Look how hot this is! SO INCREDIBLY SEXY!!!
Makes my heart race every time.
Sorry, just wrote a long, drawn out, dramatic, embarrassing journal. Very sorry if you read that piece of crap, I deleted it immediately... (psst, saved a copy for you, Elph, if you want it)
But, all I feel like reiterating is I have a new favorite person on the face of the Earth. We visited my relatives in Idaho, and there we met my cousin's son. (what is that, cousin once removed or 2nd cousin or what?)
His name is Jeremiah, and he's 1. And he's the cutest, happiest baby you've ever heard about in yo life!
What is there to dislike about him?????
Okay, so I go to this one summer camp every summer, I think this summer will be my 9th year attending.
Last year, I was in a group with 4 other guys and our counselor.
One of the guys I didn't like very much.
One of the other ones was okay, and he was pretty funny, but I don't really care about seeing him again.
The counselor I really did like but I'll probably see him again next year anyway.
But then my 2 best friends were Crazee Austrian and Awesome Asian. Crazee Austrian #2 friend and Awesome Asian #1.
This is something I've felt for a while.
I see people as a kind of animal, very sophisticated and intelligent to be sure, but still prone to our primal urges.
Because no matter how many times we put on a suit or have a polite conversation, there's just this layer that our intelligence and social pressures builds up over our innately animal selves.
And sometimes that shows up, namely when people, mainly men, get drunk, and sometimes there are just people like Kim Jong Il that I just shake my head and are like "why? Why must you do these stupid, stupid, pointless aggressions?".
Okay, a couple questions. It'll start out easy, then probably get harder. Try not to google it then spout it out in the comments...
Who is the fastest swimmer in the world?
What is the tallest mountain in the world?
What is the tallest building in the world?
What is the fastest car in the world? (AKA, roadcar with the most horsepower)
What was the most expensive music video ever made? (adjusting for inflation)
What is known as the oldest non-clonal organism? (discounting technically immortal jellyfish and bacteria colonies)
So I don't want to use his name again, as it might show up on a google search and nobody would be too happy about it, but I've mentioned him before, the really fast 13 year old swimmer with the initials CA.
Well, I've like talked to him once or twice. I've seen him at only like 3 or 4 meets.
And then I friended him on Facebook. And today he accepted my friend request! I just laughed for a while when I saw that. That was hilarious.
Everywhere I go people just don't understand.
Here are my grades:
So, does anything stand out to you on that list? Okay, it's all A's, except for Trig. Do you wanna guess why?
Because that teacher doesn't understand, she's like one of everyone.
My orchestra teacher, high school swim coach, piano teacher, and most glaringly of all MS. TRIG.
So today we were warming up at Champs. Unfortunately, we only had 2 other guys from my team, brothers, besides me that were warming up in a pool with over 300 other people we didn't know.
So we were in a lane with both really young girls that I ran over a bunch while warming up, then there were 1 or 2 really fast guys that were running over and raping me.
Of all the luck. This meet is for 14 and unders, I'm 14, one of the oldest at the meet, and one of the fastest, and 1 or 2 of the 10 something guys who could crush me there were in my lane.
Okay, hint. It's a famous swimmer.
Another hint, it's not Michael Phelps.
Another hint, he's known as the fastest backstroker in the world.
Another hint, his name is Aaron Peirsol.
Went to Champs today, along with 7 other swim team buds. Unfortunately, I didn't make finals... But maybe that was too much to hope for. That's the top 16 in the state.
I still might qualify for finals in the 200 back or 100 free tomorrow. But I almost don't want to, because that means I'll be caught in a predicament.
So, recently, life has been hard, but not interesting.
I've felt pretty well terrible most of the time. About everything.
I've thought, I do so much, all the time, and yet is it really getting me anywhere or just exhausting me?
My favorite ever tv show was 6 feet under, where the characters do fucked up things. They get into trouble. And they lead very hard, terrible lives. But they're extremely interesting lives.
Today when I got up, I felt so terrible emotionally that I just wanted to skip school, life, and just sleep a little longer in my warm, comfy bed.
I lay in bed for a minute or two, and thought about what I had to do today.
Sorry, I just posted a journal, but I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important.
A chick from my swim team just texted me and said she was considering suicide.
That terrifies me, I doubt she'll do it, but if she does, I'll live with eternal guilt knowing what-I-could-have-done.
So, what do I say to someone who's considering suicide?
I read an overly detailed thing about hell recently. I wrote a journal about it, but get this, I forgot to post it! I forgot to press submit before I shut down my computer. I'll rewrite it.
So here is the website, if you're into that sort of thing: http://www.wolfram.demon.co.uk/rp_dante_hell.html
Quick background, hell has 9 circles, or levels, and the higher the level, the worse the eternal punishment. Like level 1 is the best and 9 sucks ass.
But a few things that surprise me:
Back when I was 10, I was the dead last, worst swimmer in Washington state, at 267th place.
When I was 11, I moved up to the prestigious 243rd place.
When I was 12, I dropped that down to 130th place.
Last year at 13, I dropped that to 78th place.
This year I am so far at 29th place in the state for 14-year olds, and if I have my way that will be at least 16th place by March, which is where Sectionals times generally are.
Okay, I was actually thinking about posting this before Hannah did her thing.
But, for one, I live like an hour from the Canadian border, so it isn't exactly hard to get there.
Also, my Mom was born in Canada, so I "am born of a native mother" and therefore are allowed to get a dual citizenship, something I really plan on doing someday.