Ive been experincing problems with log in mode and trying to retrieve pw in my e-mail but no avail. Ive been struggling to get in touch with Adrian, but it wasnt that imporant. Because I only have nothing to talk about anyway. But its nice to post somthing and vote for the hell of it. Finally got in touch with Adrian, and he helped me to get my old boygasm back so ta da!

Thank you very much, you sexy sexy sexy thang!!!

American Idol :

is the lamest show I have ever seen. Vote off the ugly and the bad voice, and in with the pretty with awesome voice.

Star Search:

Very fair competetive talent with multitasking jogging with various of contestests. In the end most will win, cuz its fair.

Little well known that its been a year and a half since my father had a stroke. Untill today he had this nasty chest cold and went to the hospital. Bronconist, not unusual to me since I had it as a kid. But the xray shows otherwise, he also has some abcess on his lung. They are sending it to a speicalist.

I remember writing oasismag about my fathers anarysm and had small partual of his brain removed and how it was a biggest scare for all of us. A year and a half later hes still smoking and they found unknown abonomonly in his chest. How dumb is that? Part of me dont feel sorry, and I feel wicked for it. Hes my father. *Sigh* Men never changes.

Everyday is just like any other day, people being as they are. Ignorant, stuck up, gossip, and making rumors that never happened and yet they just love to make other people feel bad. Yet, here I am, stuck and feeling sorry for myself in my dank bedroom painted in dark purple and white ceiling. Laying comfortably on my double bed, on sky blue sheets with gold stars and moons floating on the spread. My tiger faux print pillows and blanket, three other pillows lies uncovered from its slip, double sized black blanket covering myself, with beautiful patterns of faded white flowers. Sometimes the room can be like a boiler, as my own mother would state

Long over due, I finally came out to my religious aunt from Canada. Mother and I were in a group chat on MSN with her. We got along with many gossips and some how she blantly told me to find a girlfriend and get it over with. I sorta told her that I dont ever plan on dating girls at all. She didnt get it for a moment *pauses*. Told me whatever happened to the girl from Midland. Im like we are like best of friends. I sorta like boys, you know. *pause* So? What does it make any differance, she says. *mom imz me on another chat* IM PROUD OF YOU! im like im used to it but it was you that didnt want to tell them, mom. she then told me * I THINK SHE ALREADY SUSPECTED* Well like duh, they should since ive been wearing gay shirts, painting my nails and stuff like that. Isnt that obvious?!

This is just about hopeless. Starting a business will take a long time to get stared. Alot of obsicle to dodge and jump over. Alot of money to spend, and alot of shit to worry about. This requires alot of patience.

First two issues to draw the people in. Would need at least 50-200 readers to take on reading the magazine and hopefully they would be able to suggest or subscribe for the rest of the issues.

What can I do now since I quit classes? I could sleep in, shower, masturbate, draw, and make plans for my future magizine business. I could also clean house for mum, clean 2 bathrooms for Grandpa (i get paid for doing that). I could go for walks with my dog to loose weight, do some healthy eating.

Any other suggestions that I could do to keep me busy? Besides PORNS!!!!!

Yes I quit the college classes I took, since I became so fusterated. Not that its to easy, but it bores me and it makes me feel that nothing is doing anything to get me motivated. It stunk hell on ice.

Okay heres the thing, I have come to a grim conclusion of quiting this stupid college. I am not proud of it, but when one's becomes very fusterated, one's has no choice but to drop out. To fail the classes and get bad GPA on your record is not ideal. So I have two choices, to try and work very hard to get all A's to bring the grades up with missing class I have missed. Or quit to save yourself the burden.

What a funky dream, and its 5 am! Its somthing about me introducing my sister a homocidal asshole who started mutilate my family. I was trapped, but excaped, nobody cared to listen, but I would call 911 nobody listened there as well. I was left in the gutter to rot. I woke up trempling and scared. I took a gusty walk around the house and came back, turned on my computer and thought DANG BOY THIS IS NOT A REAL DREAM BUT HOMOCIDAL DREAM? OMG! WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?! I am still trembling from this dream, sweating and stuff.

I took alot of films more like 2 or 3 films in Florida vacation. Guess what? It came back doubled up. Supposely my parent said it was new and never used. I used it, then it came out photo onto another photo. I was really really upset and expected it to be perfect photos. So now all you can see is another photo ontop another photo. Theres a family in the bg, then theres Florida ontop , kinda blurred together. URG. Just perfect! Not. So its wasted. Saddly enough, it ended me being upset over it. Oh well.

I am pondering if i should give up my life in Oasismag by writhering away into thin air or I could activily post my non gay ramblings elsewhere and keep you update on the no boyfriend status???

I have decided on a celtic design, either a heart or a star. We will see. I wont go right ahead and get it done. I will take my time and consider if I really want it or not. Its all up to me. :)

Which one ? I think Star is more like wiccaish so I like it since Im spriually wicca.

I think tattoos are very very gross and pernament. While you can take your rings out and let your skin close. Although, theres this little thing I want out of a tattoo, is a small rainbow butterfly, dolphin or somthing on my pubes. Thats all I want and no more. Any suggestions what I should get tattooed with a rainbow? Let me know!

Well guys Ive been researching on body modification for couple of years and I guess I finally went for it. I got my PA (Prince Albert) done. Its right actually through bottom out of the uthrea (piss slit) with ahorse shoe jewelery on the head of the penis.

It takes alot of physical and mentally perparation to face the adreline rush and alot of research. I mean seriously alot of research. Dont do compulsivly becuase somebody had it and they think you should try it. Bad move. Do a series of research, make sure its what you want and its somthing you want.