note that this is not my actually desire, to have a hateful society. my desire is the opposite, and i wrote this in such a way as to outline the things in our society that we are doing that generate hate.

How to create a society that hates.

if i could turn everyone in the world into cats, i wouldnt.

now if i could turn ALMOST everyone into the world into cats...well that would be a differnt story....

well, i think the worst place to die would be the carnival. i mean, carnivals are already fucking terrfying, imagine dying in one? and chances are you died becuase of the carnival to, like you ate radioactive cotton candy or something. the biggest reason i think it would be fucking awful, is becuase i often ponder what the last thing a dying person should idealy see. and im not sure, maybe a ocean or a canyon or a tiger or some shit like that.

nobody really cares about south east asia. i mean some people do, of course, but for U.S. society at large, its just like, what the fuck even is south east asia?

and im just oblivous and out of the loop, but oh well.

day of silence is this friday. who all is participating/thoughts/opinions on(in) the day?

so its been quite a while since ive been on here. i guess, with my GSA giving my the oppertunity to know alot of queer people, and gaining alot of confidence in myself latley, ive just...outgrown oasis a little.

it sukcs harder then a vietnamese hooker who has been told he will recieve one million dollars if he can make the man he is sucking off cum in less then a minute. it really does. becuase you know what, the simplelest explanation is not always the best or most accurate. in fact often times, it isnt the best or most accurate. so why should we use it just becuase it makes things simple? let my produce a few situation that, if okhams razor was used, would be very bad.

so, hopefully, this will offend you if you belive in the god of the bible. you know, i dont care if i offend reliogious peopel anymore. i really dont care, since no one who is christain cares about offending me ;D enjoy.

being surronded by straight christain people, my perants in particular. im sick of listening to stupid audio sermons my dad finds online. i think he finds the most obnoxious ones just for me.

i've heard it said the only way a true dystopia can be formed when you try to create a eutopia, since eutopia will always fail. the vacumn left when the eutopian society fails is filled with a dystopia.

"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you,
until it seems as though you cannot hang on a minute longer,
never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn."

Harriet Stowe

an excellent song for a new year
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Aba0lVdE2c

a nice picture for the new year. if you like seeing guys kissing, that is

so i read will grayson, will grayson. i raped it in the face(aka read it within a 24 hour cycle) it was really good. it almost made me cry a couple times, and made me want to punch people at others. in other words, it got an emoitional response, which as far as im concerned is the best thing a novel can do.

so yeah, i located an adorable gay guy at school before the break began. but i was unable to introduce myself, mainley due to my massive cowardice. becuase see, with girls, and straight guys, and gay guys who im not into outside of friendship, im rather confident. i can talk to them, joke with them, its all coolio.

but with gay guys im into, im a disaster. if i manage to say hello without hyperventalating, then i dont know what to say. i can get about this far into a conversation:
me: hello
gay guy who i like: hey
me: how are you today?
gay guy who i like: im doing pretty good. you?

do any of you have the one person, that whenever you do something, they always have some way to imrpove it. but it ends up just making it so you dont feel like your original idea wasnt good enough.
and see, im not...well fuck, im going to stop dancing around the subject! every single time i do soemthing, my mum swoops in and just takes it over.

i tried to post a creepy pasta, but the page spazzed out and lost all my work! it was really bloody good to, not to brag, but it was a collaberative work of me and my friend. now i have to type it all again, and im a lazy little bicth who hates retyping stuff.

im writing an essay for school about the first time i acknowledged i was gay. hehe, i recentley moved to and honors english class, so this will literally be the first paper my new english teacher gets from me XD