It's very late and someone within a two-house raidus is having a very very loud argument. I've peeked out all the windows and can't see anyone, but they're so loud that I heard the over having headphones in both ears. It's a guy and a girl, and the guy is getting very very loud, repeating 'I SAW IT, I'M NOT FUCKING STUPID, I FUCKING SAW IT!'. I think he caught her cheating or something, and I'm kinda scared, if this goes on much longer, I think I might need to call the police.
I TOTALLY FORGOT TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY DRAGONSLAYER DREAMS!!
Okay, okay, back in... maybe April? Or May. Before school ended. I kept having these dreams, and it was a different dream each night, but I kept dreaming I was a peasant boy in medieval times! I left home with nothing but a sword and my clothes, and went on amazing adventures! I saved princesses and slayed dragons, and eventually, I became a knight! They were brilliant dreams!
I haven't been on in a fair while, eh. I was never the dedicated sort of journal-writer. The diary I had as a kid has as much as a year between some of the entries.
Anyways. Hi, how's it going? Happy summer vacation to those who are on it.
I'm home alone, well, except my little brother, who is asleep.
A little bit ago I heard a LOUD bang in the kitchen. Really loud. I thought someone had broken in or something. What's worse is my stepdad woke up to the same noise yesterday morning.
I'm so fucking scared. I don't wanna go to bed now, and I'm tired, but I'm scared; I don't want the lights off. D:
I forgot to do my goddamn chem homework.
Meh, I don't wanna go to school. But no, I have to go. Who knows, maybe something amazing is waiting for me there. So I gotta go.
That my immune system is deteriorating or something. I've been getting sick so much lately, it seems.
Well, this week I've got this bad cough. I'm all congested and my whole face hurts because I've had a sinus headache for two days that won't go away no matter what.
I missed school yesterday, because I'm sick again. I wish I could stay home today, too, because I don't feel so good, but I'm already irritated about missing yesterday.
So in a few minutes I'll be willing myself to go get dressed.
Day of Silence was fine. There didn't seem to be a single person around me participating today, though. No one knew what it was.
But you know, it's kinda wierd, to be a girl being silent for this, and clinging to a guy half the day. Well, it wasn't really 'clinging'...
I always pick one person to hang onto all the time. Sometimes, a girl, others, a guy.
Yep, that's me. Go ahead and stamp it on my forehead.
I didn't ask her. I was feeling bold, and happy, and totally was sure that there was no way she'd turn me down.
But that incident in english deflated me. I'm the same shy thing I was last week. Having that brought up both caught me off guard, and deflated any feelings of boldness I had. It dropped me back into that feeling of powerlessness that I felt so long ago..
And I let what was probably my only proper opportunity to get with Ariel slip through my fingers. I probably didn't have a chance, anyways, so oh well.
So I figured today would be an okay day. It was, or, it would have been, had my english teacher not completely ruined my day, probably my entire week.
We were reading Hansel and Gretel, we were doing a fairytale assignment, but first, he was going to demonstrate what it was we were supposed to do. We had reached the point where the stepmother suggests to leave the children in the forest to die, and Mr. Rutter pipes up,"He has no spine, he just needs to beat her for saying that--" Here, a few students laughed "--Sometimes it's the only solution."
I think she's into me. I REALLY think she's into me. I mean, she's one of those people like me, that flirts unashamedly, probably with everyone, but oh my god, I think she's into me. The way she says things, and the words she chooses, they just have a slightly serious undertone to them, like she's telling me, 'Stop being so dense and ask me already! I can tell you want to!'
And I so want to.
So. I'm taking range for driver's ed this week. This girl that I got paired with is awesome. She's got the same interests and sense of humor as me. I wanna cut to the chase, but I feel like I should explain.
And one of my friends is in it.
But I didn't get paired up with him.
I got paired with this girl, Ariel.
And we were talking about this guy, Eric, that we know.
And he cut me off. on the range, so I said... something.
And we started speculating on if he was a virgin or not, lol.
And we started talking about sex and stuff.
I have to write a 150-line story poem.
It can be any fairytale I want, or I can make something up.
What should I write about?
Please help! >.<
It comes in the form of a little flier slid onto my desk in Math class.
A really big Night Club here is The Loft. They're having a High School night.
I'm going. End of story.
Sometime within the next two weeks.
At least I'll be going to the same school.
Well, I guess I've never told you guys how much I've moved.
I've been to 24 schools since kindergarten. I can't remember if it's 24 including the school I'm at now, or not including the school I'm at now.
Still, 24 is a lot.
That averages to about two schools per year.
Which, isn't entirely accurate. There's schools I've been to for two full years.
And also there was a school I only went to for three weeks.
I don't want to have to pack again dammit....