Best title ever?

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 21:57:37 +0300

No...I think not.....

so basically. I'm never on here. I've lost interest. So this is basically my last journal entry for...well....forever. I may come back and look around once in a blue moon, but other than that. I'm out. As a last update...here's what's going on.....

I gave Amy a ring.....we're engaged. My life is jumbled up. Got into a fist fight with my brother, we both punched each other in the eye.

Goodbye for the last time....

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 03:12:37 +0300

So...I check up on the Komo news website for anything else on the officers deaths and so I found a new article about Sergeant Mark Renninger and it was talking about how he went home to his tometown in Pennsylvannia for the last time. And that's where his family had his funeral. And so that's where they said goodbye to him for the last time....I cried.....I don't know why, but I did. I can't imagine how his family feels and how much it hurts to lose him, especially so close to christmas....but there's a Toby Keith song called Cryin' for me that makes me cry....

Memorial....

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 08:02:04 +0300

They had the memorial for the 4 officers yesterday..."I watched the whole thing and cried. The thing that made me cry hardest was when they showed a video of pictures of the memorial at the Lakewood Police Department and pictures of each officer. And then the Radio call towards the end of the ceremony made me cry the hardest.....what they do is when an officer is down they'll call either the badge number of the officer or the car number.

I'm............

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 11:51:50 +0300

Trying not to cry....I cried myself to sleep last night...and I think will do it again tonight....my heart aches. I wake up fine...and then remember the 4 people who lhad to lose their lives because of one person....

They found him...

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 06:40:33 +0300

They found the guy finally who shot the Officers....they shot and killed him. I'm glad......but it just didn't seem to be good enough. But he's dead....but at the expense of 4 officers having to lose their lives.....my heart still aches....and I don't know if I really like my therapist....

My heart is aching.....

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 10:14:01 +0300

We lost 4 wonderful Officers today.....some son of a bitch killed 4 cops in a Forza....walked up and shot them......all of them had children and a husband or wife......it continues to shock me the things human beings will do to others.

They were getting ready to start their shift.....and the fucker just walked in and shot them......

So...

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 12:13:08 +0300

It's 1 am....Amy is off wilth her military buddy doing who knows what. I can't sleep. I have work in the morning. I feel like I'm going ot puke. Can't stay home from work or I'll get fired. Thrilling.....I'm pissed off.....because I can't sleep. I took my ring off she bought me and placed it on her pillow. I'm done trying. I'm done getting pissed off with her for shit she does. I'm done trying to pretend we're fine. She won't see me at all until late Sunday.....but I'm done. Yes, Amy...I'm done.

It's really almost thanksgiving?!?!?!?

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 08:31:03 +0300

Holy shit!!!! That's amazing. I remember when it was jsut halloween.....man the days are flying by.....

In happy news I'm listening to my favorite stations that plays christmas music around this time :] I'm excited. I like listening to christmas music......I wish I could listen to it at work....that would make the days so much better.....

I'm.....

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 00:01:27 +0300

Confused......and kind of irritated.....

New Moon was amazing.....I want to see it again :]

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 23:13:07 +0300

I want to yell and scream and say 50 million things and

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*bangs head against the wall* I'm pissed off and apparently lazy and stupid.....woo hoo to me! I hate realationships sometimes....

I need a fucking vacation......I think I'm going to save up and go hang with my best friend for a few days in the spring.....or go see my nanna.....

Soooo.....Maine might still suck, but...

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 08:00:37 +0300

r-71 is still winning....52% to 47% so far....we may just have it...I'm excited.

Dear Diary...

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 22:47:34 +0300

Being a female sucks -_-.....not just because of the period shit....bleck....the more I watch porn the more I think it's not fair that I don't have a penis TT_TT.....if I had a billionair relative who let me inherit the money that's the first thing I'd buy......do I have a billionair relative? No, probably not....do I want one? Fuck yes....

My basement...

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 05:07:25 +0300

Sucks....I don't always get service with my phone......bullshit!!!

Yummy

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:15:48 +0300

i really wish Kristen Stewart was gay...and I wish I knew her. I'd just have to jump her bones.....I watched Adventureland this morning at like 2am and noticed she had the laid back "I don't care what I'm wearing it's comfortable look" and it's hot.....yummy

I Feel....

When I call out Your Name Do you Hear — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 22:25:31 +0400

I don't know what I feel......irritated.....yup...I think that's it.....irritated. Oh, and maybe lonely? Yeah....that too......