Rational Portrait of the Mastermind (INTJ)
All Rationals are good at planning operations, but Masterminds are head and shoulders above all the rest in contingency planning. Complex operations involve many steps or stages, one following another in a necessary progression, and Masterminds are naturally able to grasp how each one leads to the next, and to prepare alternatives for difficulties that are likely to arise any step of the way. Trying to anticipate every contingency, Masterminds never set off on their current project without a Plan A firmly in mind, but they are always prepared to switch to Plan B or C or D if need be.

Masterminds are rare, comprising no more than, say, one percent of the population, and they are rarely encountered outside their office, factory, school, or laboratory. Although they are highly capable leaders, Masterminds are not at all eager to take command, preferring to stay in the background until others demonstrate their inability to lead. Once they take charge, however, they are thoroughgoing pragmatists. Masterminds are certain that efficiency is indispensable in a well-run organization, and if they encounter inefficiency-any waste of human and material resources-they are quick to realign operations and reassign personnel. Masterminds do not feel bound by established rules and procedures, and traditional authority does not impress them, nor do slogans or catchwords. Only ideas that make sense to them are adopted; those that don't, aren't, no matter who thought of them. Remember, their aim is always maximum efficiency.
In their careers, Masterminds usually rise to positions of responsibility, for they work long and hard and are dedicated in their pursuit of goals, sparing neither their own time and effort nor that of their colleagues and employees. Problem-solving is highly stimulating to Masterminds, who love responding to tangled systems that require careful sorting out. Ordinarily, they verbalize the positive and avoid comments of a negative nature; they are more interested in moving an organization forward than dwelling on mistakes of the past.

Masterminds tend to be much more definite and self-confident than other Rationals, having usually developed a very strong will. Decisions come easily to them; in fact, they can hardly rest until they have things settled and decided. But before they decide anything, they must do the research. Masterminds are highly theoretical, but they insist on looking at all available data before they embrace an idea, and they are suspicious of any statement that is based on shoddy research, or that is not checked against reality.

That's my personality type, INTJ. You wouldn't be surprised if you knew me.

I haven't posted in a while. Did anyone miss me? No? ohhhhh....

I would like to announce that I am coming out today. If I don't chicken out.
If I do chicken out, though I'll be kicking myself for a while.
But I'm gonna come out today at school. Hopefully I'll return unscathed, but really I don't expect physical harm. If there is any physical harm though, heads will roll.
I have connections high up in the school administration. :]
Hahaha! I sound like a real creep when I say that.
Sources say that I'm a real gay bastard.
I never knew.

Can you tell I'm excited?

Sooo, I'm crushing on another guy now, His name is Jose. That e has a little line over it. Anyways, He shows signs of affection. I know, I know, I've heard it all before:
A relationship won't help make your life better, something, something, etc.
Heehee, I remember a lot about THOSE conversations.
Anywho, this guy is REALLY attractive. Really, though, I think I'm the only one who thinks so.
But at points he'll do or say something that I find attractive and my heart jumps into my throat. Ever felt that?
Anyways, my bestest best friend No.3 Tiffany (It's official, she's now No.3 instead of good friend.) Her father works as a security guard where my mom works. WHAT A COINKYDINK!:)
Moving on, I'm gonna tell her I like this huy, and she may know something. She seems to know everything.
And I think she's a lesbian. She's always drawing pictures of anime girls. Usually scantily dressed girls. But I don't want to ask. I told her I was gay, but if she lets me know that's her. I still think she is though. :]

Whooplydoodles, lookatthetime!
WantsOut

Hi. I need to write something, anything,so, here we go:

I like guys but I sorta like girls im bi, but I prefer guys there just so much more fun ya know? probably not, im just weird but anyways i feel like bouncing off the walls i think i've got asbergers syndrome i know cause ive got all the symptoms bye now!

So, I just learned that a couple friends of mine were having a few jokes at my expense while I wasn't around. Such as, joking about my bestest best friend No.2 Q and I having.... Sex. NOT FUNNY. I love Q like a sister, and these jokes really aren't funny.
And (There's more) That if I had sex with a girl, I would turn straight. That makes my BLOOD BOIL. I'm getting paler by the second. (I get pale when I'm really, really angry.)
So I'm thinking of leaving the church. And I mean the big one, like, I'm going all out against organized religion kind of thing.
I need a hug.

Busy day yesterday. That's why I didn't get a chance to post this morning, not likely that any of you noticed, of course. HAHA, self decimating humor! wait, wrong word... Anyways, this is just kind of a rant to get some things off my chest. Like, I just came out to a complete homophobe, but he's perfectly OK with it. Weird. I am also planning on coming out to my favorite lang. Arts teacher, but I'm not sure why. I just feel like she should know. Just so long as she doesn't let my parents know I told her. Whoops, I probably shouldn't tell hger now that I think of that... o-O Anyhow, I find that the more I pretend to hide that I'm gay, the more people find out. Woohoo, this way I can't hide it even if I try!!!

