http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGSVYgcy24Q&safe_search=on&ytsession=I5TK...

It needs no introduction, nor any explanation. It's just amazing.
Make sure you watch all of it though. Otherwise you won't understand the sophistication of the whole thing.

So, after what is admittedly a very inadequate education in German, still like 6 months into German 1, I've started thinking about things it does better and worse than English.
Ideally, I think languages should be as uncomplicated as possible, so that communication is never impeded, but they didn't evolve perfectly, and that's never going to change just because it makes more sense.

So, I've thought of things about German I both like and dislike. I'll start with what I dislike.

3 things I dislike about German:

There was once a time in elementary school, we were in either kindergarten or 1st grade, I'm not sure. But we had 5th grade buddies, and we had them for a while. I don't remember the name of my "buddy", except that he had red hair. GINGER!
Anyway, I still remember when we were having like our last day of 5th grade buddies and the teachers were all saying "one day, all of you (my class) will all be in their shoes, and you'll be the 5th graders"
And I remember thinking at that moment "Wow, that's like, forever. That's going to be a LONG TIME"

So, I'm sorry for posting depressing stuff.
I'm feeling better today, partially. Part of it was that AHMAZING House last night. I loved that creepy little musical "get happy".

Still feeling, pretty damn crappy though.

But, sometimes I've wondered what it would be like to feel real emotions.
Have I felt REAL happiness? Well, almost every day, I am totally happy, without worry whatever. Has there ever been just one day that was totally amazing in every regard, and where at the end I've just been left without care of any kind? I don't think so.

I wish I could tell and stop myself when I was wallowing... Because I really don't want to, that's just dickish, but I can't help myself right now.

Well, first, I have general malaise, from just mood shifts through the months, and being in a trough right now.
Which, ruins my work ethic, which in turn makes me more hateful of myself, which in turn makes me want to work even less.
So, there's that vicious circle. But that's been going on for a while.

So, I was posting about my day, and then about the title general politics stuff, but then, my brother walked into my room.

I don't know why so often there are movies I love and movies I despise with a passion.
But, prompted by the Horror Movies forum, I found Hard Candy on On Demand and watched it today.
And I despised it with a passion.

If you're really planning on watching it, and don't want it to be spoiled, then don't read this, but I have to mention it to get to my point, and really, if I'd told my past self the plot and then not to watch it, I would've thanked myself anyway.

I don't remember what I was doing... I've searched back through my earliest PM's (by the way, I didn't realize I had 187 pages of 10 PM's each, which means approaching 2000 PM's. Wow, didn't know I'd ever used this site that often).

Well, and I realize that I would fit into one of the general 4 categories of people I tend not to like: Hipsters, Douchers, Tense People, and Drama Whores.
(Hipsters and Douchers are in many ways similar but are by no means the same)

Well, first, my unweighted class rank is like 47 out of 550 as of now, and weighted with my other classes I expect it to be higher, not much, but a little.
And I don't even like school that much, nor do I try hard. Yet, I am still way better at school apparently than I am at swimming which I try my very hardest at everyday, and work my frickin butt off, and care about for my life. I'm in most events ranked at about 20% in Washington, and yet in academics which I don't care about and don't have much passion for, and don't try in, I get about 8%.
Why?

I think I know why I have been so tired recently. Ever since I posted about accidentally drinking caffeinated tea before bed, I've *ahem* warmed up to it, and started doing it every night, because it made it easier to do homework.
And I was having issues getting to sleep for like the 1st hour, when after that I'd sleep like the dead, after the caffeine wore off, but I thought that was okay, because as long as you're lying down and being quiet and closing your eyes, you're getting rest, not as good as sleep, but rest.

I think =3 is kinda lying Youtube down right now and ravaging it through every hole it has, while ripping several new ones and raping those too.
I mean, he reviews viral videos, but most of his videos are as viral as they get, like every video he posts usually has at least 1,000,000 views by the end of the 1st day.
And he's 2nd most subscribed now but he's raping Nigahiga again and again, and it really won't last that long I don't think...

So this is it, the exact point last year, where I stopped dropping time altogether in swimming, while everyone else is approaching me left and right.
The meet that is the same as the one this weekend was the worst one.
And I'm all out of shape, cause I went skiing for the past week.
So, the next few days and the meet are going to be make or break for me.

Because, I just feel so tired, I feel broken. First, I got lost, which I mentioned, where we crawled through snow for like 8 or 9 hours, with very little sleep, and no food or water for 24 hours.

So, some of you may have noticed I was gone for the past week. I was off skiing.
ANYWAYS, important things:
A question got answered for me. I have for a while wondered whether me or, say, a soldier in a camp on the march into enemy territory, has a better life. This is because me, living a modern high school life, have tons, dozens of tiny, niggling worries. And what really bugs me is that I have to care about them, but none of them really matter. At all.

So, as you all know I'm sure, there are literally billions of people on Earth. I'll never meet all of them, but I will have oppurtunities to know thousands and thousands over the course of my lifetime.
I don't have enough time to get to know that many people.
So, I have to decide who is not worth knowing, and that requires to be unfair sometimes, and so here is a list of general qualities I tend to avoid.

Watch this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36uAoe8e2dY&feature=relmfu&safe_search=on

Very good.
But it makes me think. I've always known existence is temporary, but what happens after? I haven't really thought about it too much, but when I have, I basically thought, nothing.
It's kinda impossible to understand, it's not like you're floating in a black void, you're just gone, out, you don't exist anymore.

It could be terrifying, if you think about it. But I don't think it is. If you don't exist, it would be a logical impossibility to be aware of your own unexistence.