help? please?

hayden_love778899 — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 06:56:27 +0300

ugh, why just when i want to settle down and get my life on track...
my exs gotta try and fuck it up. I finally had the guts to ask Crystal out and then dani and another one of my exs gotta try and hook me again, and they both knew what they were doing when they did it, what the hell am i supposed to do?

she knows this is for her...

hayden_love778899 — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 05:42:51 +0300

i hate the fact that your perfume lingers on my hands,
once on your neck, to pull you into a kiss.
i torched the memories i have,
it hurts my heart to much to remember.
i love whole heartedly with my half hearted ratty organ
that i piece together every morning to attempt to live with.

Crooked spoons

hayden_love778899 — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 23:00:54 +0300

you know those times when you wish you had a controlling person in your life? the kind of people who would tell you what THEY think you should do? i want one. most people want them to get the fuck out but i want one. i hate being stuck in a rut. but i wont exagerate on the rut.

ugh.

hayden_love778899 — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 03:48:12 +0300

i hate the "your still the only girl for me" and then the follow-up blog about how the other girl got what i want.
argh.

im sorry.

hayden_love778899 — Sat, 18 Oct 2008 20:50:14 +0400

im sorry to the people i've hurt.
im sorry to the people i've set aside.
im sorry to the people who haven't heard from me.
im sorry to the people who think i dont care.
im sorry to the loved ones around me.
im sorry to that one special girl.
im sorry to the world for having me.
i dont mean to have a pity party.
im not sorry for myself im sorry for the others.
i love you baby girl.

you put up a great fight you lucky little bitch

hayden_love778899 — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:15:23 +0400

if you would like to know the story behind this poem then message me.
but there are only three people who would get it.
but not from this point of view.
this is from MY point of view.
it's alot more than just a "wait it out"

phone cord shares whispers
skies show grey
a girl sits alone
pondering her day

another sits quiet
knowing of the others thoughts
smileing at the other

[ILYMMD] you make the piratelover come out in me.

hayden_love778899 — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:00:26 +0400

I know this pretty rave girl
always thinkin' 'bout her
and when she says hi to me
butterfly's go right through me
and when I see her dancin'
wanna take a chance in
getting a little closer
and maybe get to know her

bangs in your face and razor in hand isnt going to win you anything

hayden_love778899 — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 00:15:20 +0400

okay so im in a totally amazing relationship.
i love meghan to fucking death.
she's my everything.
i have no problems with our relationship.
it's someone who's jelous that i have a problem with.
this girl is to young and clearly not mature enough.
i mean, when people say "haha emo kid"
normally they're talking about the black hair in the face,

so im as happy as a goth lesbian meeting OT3P

hayden_love778899 — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 09:03:17 +0400

so im going to meet meghan.
im super duper extremely overly omg omg omg excited.
we are going to go to silver wood.
and... we are going to go on alot of rides.
and she's going to hold my hand.
and kiss me and all that omg super duper happy stuff.
lol, ((the super duper omg is getting old))
but...
im gunna do something very special.
and i'm extremely happy.
and excited.

happy in a sugar coated materialistic kinda way.

hayden_love778899 — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 07:34:51 +0400

so my birthday was the 28th.
i aged, big friggen deal lol.
but anyways,
my mother wanted to spend a day with me.
here's a little inside look on that.
i woke up at 11am.
took a shower.
got ready,
the makeup.
the hair.
i was all good.
lookin' good.
feelin' good.
great start.
first we ate at a place called 'the staggering ox'
which made me giggle a little.

nuthin like a runaway dyke to put the spook in you.

hayden_love778899 — Sun, 18 May 2008 03:22:39 +0400

so... one of my friends ran away. she left a suicide note saying that she was gunna drown herself. but she didnt she has been gone for like... a few days and... her brother saw her but she booked it. why does she insist on putting the stress on all of us?

apology.

hayden_love778899 — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 23:49:06 +0400

i got mad.
you frusterated me.
i care about her,
i got steemed.
so,
i dont know if this is what you wanted but...
its what you got.
an apology.
take it or leave it.

you say you fukkn care.

hayden_love778899 — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 03:52:28 +0400

you say she's your best friend and that the fact isnt going to change.you say that you're always going to be there for her. but, if thats so, then why do you neglect her when she needs you the most. is A really that much more important?

april first.

hayden_love778899 — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 01:10:06 +0400

last night.
best night ever.
nuff said.

march18

hayden_love778899 — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 04:50:02 +0300

so uhm...
last night me and meghan were on the phone.
i feel like an ass...
cuz at the beggining of the convo i just blabbered on about absalutely nuthing and didnt take the time to notice she was crying,
i believe she was trying to hide it from me.
and, it worked, until she sniffled and let out a small sigh,
my heart skipped a beat and i was like