So I've been kind of down lately. I never get to see my gf. And it sucks. She's going to be gone for a week for spring break to see her dad. Fine. Glad for her. But I'll miss her. And her mom is being a fucking bitch. I don't get to see her before she leaves. At all.

I've been planning a lot lately. I think my OCD comes out a lot more when I'm stressed or uncomfortable about things. And that is def true. I'm not exactly super excited about my gf leaving for 9 days. I don't see her enough as it is. School is being kind of shitty.

Spring Break is next week at my school. And I'm not actually anticipating it. The only friends of mine that will be in town... are my best friend, and two people I met through my gf, they are older than my parents. I love them though. And I get to see them. Hang out with them and my gf's mom. But my gf will be out of town visiting her dad (who she doesn't see very often). So my spring break is nothing to look forward to. It'll def be interesting because of the crowd I'll be hanging with. But I don't know. I don't get to see my gf for a week.

Well. I thought I would update on my day seeing as when I posted yesterday I wasn't sure what was going to happen. And now that today is pretty much over, or the exciting stuff at least. I can talk about it.

I think it's amusing that I've always said that I was so promiscuous and when it comes to having the opportunities finally being present. I don't think I'm going to take them.

From reading the comments that Jeff and Adam left on my journal. I have more to think about. I know that being bi has nothing to do with having a threesome. I know that. I also know that being monogamous can be difficult for some people. For example, my gf. And I'm really proud of her for talking to me about it. Not that she's cheated on me, but that she feels like she needs something that I can't give her. Great that she's talking to me about it. But god it makes me feel like an asshole. Even though I know it shouldn't. She's only been with guys. I get it.

I've been talking to my gf about having a threesome a lot lately. We're both bi. And we have an interesting amount of experience with the opposite gender. I've "dated" a guy or two. But it didn't end up very well. And she's had many boyfriends, and I'm her first gf.

So, I messaged this "ex friend." And she had a lot to say about how shitty I am. Which means... I probably shouldn't talk to this bitch. Also she blames being sexually abused for fucking me over, like wtf. How does that have anything to do with anything? Like seriously? Shouldn't you be a good person whether you were abused or not? I mean we all have our issues. My parents are divorced, and remarried. I've come out to all of them, and quite frankly, it's not been the most comfortable living situation after wards. My step-mom is kind of weirded out by the fact that I'm gay. Oh, well.

Okay, so like a reasonably normal human being, I have a facebook. And, yes, I am obsessed with it. As that goes hand in hand with having the facebook in the first place.

My day has been interesting. Haven't done much. I got up. Made breakfast for my gf. Took a nap after she went to work. went with her, her sister and mom to the mall. That was hella interesting as none of them were in a good mood. I always love being there for those family moments. They are oh so special.