She was wearing coloured contacts earlier this week. She has such beautiful eyes and she covered them with coloured contacts. Hell I think she looks amazing with glasses. I wish something would happen. I wish I could hug her again. I wish I could be the reason behind her smile. I should probably slow down on the flower thing. I know that when I get too much of something I like, I don't really like it anymore. Maybe she's like that too. I hope not. I like making these flowers for her. Maybe I can try making her something else. But I think flowers are better.

What am I?

She told me that she didn't get the dreambox and flower I left for her on Tuesday and I thought someone stole it. Turns out that the teaher gave it to her brother. I freaked out for nothing. I'm stupid.

So Day of Silence. It went well. I'm still silent and will be until midnight. There were a lot of us that stayed silent but mostof them did break a few times. Oh well it happens.

I'm not sure what to do. I want to let my hair grow out but short hair looks better on me. Opinions?

To start. I was running all around campus today trying to figure out how to fucking put in the order for printing shirts and freaking out because that's what I do. I freak out. After lunch I have choir so I was really looking forward to seeing April. I get there and she's a no show. :T she ditched to go to the mall.

http://devoid-of-frontal-matter.tumblr.com/post/4547245853/do-i-over-do-...

Do I over do it? The flowers I make for her? Is it too much?

So I asked April if she wanted to have breakfast with me on Tuesday because we have late start, but she turned me down because she thinks she'll over sleep. I told her that I wouldn't mind waiting but she doesn't like to keep people waiting so...yeah. I was kinda going for a date type thing but at the same time not. I want to hang out with her more because I only see her at school on the days I have choir.

I'm kinda scared that I might be annoying her because she doesn't like texting too much and I text her all the time.

:T paranoia is so fun.

It's infatuation, isn't it?

i'd been scratching myself on my arm with just about anything i can find and it has stopped since i'd been talking to april. i do consider that a good thing...

today, i told her that i'd be in a cave all day and she said, "cave?? kimi bear? XD" which made me so incredibly giddy. i also got her a dream box with her name on it. i told her that i got her something and she said that i gave her too many things already and that the flowers and the letters were enough. i can't even.

There is no denying my feelings for this girl. The things she says makes me smile like a complete fool. I often have to hide behind my hand in case me family sees my smile. They’ll ask why I’m smiling and I can’t tell them it’s nothing because she’s not ‘nothing’, she’s everything and more. She doesn’t text very quickly or very much, the he few things she says makes me giggle and the smile on my face won’t leave.
I can’t stop saying smile. It’s basically my new favorite word. Next to giggle.

I made a bunch of paper flowers, a wire treble clef and left them in April’s fourh period with a note. I put my name on it as well. At lunch I walked around with my free hugs sign and gave bunches of hugs. Sixth period choir came and it was agony. It seemed as if she was ignoring me and I started to panic, scratching my arm. I thought she hated me. Towards the end of class she started talking to me. When we were walking to the gate after class she said she knew it was me even though she hadn’t read the note yet. It was because of the wire treble clef.

I have a crush on this senior in my choir. She's Asian and speaks English fairly well. She has an amazing voice. It's beautiful and powerful and sure. But there is a 99.999999999999% chance she's straight. She's so cute.

Other than that I've been doing yucky sat prep classes and powderpuff is coming up soon. The day after that is the sat =_=

Life for me has been busy and it's been taking me a while to get over my ex :/ there way too many cute girls at school. It's not fair.

How are all of you? Have I missed any newcomers?

so there are lots of cute girls (freshmen) at my school.
; A ;

i'm self conscious about myself even though it doesn't really seem like it when i'm around people. and i'm totally scared of asking girls out. like, i'm even scared to really get out there. there aren't even a lot of lgbt people either. we've got two trans guys, shit loads of bi girls and a couple of gay guys(or maybe just one) that are in the popular crowd/well known. so, no gay girls. not that there's anything wrong with the bi girls. just. it's hard to tell. and i'm scared of ruining any friendship i have with them.

if i could switch genders back and forth, like you toss a ball from one hand to the other, id do it at the drop of a hat. life would be easier, i could have short hair and i could have long hair. one moment, i could look curvy, the next, lean.

caught your attention, huh?

well, i ate lots of cookies this week and will be eating more cookies.

so many cute freshmen girls! why!

and apparently i bring out the flirtiness in girls. why.

how are all of you?

EDIT: http://gimmehugs.tumblr.com/post/2355739825/needle-on-my-skin-oh-how-soo...
just thought i'd share this...

idk which to pick, ya'll wanna help me out?
H- hypocracy
I- indifference
W- wanderer
(i would have p for procrastination, but it's too common)

didn't get to talk to C today. (about her games and shit.)

1) tumblr being a bitch for a little while until recently

2) C.

3) i feel really singy songy...*starts singing*

well, number one just explains itself

number two.
this girl is just. gah! she's totally messing with me. like. RAH! >[
ok first, we're still writing notes, so keep that in mind.
so she kept asking me how i would react if she said that she did like me. i asked her why and she said she was just curious. i told her that i'd probably just talk to her or something, i don't know because it probably wouldn't happen, right?