little sleep and furniture moving

stardust — Sat, 03 Apr 2010 06:31:38 +0400

I drove to my sister's just before noon today, but it was early because I stayed up till laaaate or early really, cause I'm on spring break.

Anyway we moved furniture and stuff and waited forever for the delivery guys to bring the new furniture, and then we all promptly collapsed for around 2 hours on the couch. :) I was really really tired.

Lately I keep thinking about the future, and my busy life at the moment. Of course I'm hardly not thinking about it in some way, I think about everything all the time, but right now it's more about worry and possibility.

Oasis on Facebook?

stardust — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 01:49:06 +0400

I saw that somebody wrote that Oasis had a Facebook group page. Is there one? I couldn't find it, though I'd have to hide my membership anyway, but I was just curious.

I went to this spiritual activist summitt this past weekend, a church thing my dad made me go to. It was more fun than I expected, I met a lot of cool people. It was kinda disappointing though, because I realized some things about my friendship with A. SHe went to by the way, we roomed together.

the crucible

stardust — Thu, 18 Mar 2010 03:14:44 +0300

Ughhh...I have to do this boor report project tonight, a mobile on The Crucible. I hate that I really didn't wait until the last minute, I was just to damn busy with all my other assignments to start it before now, and I had to switch books because I didn't have time to finish the longer one. I hate book reports, and not a big fan of projects either. Why do teachers love this form of torture? I think it's going to be a loooong night...Oh well, done ranting now.

When I'm done, tomorrow I'll call my cute maybe bi friend A. to reward myself for my stupid over-achiever streak. :)

hw, kissing daydream, and an art summer hope

stardust — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 01:52:14 +0300

Ughh it's just one of those days. I'm exhausted and I have a ton of work to do. I have to finish a chemistry open book test, which is hard because the book is not straightforward at all.

I have to write an elegy poem, study for an english essay midterm, and between now and Thursday I have to read the second half of A Tree grows In Brooklyn and do a book report project on it...When will I ever sleep?

more snow in GA!

stardust — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 06:41:06 +0300

We got more snow today! This morning & afternoon. I've been running on 4 hours sleep since this morning, with a short power nap, but I have one of those intemittent sleep deprived headaches. My school was canceled today, :) so I can home for lunch and watched my Buffy dvd's, season 4. Willow is awesome! ;) And cute.

I'm a people pleaser

stardust — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 09:14:30 +0300

I'm a people pleaser, unfortunately. And I don't even get the point of it, because I can never make everybody happy. I guess I just have this insane need to make up for things that I think others will perceive as disappointments. But now I'm just...exhausted and close to my limit. Something's gotta give. I wish I was a rebel kind of girl who didn't care and just said 'screw it', and I really want to shout 'screw it!' but that's not me. I guess I just want to know when it stops, if there's an end at the horizon.

I'm 18!

stardust — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 08:11:33 +0300

I'm now officially 18, it's my birthday! =) I'm going to the Atlanta Botannical Gardens and a movie, though not sure which one. My mom made me a Red Velvet birthday cake. Yum! It's weird, I don't feel like I'm 18, at least I don't feel any different. And I don't really see anything changing, at least not while I still live at home. Whatever, crossing my fingers for more nice weather! Night Oasis!

bonnaroo!

stardust — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 10:26:59 +0300

I know what I want for my 18th birthday! A ticket to the Bonnaroo Music Festival in Manchester, TN this June!

It's a four-day music festival/concert with bands playing from 12pm-4am every day. People camp out or stay in motels. I want to go so so much that I am willing to camp. I hate camping, that's how much I want to go.

My mom doesn't want me to go alone, so I have to find a friend that's available. But I am praying and calling upon all my good karma I have yet to receive.

Stress, stress, and more stress...

stardust — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 02:32:20 +0300

Don't you just hate stress? I do. There's just so much to do and so many expectations, so now my official answer is 'I'm booked. And don't ask me when, just ask everybody else because I hardly know.'

I just have so much to do, it makes my head hurt when I think about it.

It was my second day at the independent studies school (meets 2 days a week) and it was fun, didn't do much.

almost 18

stardust — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 04:39:42 +0300

I start going to that christian home school academy tomorrow, after my photography class. I'm crossing my fingers for *nice* classmates. I take the ACT this weekend, which sucks, but my dad's going out of town for like 36 hours and my brother's busy. So my mom and I get to go out to dinner, a movie, and shopping, which NEVER happens.

freaky dreams, christian schools, & sci-fi marathons

stardust — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 10:44:45 +0300

I had a really freaky dream last night. There was rain, bad directions, scary screaming violent old ladies, a cool LGBT book store, a stargate, some kind of underground cavern, and a homicidal sociopath who liked cutting people's limbs off. And the psycho was beyond insane about it all. I swear if my subconscious imagination worked a little better during the day, I'd be a millionare writer by now. I really wonder where my mind comes up with this stuff...

Functioning on 4 hours sleep is an art

stardust — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 07:18:26 +0300

I got up early and volunteered at the children's shelter for a few hours today. I answered the phones, greeted people, and buzzed people into the building. I don't know why I deprive myself of sleep, it's really not intentional. Then when I do try to sleep, I'm wide awake. Sigh.

I found this awesome tree today walking around the park near my house. :) Somebody had carved this face onto the tree trunk, and of course I had my film camera with me, so I'm happy knowing that I have something cool to develop and print next week.

Let's grow old together...

stardust — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 09:25:14 +0300

and die at the same time...To Lose my Life by White Lies. I like this song, but sometimes I wonder if I'll end up growing old with somebody. I mean you can't really know, right?

I went to the library and got some books: Gandhi on Non-Violence, Not Turning Back: The History of Feminism and the Future of Women, and Freedom's Daughters. I'm studying nonviolence now, watching some college video lectures, that's homeschooling history. =) I need to brainstorm for some essay ideas.

Brian Eno. Is. Amazing.

stardust — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 07:38:05 +0300

So yeah I just discovered Brian Eno on itunes the other day. I bought the Apollo album and I love it, I've already listened to it all the way through several times. It's described as the perfect Ambiance music, and it is. Another band I found a few weeks back is White Lies, and I bought the album To Lose My Life impulsively after listening to the clips. I wonder how I could only just be finding out about these bands. Ehh, at least I did find them.

Oh! I may hang out with the friend I just came out to again this Friday, not sure yet, but hopefully, we'll see.

so i kinda came out to someone...

stardust — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 11:00:25 +0300

I saw the Lovely Bones tonight, great by the way, with a friend of mine. We've known each other for years from church, but we haven't really been close friends, except when we were younger. We've hung out a few times this year and I think we're becoming good friends. Anyway we hung out and talked awhile after the movie and got onto the subject of her high school and then her GSA club. The club kinda dropped off in activity and has been abandoned, which she thought sucked.