So, my wallet and keys got lost today, and I've been combing the house for them. Oh, well. I'll find them.

So I went to german class yesterday. mein housafgaben ist klein. That's approximately "my homework is nothing." I think. Oh, well.

In heaven there is no beer. That's why we drink it here. And when we're gone from here, our friends will drink all of our beer.

So, the other day I asked dad if I could go to a gay youth group in the area (Thnx to Jeff) and he said, "okay". So, I ask him about it the next day and he says, I haven't had a chance to. So, I shrug and ask him again TODAY and he stilll hasn't. Now, normally that would just mean I have a forgetful dad. But coupling it up with other things (He keeps talking about me getting a girlfriend) I think that he's trying to pretend I'm not gay. I can't help but resent that a little. I mean, It's who I am! I didn't choose to be this way, bbut I'm still proud of my differences. Thing is, I remember my dad giving me the gay talk when I was ten. You know, the whole, "You know that gays are people too, right?" Well, during that talk he said "It's their decision" HE THINKS I CHOSE TO BE GAY!!! That really hurts me, to think my own dad is ashamed of me.

Written lovingly for you, yes, ONLY you,

WantsOut

So, I wrote about a crush on a straight guy recently. yeah. I think he's actually bi. YAY! He's also a cross-dresser... Which is okay, just unusual for me.
Also, I've got this OTHER friend I'm crushing on, and I'm almost sure he ISN'T straight. He hangs out with me a lot, andis REALLY helpful and REALLY friendy. Matbe I'm just being hopeful though.
I hope not. I desperately need a boyfriend this year. it's killing me.

Written lovingly for you, yes, ONLY you,

WantsOut

I think this girl at my school has a crush on me. I don't know how to respond to this, because I don't EVER want to cause her any pain, she's very kind. But, I promised myself I would never date someone that I don't have feelings for, because that REALLY hurts. So does anyone have an idea on how to tell her, gently, that I don't feel the same way she does if she asks me out? She hasn't yet, but... Yeah. Help please.

Written lovingly for you, yes, ONLY you,

WantsOut

But, then the feeling always passes. Anyways, time for something completely unrelated.
My bestest best friend No.1 A got grounded a couple of months ago, and before now I could call him, but now I can't, and it sucks. I love A, though not in the Boyfriend kind of way. (He;s straight as straight can be... and get annoyed at me if I bring up the fact that I'm gay alot in one conversation. "YES, I KNOW YOU ARE GAY DAMN IT!!!!")
But yeah, he's grounded till Christmas day. THAT HAS GOT TO SUCK, kuz he doesn't have ANY priviledges, just radio, and now not even the phone. He's basically Amish now, except less good at building stuff.
Oh yeah, he got grounded because he skipped school.
Why?
"It was kind of impulsive."

Dear Lord.

Written Lovingly for you, yes, ONLY you,

WANTSOUT

So, my parents were having our big mostly-annual christmas yrsterday. More like mostly-anal christmas party. Don't get me wrong, I just don't like parties. I have a slight case of social phobia. But My mom was like, SUPER obsesso about everything has to be perfect and erase that pink triangle on your calendar board, it was just too much.
Of course I did like the cookies.
But anyway, it was like, halfway through the party and my dad said to come out of the room (I was writing in my book) and be social. So I did, and I hated it, until my bestest best friend No.2, Q (Who happens to be a girl) shows up. So I was like "THANK GOD!" No really I said that, I was upstairs with a bunch of obnoxious children. But yeah, we went downstairs and into my room and talked. That's what I love about her, we can just sit and talk, and she is one of the only people in real life I can talk to about my sexuality and she doesn't get annoyrd at me constantly bringing it up to her.
So, her friend on the bus is bi, right? and He came to school one day and he was really tired, and it looked like he was wearing eyeliner. So everyone makes fun of him, and Q is like, STOP MAKING FUN OF GAY PEOPLE!!! TWO OF MY FRIENDS ARE BI, AND ONE IS GAY!!! THEY ARE ALL GREAT PEOPLE!!!

lovingly written for you, yes, ONLY you,

WANTSOUT

recently, when I wake up, I have felt very lonely. It especially happens when someone is talking about a happy relationship they are involved in. I told this to a straight friend of mine, and he said, "Easy, just ask some girl out, doesn't have to be a guy." But I feel like that would be wrong, seeing as I am not attracted to any girls at the moment. This is one of the reasons I come here, you know. I feel comfortable here.

Tanks for listening,
WantsOut

I find that often, the most mysterious thing are the things that are most remembered.
Truly, for the mercy of God is totally unfair, we do not deserve it, yet we acquire it.
Not to mention, the unconditional love of our mothers and fathers is, for the most part, always with us.
Am I trying to act like a preacher? by no means. I am taking what I believe and stating it for all to see.

The dust mingles with his blood, and he quietly dies thinking, "I could have done better.

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