I hate having morning classes... even the ones at 10. =/

I was in a super-de-duper mood last night. =D GSA meeting.. cute girl who actually paid attention to me during it.. and my project it set up, and people love it. =DDDD

I feel so accomplished and proud.

So so so so.... this girl... I'm currently crushing on... ahh. How to describe her? Wow? Amazing? Hot? Intelligent? Superfreakingperfect? Yup. Pretty much that.
I love her hair, too. >.< It's the same cut I wanted this summer. Agh.

Because I just got back from another AMAZING GSA meeting. I love those girls. =]

I'm heading a project for the group, too. =DDD
I feel so responsible and optimistic about it!!! OMG.
Actually, I'm working on two projects for GSA. =]

I need to do an art paper tonight that's due tomorrow.. that I should have done a week ago. XD

Oh well.

Just thought I'd update.

Peace out. (-<) [That didn't work so well. lol]

Where I can find full episodes of the L Word?!?

I really want to watch it. Bad. =S

But I can't find any full episodes! Gah!

Maybe I'll check Youtube...

Wow. Just had the best freaking morning / early afternoon EVER.
=D

First of all, I had a lot of fun today for some reason selling food at the bake sale, which is good! It was really fun.

Second of all, I had a really good class in communications today... I was like.. on the ball lol.

Then I had lunch with Holly and Holly. XD So much fun. We have great conversations.

Just got back to my room after sitting in the lobby for a few hours (A FEW) selling baked goods. We had a table full.. and now there is none left. I'm glad my friend has such superior saleswoman qualities. XD It was hilarious to see her, though.

Anyways.

I think.... I'm over her. I think. I still find her extremely attractive, but there are other girls here that I KNOW are gay / bi, and I miiiighhhtttt have a chance with. That's a small chance.. but hey. A girl can hope. =]

Oh, and uhm.. I know I didn't tell you guys this before... but erm..

I'm pretty sure I have food poisoning from the chicken from school again. I had another chicken sandwich last night, and that's the only thing I ate for dinner that's ever given me food poisoning here.

I'm refusing to eat chicken sandwiches here now.
I feel like crap.

Other than that, life is going pretty well..
I haven't seen 'her' at all today, but hopefully by the end of the day lol. I usually do.

I need to do an essay, and a context paragraph, and a speech, and a paper today. But I really really want to take a nap and get over this crappiness.

Why am I so upset over this?

It's just facebook.

And we're not even friends.

I should just add her.

But I'm afraid of rejection...

I make too many excuses for myself.

I don't want her to judge me.

When I think she's looking at me, it almost feels that way.

God... I just... I don't know what to do.
I'm a mess right now, and I have no clue why.

I don't know if she's in a relationship or not..

I'm hoping it's not with someone I know...........

Because that would be painful.

Ugh... it sounds like I'm like... in love with her or something.
But I'm not.

I....
Basically hate myself.

Probably because I'm just a chicken and I won't talk to her. =/

Funny story...

Hello! Just thought I'd say that again. =]

Soo. Interesting week. I think it's funny that I'm updating a week after I did my last one lol. Anyways.

1- My roomie and I are on good terms... I guess.. I didn't talk to her about it at all. I'm pretty sure she's uncomfortable around me, but hey.. I don't really care.
2- I..... am an idiot. I have fallen (not in love with.. but.. a big crush..) for someone I barely know. It's like I can't go anywhere and not see her, and not be freaking embarassed. What. The. Hell.

Odd title.. but hey, I guess that's just how I roll.

I know I just updated yesterday.. but.. I feel as though a lot has happened in the past 24 hours and I could probably write lots. =] Just what you wanted, right?

I am super duper excited and happy and.. yeah. =D

I just got back from my first GSA meeting. I felt really comfortable there, like it's somewhere I can just be myself... and since we're all girls.. it makes me even more comfortable. There were a few surprises for who showed up.. and I'm pretty sure I have awesome gaydar. =p Speaking of which.. I have a story...

As I sit here, sipping on my Sleepy Time Tea (don't hate.. it's yummy and I don't need sugar for it. =] ), my mind is a rush of things that have happened to me in a few short hours...

Sooooooo.

According to Blogthings, I need success to be happy. Which is completely true, sadly enough. Maybe that's why I hold back so often.. because I'm scared to fail.

So I went to the movie with her and our friend.. then we hung out at his house for a while afterwards.
She doesn't like me in a more than friends way, I can tell. I didn't tell her, but I mean... she would show signs that she likes me, right? There were none. Nada. And you know, it really doesn't bother me. Maybe I don't like her as much as I thought I did.. maybe my feelings have changed.

Yeah. I did.
=O

Our conversation:
"Her: You.. won't tell me the person you like's gender?
Me: Okay... fine. The person is a girl.
Her: Is this.. a new thing for you? Since you hesitated and never told me you were bi..
Me: No.. it's not.." etc etc..

Oh my fuck.
And now we're talking about like.. coming out and everything.

But.. I uhm.. can't tell her that the person I like is.. her.....

=/ Step 2. Grow some balls.
Sigh.

I need sleep. But I want to keep talking to her.

That's all for now.

So. I'm home. I've been home for a few days, but have been avoiding writing a journal.

I've also been staying up very late the past few nights..
It's all because of "her" though.

And I feel like SUCH AN IDIOT. =/ Mostly because I don't know how to talk to her.....

She's currently looking at failblog and telling me random things she finds that are funny on there. =] At least she's talking to me!

Anyways.. vacation went as well as I expected.. boring as hell, and the other girl who was up there with us was annoying to boot.. so it really was not an enjoyable experience.