Well, I must admit that I've become infatuated with Chad in the silliest way. So silly, in fact, that I actually started singing "Close To You". Yes, that silly.

I miss talking to you more often, Chad... I really do. I love you. And in more ways that mere infatuation, you know that.

I can't help it, really, I just remember you and my heart does a backflip and I get this strange, warm feeling. I really, really love you, and I miss you so much.

If you can, could you please come onto Gmail tonight? If not, it's all good, just thought I'd ask.

Anywho, back to what I was saying...

I got a 100% on my English semester exam! YUSSSSSS!

I stood up for my best friend when a teacher made her cry. And continue to recieve hugs for my effort. XD

I've been writing up a storm lately, which is gooooood!

I got to talk to Chad, which for me is a rare and wonderful experience. May it become less rare and no less wonderful.

I didn't fail my Math exam! YUSSSSSSSSS! (I got a 77%, but mind you, I've been diagnosed with a mental disability in math, so this is very good for me.)

I'm working out!

THREE DAY WEEK!

:D These are my good things so far. May the list grow.

It looks good, after a while. I like it. I'm going to continue it when I'm done with Pinwheel.

LOL-Taire, I have a few questions when you get the chance to respond.

Nanook, could you sign onto the chat? I'd like to, well, chat. You're wonderful company, you really are, despite my occasional insults at you. I'm sorry about that, I like you very much. If not, it's alright. I'm not a very desirable companion myself.

I'm terribly sleepy. I've slept a lo lately, but nothing helps. Ugh.

Jesus, I keep on complaining!
I need to come up with a cheerful post one of these days.

I'm a pathetic little creature. The last few days only serve to remind me that I'm merely human, maybe less.

I've fallen in love with Chad, you all know that's Swimmerguy. I really do love and care for him, although I hardly have the chance to speak with him anymore. We spoke frequently at one time.

How I miss him...

I feel an unecessary and visceral feeling of jealousy towards Ferrets, hwever, and I must apologize for this. Chad seems infatuated with him/you, and I want him to be happy and whatnot, but the terrible human-ness within me wells up whenever I think of it.

I was apparently missed.

That's... wow. Just wow.

Thanks, guys. ^_^ The fact that you all can love a bastard like me really shows that you're good people, you know that?

Sorry, I've always loved that song.

Anyways, I am in greatneed of someone to model forapicture. NOBODY EVER SITS STILL.

Ugh.

Any volunteers? :P

Sasasa, I love pizza pies.

I'm writingastory. It's long-ish.

It's called Pinwheel. Anyone interested in reading it please PM me, and I'll sendyou a copy ASAP.

I've been living halfway out of this world for the past few days. I've been hallucinatig more than I'd like to admit, and I'm not always quite sure where I am. I'm sorry if anyone was worried, apparently some of you were.

I think I need to see the headshrink.

I'm more lucid today than last night. Thankfully. Hopefully that won't change.

And no, I'm not on drugs, nor am I drinking. Haven't touched a bottle in a month.

Watched Avatar yesterday. Good film, best scifi I've seen in a while. Beautiful animation and a plot that wasn't all too predictable.

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Hey, guys. Apparently I was gone for a while.

Interestingly, I survived without porn the whole time. Inkroyabb.

Anyways, I just thought I'd say hi. I'm going to sleep soon, so boogity-boogity I'm GONE!

WTF!?

I've heard it, and it's so bad it's... BAD.

It's hilariously, frighteningly, ear-shatteringly bad.

For example:

It's a green christmas here in The Emerald City, but when is it not green?

Merry Christmas, my lovelies.

I have so much to say, but so little desire to write it. Sorry.

*Hugs* I'm a bad person and I'm very annoying, but I love you all. Have a wonderful time.

Sincerely,
Hedwig

I Am Me.

Bow before my incredible worthlessness.

Wonder at my lack of wisdom.

Gasp before my lack of tact.

Worship my ingloriousness.

I can't help a single person on this earth, I can't take away their pain. I am worthless, useless, helpless.

Gaze in awe at the great inglorious me.

If I've learned anything about life in these past two relationships I've had, it's that nothing lasts forever, even if it feels like it will at times. So enjoy what you've got while you've got it.

Life goes on, with or without me. So I'm going to live life and roll with the punches.

I love spewing clichés.

Anyways, I'm going to look closer now, to see what I'm really looking for. Maybe this time I'll find it at last.

Or maybe I'll just live my life looking for it.

Who knows. I'm not sure what it is anyways. But I hope it goes well.

Merry Christmas, Nanook.

I will begin again

I will try again

I will be in pain again

I will give pain again

I will love again

I will try to help again

I will fail again

My good intentions will lead to the same place again

I will begin again

I will try again

I will be in pain again

I will give pain again

I will love again

I will try to help again

I will fail again

My good intentions will lead to the same place again

I will try again

I will begin again

I will try again

I will be in pain again

I will give pain again

I will love again

We're now convinced the other is psychopathic, and I strangely enough feel like laughing.

Am I a monster? Probably. Did i hurt her for fun? No. Do I act like it now to make myself feel better? Yes. Do I hate her? No. Do I want to after she compares me to her ex and says I'm worse? Yes.

Am I going to get drunk out of my mind tonight?

Do you really need to ask?