something having to do with rainbows. Like the "rainbow people".
Other than that, I went clothes shopping today but could not get the stuff I REALLY wanted (rainbow stuff) because my mom was there.
This morning, I was riding the bus like always.
And, like always, we always stopped at the stops and then people with huge bags under their eyes are slowly stumbling towards the doors, and I'm thinking about how much they look like something out of Night of the Living Dead.
And then, something weird happened.
The bus picked up all the people at the stop, and started moving again. But, a girl had left behind whom was now pursuing the bus.
Someone yelled to stop, and so it did.
She walked up to the door, and while it opened she gave a meek smile.
Today in class, we had an awesome sub in orchestra.
Then we started tuning, and he got on the piano, and played an A for us to tune to. Since with our regular teacher we tune by 5ths, all to the A, I started doing that. With a GUSTO.
Actually, we were tuning one string at a time, and then he chewed me out in front of the entire class, and for some reason that crushed me.
I lost my rainbow piano wristband yesterday, and it was like losing a friend.
I found it about the time when I was just starting to get comfortable with myself, and starting to come out. I thought about how weird it was that someone had managed to drop this wristband in the middle of the hall, especially because no one in the group ahead of me noticed it.
I was still uncomfortable with myself, yet I put it on anyway, like it was my duty.
I just really hate the term homosexual.
It just grates on a nerve I can't even understand.
It's probably because you don't often call straight people heterosexuals, you call them straight.
But still, I just hate it. Gay is fine, it's actually quite a lovely word. I like queer too. Even fag is just fine.
I would rather someone say "oh, he's a fag", rather than "oh, he's a homosexual"
It just kills me.
Today was a FABULOLOUS day! I was just feeling great, and I was really enjoying the day. A lot of good things. AND, at school, we were making connections and responses to a quote the teacher put up, and I was able to make a reference to the prophet of truth, Halo 3:"Your ancestors wisely set aside their compassions, STEELED themselves for what needed to be done... I see now why they left you behind"
Ooh, and I got 100% on the Biology quiz we got back. In our class there was I think my 100%, 2 other A's, 1 B, 7 C's, 10 D's, and 5 F's.
It was a hard quiz.
Best song ever! By Soundgarden.
The title is one of the things that makes it awesome.
What's the rule for white boys dancing in public?
Only if you're gay! Woot! :D
I just left the bag of tortilla chips open, which my mom had told me not to do, and so she took all my money, and smacked me in the head a few times.
70$, or somesuch.
She does this too often.
Well congratulations, mom, now you've taken my money.
Well what am I going to use it for? Candy on road trips?
The only thing that worries me is that if she does this when I get a car, I will be severely hampered.
I don't think unreasonable mom is a good canidate for coming out to.
We're a family!
Not really, but still.
We had a swim team late-Christmas-party today, with White Elephant gifts!
The first thing I did was listen to a suggestion by a friend and steal from someone a huge bag of candy and energy drinks, only to have that bag stolen by that friend later :D
After the bag was stolen, I took another gift, which I chose simply because of the Winnie the Pooh gift wrap on it, and it turned out to be a girls t-shirt that said "Don't text me, I'm right next 2 u", which I put on.
So I went to Mt. Baker to ski for the past few days. We skiied 2 days, one day cross-country, and one day downhill. A few things I did:
I came out to my brother.
We watched the entire first season of 6 feet under. I was very impressed at how fearless they were with their gay character and what they showed him doing, such as having sex and watching porn.
I baked cookies.
Today, I got a replica of the leg lamp depicted in "A Christmas Story", a travel size version of the game Apples to Apples, a comfy pair of slippers to match the robe I always wear anyway, a new laptop, and lots of love and family.
I gave an awesome hat, a wine bottle holder, a card or two, and lots of love.
How was your Christmas?
It seems like the past few days have been just sitting around all day waiting for swimming so I can be doing something.
That waiting includes eating, playing piano, watching tv, and then coming on my computer.
The only positive is that I'm learning Rhapsody in Blue on the piano.
A couple weeks ago, I was at my aunt's house for my cousin's birthday. He had brought a few friends and we came too. Then, there was a man there. I don't know why he was there, or when he got there, nor even what his name was.
We called him Boston because that was where he lived. Why would he be way over here in Washington?
Anywho, my aunt was talking about her swim training for a triathalon she was doing. She wanted to come over to where we lived so that I could give her tips for distance swimming.
Have you decided to come here, this is your brother Chad, and yes, I am gay.
Please talk to me.