Stapplegunned

music is life — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 09:44:30 +0400

fUck.
Falling for someone is scary.
But damn does it feel so good to see her.
And kiss her.
Just be around her.
I've never felt this way before.
I like it.
:)

A happy journal! :)

music is life — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 05:57:53 +0400

I'm sooo happy!!!!!!
I saw Wicked lastnight! It was absolutly AMAZING! I loved it!!! I like how they interepreted the book and everything. :D
Also..... I have a girlfriend! Yup. I'm happy. She's amazing. :) But I'm not going to be one of those annoying people that are all like blah blah about the person they're dating...although I'm sure I'll have my moments. haha
I am going to say this though... I had a game Wednesday and when we got back to the school I get off the bus and there is a rose on my car :) So sweet. We weren't even dating then.

The chemistry between us could destroy this place

music is life — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 01:04:49 +0400

Soo my summer has been very bittersweet. I'm grounded, like big time grounded and in deep shit. :) go me!

Lez B Friends

music is life — Sun, 24 May 2009 00:22:23 +0400

I almost bought a shirt that said "Lez B Friends" at Hot Topic but didn't have enough money. :'( Hot Topic has had a lot of gay shirts lately.

3 more days left of school! I want to be able to just be lazy for a little bit. I know I'll get sick of it but I just want to lay around for a few days instead of having to go to practices. I had softball practice at 7am today. On a Saturday. Not cool.

I'm going to go see Wicked in June! I'm soo excited. My sister, stepmom, grandma and me are going. We got really good seats too.

Love, fence, coffee oh my!

music is life — Fri, 15 May 2009 03:47:07 +0400

9 more days until summer break!! I can't wait! You have no idea. I'm sooo ready for summer. I just want to sleep in for once on a saturday. That would be nice.
Um funny story..

Slam Poetry anyone?

music is life — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 03:15:34 +0400

I've been listening to Slam poetry a lot lately. Its so moving. I just like reading poetry in general since I can't write it. But then again I've always been horrible at putting my thoughts into words. I listened to this one by a Palestinian girl about hate. And these guys saying how they are feminists even though they are men. And another one about this woman wanting to marry her girlfriend so she can have the right to see her when visiting hours at hospitals are for families only.

In other news....

rabblerabble

music is life — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:12:27 +0400

So my Day of Silence wasn't silent at all. EVERYONE at school knows I'm gay now. Jen told a few people during one of her classes, which is cool cuz idc anymore, and one of the girls sent a forward to everyone in her phone telling them I am gay. Haha. Thats kind of weird, yet amusing because why would you send a forward of that? Idk maybe I'm more popular than I thought. Ha ya right.

I frequent awful places frequently

music is life — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 04:34:59 +0400

I have a problem.
I'm starting to crush on this girl. Who I'm is straight. Of course.
I'm shooting my hopes down, because well, it saves me from getting all upset.
This isn't the first time I've done this to myself. I'll get over it in a few days. It just sucks really bad being the one of the few open gay people.

oh. well.

I was suppossed to have 3 softball games this week but they've all gotten cancelled because of the rain. I'm kinda glad too. The weather lately has matched my mood.

Starbucks!

music is life — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 00:29:09 +0400

So I play softball. And apparently there is this rule that everyone in softball knows about.. If you wear a ribbon in your hair you are straight and if you don't you are a dyke.
I think I'm going to buy a rainbow ribbon and wear it. :)
Speaking of rainbows my dad wants me to take my rainbow sticker off of my car still and I'm not going too.

Goodbye Mr. Rainbow Sticker

music is life — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 23:56:12 +0400

I got this rainbow sticker from Spencer's and put it in my back window in my car. I've had it there for oh about 3 weeks now. No big deal. Well my Dad saw it today. And he was like whats this about?? Um I guess I'm showing my pride and I smiled. He told me to save that stuff for when I get my own vehicle. I didn't say anything back to that. And he has reminded me 3 times now to take it down within the last 5 hours or so. I really have no choice but to take it down, because if I don't he will and then I'll never get it back. My dad can be really cool and then he can be a total dick.

Questioning Friend

music is life — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:02:12 +0400

So I have this friend, who I will call Yellow just because, and well she used to make fun of me all the time for being a dyke. It was more like playing around fun and not really mean. But turns out she's questioning! Huh, who woulda thought that the person who kinda made fun of me would actually think they might be gay/atleast bi? Hmm.

lakjfoaie. I need

music is life — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 03:24:49 +0400

When I came out to my Dad I was so proud of myself, and thats rare. I was like "Yes I told my Dad, I can tell anyone now!" Well turns out I wasn't the first to tell him. My sister T was. She got into a fight with him about her being a ungrateful, irresponsible bitch and she yells "Atleast I'm not gay like your youngest daughter!" Because me being gay is a bad thing when SHE was the first person I told and SHE said she SUPPORTED me. Fuck her. Honestly, I seriously hate my sister. But I hate her as much as I love her.

Milk!

music is life — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 01:37:25 +0300

So I finally rent the movie Milk. And guess what my dumbass does? I effin locked my damn keys in my car with the movie in it!!! UGh! Stupid! I had just gotten back from the movie place and I was over at my brothers cuz I had to watch my nephew. We can't find a spare key or anything. My car is weird and has 2 different keys for the ignition and door and we found a spare for the ignition not the door! But don't worry, I got to see Milk. :D
We called someone who unlocked it for $50. Ya I'm going tomorrow to make copies of my car keys...

Decoy

music is life — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 04:41:23 +0300

My trip went good. It was nice to see all of my old friends. We've all changed soo much.
We went to this like Goodwill/Salvation Army store because the mall there sucks. And I got some shirts from these different schools with like weird last names on them.
I saw C and she gave me one of her volleyball shirts. God it smells soooo good. I love how girls just smell good. Before she gave it to me she was like I don't want it to smell bad so she sprayed some her perfume stuff on it. Mmmm. We flirted a lot too. It was playful but kinda bittersweet.

She wants to touch me WOAH

music is life — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 02:18:31 +0300

My Spring Break starts this Friday! I'm soo excited. Sara and I are driving to OH by ourselves. Its like a 4 hour drive and I'm driving. I can't wait! I so just need to get away. We're coming back on Monday.
The drive there is gonna be fun. We made a mix cd for it. Ya we're cool.
I can't wait to actually sleep in past 8am. I'll try and post pics on here when I get back.