Today I put ice in my coffee cuz it's hot. Within a few minutes it looks like a perfectly see-through marble.. minus the white fog in the middle. It looks so cool, breaking through the coffee like that... just this barrier in that tanish liquid..
I love looking at weird things like that.. obvious things that nobody sees.
And then I look up to see Lucy Ricardo being spanked by ricky... oO
I wish you could understand how hard it is for me not to text you constantly
I wish you could understand how much I want to see you again, even though I've seen you twice this week - a new record for us, really
I wish you could understand how much I want to kiss you again..
I wish you could understand how much you need to get that car, so that maybe I could see you more often..
I was exhausted one night, so I tried to go to sleep.. instead, I started thinking about what would happen the next time I saw you. My heart started beating too hard to me to even think about sleep anymore..
Awesome pants guy friend requested me on facebook.. wth? xD
So.. I spent the day with himm. We didn't even kiss, so I got worried and asked him about it.. the conversation resulted in us being boyfriends now.
Apparently he was just worried cuz he's sorta involved with someone else, butlike.. I have friends in polyamorous relationships and I've never been the jealous type, so I don't reallyy care..
I'm looking forward to the next time we have alone time together now.. ;)
I got a repost too.. xD
Tryin' to help the world, one blog type thing at a time. ;)
I've been seeingish skunk for well over a month now... and we've seen each other four times. I hate ittt. ><
In other news, I should really always keep myself occupied. Otherwise I start thinking about this crap..
I got back from Bermuda on Tuesday. I just wanted to relax then. Yesterday I was shopping with my sister. Today I was trying to catch up on here. It took me 3 and a half hours to read all of the posts...jeezusss.
Bermuda was sweeeet. I don't have much to say about it though, cuz I did all of my talking about it on Tuesday. ALTHOUGH, there was this amazingly attractive guy there named grant. He was in his twenties, and definitely one of hte mmost attractive guys I've seen in my life. This includes famous people. Mygeez he was GORGEOUSSS.
I'm going to bermuda for a week tomorrow. Yupyup. In case there's anybody here that wouldda been worried by my disappearance. xD
Mmmfff... tired. >>
And merry and pippin are -definitely- a couple. I mean honestly, so crazymuch so... They're like that couple that got together in second grade and ended up married or something. xD
In other news, skunk is cute. Saw him yesterday and whatnot. It was fun. ^^
I also realllllly need to learn to chill.. Like.. I get so paranoid with people I care about. It's ridiculous. ><
'Sall good. I'm just paranoid. ^^
Yeahhhh. I'm happy again. I have no freaking idea as to what the hell happened. I just got miserable. Now I'm good. Yupyup.
It might have been being unable to talk to people.. it might have been thinking that one of my friends was getting annoyed by me.. but today pretty much confirmed that she's not. So we're good there.
Of course my depressed-ness made me say ridiculous things to skunk... so that's fun. >>
I think we're good though. I mean.. I dunno. It was just a weird few days for me.
I think I've gotten lonely. I mean like... I know I have amazing friends that care about me. I also know I haven't seen them for a while now, and that I have nothing to do all day, and that I can't tell whether the people that I do frequently see that were my friends even give a crap..
And I've just been miserable recently without knowing why.
I haven't even seen skunk in over a week. His mum's obnoxious.
I dunno... I'm just in a weird mood. ><
He's adorable. He posted a picture of him flexing his muscled on facebook and a while buncha people commented, but when I said "alright, I hafta admit, I'm impressed" He said "It's all for you skylar. ;D"
Anywho.. finals. Fun shiznat. My dad's convinced I'll fail because I'm not studying for hte sungular final tha tI have tomorrow that's pretty much un-studyable.. my sister thinks I won't be prepared for the owrkload next year (there's a small chance she's right, but I'm expecting a craploadddd, to be honest..), anddd... I get to write an essay tomorrow. Joyyy. -_-
There are certain parts about life that suck.
I need t. Badly. Really, really badly. It's not even a dysphoria thing right now. Just a necessity. I don't think that makes sense to anyone but me... maybe skunk? grr.
In other news.. I wanna see him in person again. I'm tired of having to do stuff through only text all the time. I like hanging out with him..
He's tiny. Unbelievably tiny. About 5'2", really thing.. just tiny. It's cute. ^^
I can only hope I didn't scare him off from kissing me more. I was kinda too shocked to really be able to process properly.. >>
It was nice. ^^
But nice. ^^
(Yes, kiss. Jeez, stop reading into things. :P)