Well, let's start at the beginning.

Okay... lunch. I got my report card then, a day after everybody else. Dont'g et me wrong, I'm happy about my grades... heck, who woudln't be? I have a 4.0..

But nobody asked me about my grades. Everybody was asking everybody else, cuz my freinds are all like "Ohh, I wanna be smarter than you." but nobody gave a crap about my grades, and I had the best of all of them. I know it shouldn't matter, but I do enjoy a little bit of appreciation for my brains..

Now I'm on season three... and almost done. I'd finish tonight but I'm at my dad's hosue... that means bed at 10 exactly...

I will finish tomorrow though. And that's oddly scary..

Haha, it's funny... I doubt they even wrote it in yet bu tI -swear- I can see wehre Barney's starting to liek Robin. xD

Ohhh dear..

On the plus side it gives me less time to think about the reasons that my life is what most people would consider suckish...

On the downside it gives me less time to think about a proper response to beign asked out..

Yeah, I finished the first two seasons of how I met your mother this weekend. That was pretty much it..

Well, aside from the party with the kinda cute guy who happened to take his shirt off at one point... >>

And group. Mannn I love group. ^^

But mostly? How I Met Your Mother. In case anybody was wondering, it's awesome. And has neil patrick harris. Not that I find him attractive or anything.. pshhht, nah.

OH! By the way, episode that everybody should watch:

Season 2 Episode 10: Single Stamina

I feel like recently all of my journals have been either depressed or just lists of my life... I dunno. Nothing -good- has happened, I guess... I mean, I'm not unhappy. Just... dysphoric.

It's like... as more and more I'm just another guy, I'm also more dysphoric with the parts of me that don't show that. Looking in the mirror just gets harder as the days go on, and I wish it would stop..

I wannit to be april.. doctor who time! Dayum Matt Smith is good looking.. not gonna lie. I also wanna watch doctor who now... I'll prolly do that... or torchwood. Some good Janto episode or another... hmmm.. *ponders*

anywho, what's new... absolutely nothing, actually. Group tomorrow.. that's exciting. I've showed somebody else dr horrible... and so far she loves it. xD

Um... for some wacko reason my hadphones are on my shoulder. I can never remember why they are where they are... I'm weird. ><

that's all really... I just want it to be april. I'm a geeeekkkkk. Lawls..

Last night:

I invented the term 'straightophobic' while having a conversation with senior about why he dislikes project runway. I still maintain that it's those straight guys, unwilling to watch fashion shows. ;)

I stayed up until 2:30 int he morning watching will and grace, frasier, good eats.

Today:

Today was my last midterm... I had a lot of freetime at the high school after that. What'd I spend it doing? Changing as much of my phone contacts to doctor who characters as possible...

I still need to find somebody to make Sarah Jane though.. maybe susan too, now I think of it.. hmm..

Anywho, I actually got started on my drawing class today... NOWAIT.. you don't know about that, cuz I was too busy watching house/chuck/studying for my last midterm to come on. Yeah, I'm in the drawing class at that art school. I've decided I'm horrid at drawing.. xD

I started talking about clothing with one of my friends and she asked if I had any straight-leg jeans..

I don't..

She asked if I was too cool for them. I told her the truth; I can't wear them cuz they make me remember that I hate my body.

She started to go on about how it doesn't make sense that I can wear skinny jeans, baggy jeans are more flattering, blahblahblah...

That started off as just a sound but I needed my fix of asdiofhsanbuiasyhfijghiaspsgsing. ><

Tomorrow's my english midterm.... the -one- that's gonna be difficult in any way.. and I'm tryign to prepare for it but I'm soo bad at studying by myself... this week has been teh first time I've ever -really- studied for something. Meh. ><

Grfle. I'm taking a break but what I really need to do is take a shower... those help me relax when I'm studying or essay writing or whatever..

Imma go do that soon.

Fleh.

I collapsed on the couch and fell asleep at about midnight. I usually stay up until about 2 or 3 in the morning... that's how tired I was. That woudl be like goign to bed at 8 on a weekday... xD

Umm.. I feel like I had something else mildly important to say... I mean, I dunno why I would want to make a journal entry jsut to tell you I collapsed on teh couch..

Hm... OH

Midterms... math was crazy easy aside fromt eh awkward wording, science was mostly easy but there were a few things she didn't cover.. whatever. ><

Home... made a smoothie. FINALLY. Goddamnit I've been wanting one of those foreverr... and I still have more ingredients. So I can make more. :D

Start tomorrow. I'm not too worried though... I have five. One's in band and therefor a total joke... no really, the teacher described it that way. Like... it'll probably take half the period..

So four.. math, english, latin, biology.

tomorrow I have math and bio. I've been studying for bio just cuz I can't remember -everything-... math... superducks gonna kill me, but I find gemoetry hella easy... like, I'm not even gonna bother studying, I find it so easy.

Sorry superduck! ><

I'm tired... but like... I've done too much today tired, not I don't have enough sleep tired. Ah, but why? You might ask..

Mostly cuz I went to this pretty much the entire freshman grade study session at my school... in which we broke off into smaller, groups, obviously, but... Meh, I feel like I managed to go over a lot anyways. It was helpful... given the right group we didn't end up going over stuffw e didn't need to and went over all of hte stuff we did need to.. which is always the best way to study. xD

I went to karate today without my binder on... I can't do that. Which also means I can't do any sports that require more effort than karate without dying.. great. ><

It was just... I dunno, I wasn't hating myself the whole time or anything, but I couldn't stop thinking about it.. whether or not I was showing, making sure my uniform was loose enough that I -wasn't-... And I just can't go through that any more frequently than that.

I dunno whether you all even still believe that I'm over him at this point... but I am. I just wanna get some thoughts out to -somebody-, yaknow? So this is my journal about him...

For a while I wondered why I liked him... on first inspection, he seemed like the type of guy that I'd normally hate. He pretty much slept with a different girl every night, but never on a real date...