Ghhhblurguhmurhhuh!

FalconWright — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 10:44:55 +0400

Lately I've been feeling like I'm a girl. Like I should be a girl.

Maybe it's because of my environment, being so effeminate when the only men I see and are around are all manly.

I look down and resent my package, and the fact i don't have boobs.

A don't get it, I'm so confused, I don't like girls, I never have, but as soon as I'm thinking I'm a girl, I want them!?

CONFUSEDCONFUSEDCONFUSEDCONFUSEDCONFUSED

I don't know what to think any more, and it's not like I can cross-dress for any period of time, just to try it out you know?

What do I do?!

WHAT!?

Am I boring?

FalconWright — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 14:11:17 +0400

* Yes * No

Weeeelllll.....

FalconWright — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 13:40:49 +0400

Whats up my ninjas!?

Another one of my intermittent updates that I often can't be fucked doing yay;
1) I failed my traditional animation project by 3.5% and now I have to redo it and get 16.5% more than the mark I got first time 'round. I was the only one who failed in my whole class.

2) Luckily, my matte painting summative is going well.

3) I have hair like John Cuzack (if thats how you spell it)

4) I can't stop listening to Captain Falcon's theme song.

Guess what guys and gals!

FalconWright — Fri, 27 Mar 2009 13:06:35 +0300

My counsellors are thinking of closing my case file next month, yay!
I suppose that means I'm NOT insane! WOOOOH!
At least I won't have them bothering me all the time.

Privetstuvyu! (hello)

FalconWright — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 11:58:08 +0300

Updateage:

I'm learning Russian again.
Yay.
Uhm....
Yeah there aint much more than that, other than I don't have the belly to talk to the hottest guy i've ever seen, who i see pretty much every day.
And I build up some resolve to talk to him, just to say "Hi." and when I actually see him I go weak a the knees and dumb, and can't speak.
Damn it...
I'm so freakin weak!

And, my final thought: I WANT SEX! IF I HAVE TO MUCH LONGER WITHOUT SEX I'M GONNA FREAKIN' SHOOT SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!
AHHHH!!!!!!!

Da Svidaniya! (goobye)

Why can't I shake it?

FalconWright — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 14:29:52 +0300

I'm sad, and I can't get rid of it.

It sticks like burning tar, and every now and then I think it's gone, and then someone says or does something, the slightest thing, and I'm stuck again.

Even when Alex hugs me and holds my hand,
even when Glen grins his goofy grin and says "I know." Before I say something,
when Kurt talks to me and smiles, after being silent all day,
when Bash smacks me on the shoulder and says "How's it goin' dude?"
When Gabe says I'm cool and lets me in on top secret stuff,
when Chan Ghee says my work is good,

Hello oasis.

FalconWright — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 11:33:41 +0300

I'm sad, and tired, and angry.
And once again I'm falling beneath everyone's notice.
Do i exist?
Am I a ghost? Fading in and out of peoples lives?
And why is it, no matter how hard I try, I can't get John's attention? (The man I lust for. When I'm not tired, sad, and angry.)
I guess I'm stuck the unsung hero.
It's a lonely existence when all you do is pick up pieces, yours, others, and no-one helps you pick up yours.
When you save people from physical or emotional danger constantly, and get nothing for it.
Not even a "thankyou".

OHMYGODMOHMYGODOHMYGOD OH. MY. GOD!

FalconWright — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:59:33 +0300

So I go into the cafe to buy some V.
And at one of the tables I saw a guy.
I noticed several things:
1: He was pretty.
2:He had IMMACULATE hair and clothes
3: His right ear was pierced
4: He glanced at me in that "I want to look at you proper, but I'm too cautious so I'll just glance at you instead"
FUCK!
What do I do? WHAT!?
I KNOW he's gay.
My brain SCREEAMS it.
Seriously.
Advices please?
I'm going freakin' insane!
Is he, is he not?
Am I still all alone here, or is there someone else like me!?
Do I ask him?
FUCKFUCKFUCK.
TOo many questions, can't concentrate!!! >.<

Now for MORE bad news

FalconWright — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:16:06 +0300

I'm coming down with something.
It better be a cold and not the flu....
*sigh*
The world hates me right now....

Hey Oasis, more bad news!

FalconWright — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 10:13:15 +0300

I'm possibly a Paranoid Schizophrenic.
Yay.
Thats it really.
Oh I noticed the hottest guy (next to Adam o' course) in existence at course today.
I want him to fuck me into the ground until I pass out!!!!!!!
Too bad he's most likely straight.

Attention Oasis users!

FalconWright — Fri, 27 Feb 2009 01:48:40 +0300

Aragorn is sexy.

That is all.

(Love you Pat! So glad you're back!)

And now to explain: I'm doing portrait in class today, and Aragorn is my model.

And I'm goofing off to write this. Oh noes!

I feel much better from reading Pats post before.

Giving up IS for pussies!!!

I'm never trying to commit suicide again! (Well I'll try a hell of a lot harder than before)

Anyway, I'm gonna kick this portraits ASS!

Love you oasis. (Love you extra adam.)

And again.

FalconWright — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 12:58:08 +0300

Slight improvement?

I FEEL like a cheap useless whore.
My hearts still broken and I'm still dead inside.
But slight improvment right?
Man I'm so destined for the thrice-cursed psych ward.
And it's all his fault.
And yet I still love and miss him.
God I hate myself.

Survey

FalconWright — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 14:49:04 +0300

1. What is your occupation right now ? Student

2. What colour are your socks right now? Flesh coloured

3. What are you listening to right now? Kamelot

4. What was the last thing that you ate? Burger King

5. Can you drive a stick shift? No

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Jason the crisis team guy who wanted to come around and watch me all night.

7. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Yeah

8. How old are you today? 17, but I feel much, much , MUCH older.

9. What is your favourite sport to watch on TV? Football (Or soccer, if you prefer)

Well Oasis...

FalconWright — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 13:23:56 +0300

It's been 4 weeks.

Update on me, my only news:

Shane dumped me.
My heart is broken AGAIN.
I'm nothing but a useless whore.
And I'm dead, where this body drops and rots is of no matter now...

Bring on the survey!

FalconWright — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 15:09:40 +0300

The Basics
Full Name: Patrick David Cormack Hitch
Birthdate: July 18
Height/Weight: 6' 3" 85 kilos
Eye Color: Green/gray/brown/blue/yellow. (yes yellow.)
Hair Color: Very dark brown

Can you...
Drive? No
Drive a manual? Narp
Touch your nose with your tongue? Yes
Cook? Yeah
Dance? Yeah
Sing? People tell me I can
Sew? WOOH YEAH SEWING!