Learned how to make prints in Darkroom Photography class today. Made my negatives contact sheet & was...wow! It was like magic. I enjoy the darkroom process, there are a lot of steps and some are very crucial, but I like it. I messed up a lot though, but it was fun.

So not auditing those college classes. The school changed its minds last minute. They allow it, but no ones ever done it before at their school, so they don't know what they're doing. Arrgghh.

Bought cd's: Simon & Garfunkel, Jeff Buckley, and Sarah McLachlan.

Went to the state fair today with my friend A. We ran into my old childhood friend W and two of his school friends. It was great seeing him, if only for about 45 minutes, I NEVER see him, and he's very hard to reach by phone. But I can drive now, so I just have to find the free time to go see him! =)

A and I made the mistake of going on the Pirate ship AGAIN. And THEN going on the Cyclone or Cyclops again immediately after. It was great until the landing. A threw up and I was really nauseous, which was okay until I got very carsick on the way home. But it was a fun day.

I don't really know what to say. I'm a little flabbergasted and disappointed. I asked my mom if I could join Amnesty International, which I've wanted to do forever. And now activism and human rights are becoming even more important to me, I think I want to maybe even go into a career for it. But regardless, I see it as always being important to me, no matter what way I am involved in it.

So I got my car back today from the shop. We had to drive a ways to pick it up, and the shop was in this area that has really narrow roads, quite a bit of traffic, and full of drivers prone to speeding, which is not smart in those conditions. So I was hyper aware of the cars around me, but with good reason.

Saw my sister and brother-in-law for a little while tonight. I'm almost deffinitely going to get to hang out with my sister next Friday. =) She has a crazy work schedule and I'm about to get really busy also.

Traffic has infinite potential to ruin someone's day where I live. There is traffic all the time now. The suburbs are to friggin crowded.

Went to midtown so I could do this volunteer orientation, which is required to volunteer at this children's shelter, but I got there to late because of traffic, and bad google maps directions, and because we would have left a few minutes earlier but my mom had to help my brother on his schoolwork. Orientation is only on Thursday afternoons. And next week I'm starting auditing 2 college classes on Tues/Thur so...yeah.

I'm starting to see a pattern that Tuesdays are just not my days. I got up early this morning to go to my Darkroom Photography class, which I missed last week because of the crazy flooding and my car trouble. So I left in time and got Dunkin Donuts for breakfast. I had to rely on my paper directions from google maps, which suck. So after I dealt with really thick traffic my directions proceeded to get me completely lost. I finally parked in a shopping center and fiddled with my GPS until it worked correctly, thank God, then I finally got to class, about 45 minutes late.

I've noticed that time does fly, when you're having fun and when you're not, when you're busy and when you're not. And then it takes forever to pass sometimes. Seems like time is never going at the speed you want or expect it to, it's very unpredictable.

I guess I should start with the fact that my older sister finally got married this past Sunday. =) Between last Wednesday through Tuesday, so much has happened, it wasn't even a complete week, yet it was probably the longest week of my life.

I passed my driving Road Test today! I finally have my license. =)

I don't know what to believe. Yesterday my older sister picked me up from the dentist. Then we went to the mall to find me a hoodie jacket. The bridal party for her wedding are all wearing hoodie's and track pants while we hang out and get ready the afternoon/night of the bachlorette party. My jacket we ordered was too small, but we found this awesome purple one at bebe.

So I registered for a Darkroom Photography class on Tuesday mornings today, whoooopeee! :) I've wanted to take it for a long time so I was happy.

Then I went to the eye doctor to get a new prescription for my glasses and contacts. I don't even really wear my contacts, hardly ever. I just get annoyed with having to go through putting them on everyday, and getting used to wearing them. And I forget a lot when I do wear them, glasses are much simpler. I only need them to see far away, drive, watch tv, and go to movies.

Went to church, came home and was about to take a nap because I stayed up late and got 4 hours sleep and...BOOM! Very loud thunder. It was raining hard and thundering, so I just lay on my bed listening to it for like 15 minutes. Then the power went out. So I then took a nap. :) I love sleep and rain.

I went out to eat to this Italian restaurant with Mom, Dad, brother, sister, & sister's fiance. It was good, my order of spagetti was gigantic, seriously. It was this deep bowl, with four jawbreaker sized meatballs. I barely made a dent in it, but I'm sure it would have filled Hagrid up.

I'm trying very hard to not give in to depressive thoughts. Trying to distract myself, but it's not really working. Even new music, which I love getting isn't working. I just had one of those moments that really hits you, how hard all this is. I don't think I've ever been so disappointed by my parents. I feel so let down, and they don't even know it. In a very short conversation I found out what my parents think about 'gays'.

So I watched a bunch of videos on youtube of Paramore this afternoon. I had their 2 songs from the twilight sdtk, but I never really listened to them much. So I looked them up and listened to some live acoustic recordings and...wow! I'm officially a new Paramore fan. Hayley Williams is just amazing, so beautiful and her voice sounds just as good live as recorded. I now have a girl crush on Hayley Williams, which is just weird for me. I'm crushing on Evan Rachel Wood and Hayley Williams. And I've been thinking a lot lately about crushes I've had on people I actually know.