lumpy

fox333 — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 03:16:34 +0400

so anyways.... while i was away i found a lump in my chest. i am going for a mamogram on friday...

Do FtMs bother guys?

fox333 — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 08:54:55 +0300

I am just wondering if you are a bi/gay guy and the guy you like turns out to be a FtM what would your reaction be? I am just wondering becasue I think I am bi and I just want to know what I am getting myself into. I don't think this will affect my dicision much, I am just wondering.

Rainbow Sprinkles!!!!

fox333 — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:29:39 +0300

So I am making a cake for my mom. It is the most fattening thing I have ever SEEN let alone baked :P I hope this means its good.
Iv ordered alot of books about transexualism (they didn't have any at the library....yeah... i looked...)

Just came out

fox333 — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 05:54:31 +0300

I just came out to my Mom about being transsexual :D she was ok with it. yay! I had a dream this afternoon (i know i sleep ALL the time) and I was a boy. I hope this isn't just a phase. It would really stink to go to counciling for it and then turn out not to be it.
In other news I when to see a play this afternoon. it reminded me of my desire to learn russian. what was i thinking with japanese? its russian that i really love (i think...)

"Day two: dealing with writer's block." -Opus. bangs head on table

fox333 — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 23:39:35 +0300

I have desided to start writing in hopes that maybe i can be a writer. But i suck at it. i have no insperiation and when insperation does come it comes in short blasts. and in poetry. *mumbles something angry about poetry*
So i tried to watch a bit of the bee movie again today. Does anyone else really hate that movie? I try and I try (mainly out of bordom) but i just don't connect with it.
In other words about not connecting, everyone says they don't connect with my writing(when i manage to turn some out). is there a solution to this problem?

was i wrong?

fox333 — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 06:12:52 +0300

Well my phycologist said that i have some kind of issues where i think there is something diffrent about me. And those things that i think i am are not always thought of a good by socioty. I thought i was a lesbian for a while. That may have been influenced by the fact that I do like girls. So i was almost right in a way. Maybe I am somewhat gender queer but according to him I will keep looking for identitys that will bring dissaproval to me from others. I have to say that he is probly right.

the pros and cons of being male

fox333 — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 21:37:31 +0300

pro: stronger
con: i wouldn't get to be "pretty" any more and i definitly wouldn't make a handsome man. i think its time to admit that vanity plays a big part in my life.
Pro: i get to be chilvorous ( did spell that right?)
con: im afraid other men will be mean to me
pro: straight girls will be nicer to me... atleast untill they learn the truth. (is that really a pro?)
con: i don't like to help around the house.
pro: i don't like to help around the house.
con: painful expencive surgury.
pro: being a guy
con: being a guy
pro: solves my jelousy problem

The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert

fox333 — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 05:53:53 +0300

Man that was an awesome movie. i remember seeing it when i was little. Anyways I dressed in a suit and went to church. i even had my good white buttondown on. My dad thought i looked like everything for a caberet dancer, to and english school boy in uniform. i was pretty happy about that last one. I was hoping that people would mistake me for a boy but using the women's restroom and wearing heels gave me away i think (i don't have any men's shoes). But they were very cute heels. tall stilletos with polkadots all over them. and bows. well, one for each shoe. my short hair helps I think.

why can't i find a girl?

fox333 — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 05:48:33 +0300

Feh. I havn't seen one I liked since highschool. Maybe thats why. But seriously. I know why. No woman is going to fall for my sorry hide. I like charismatic people but who do charismatic people like? not quiet people thats for sure.... but whatever.

wow. its been along time.

fox333 — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 06:36:41 +0300

I whent on vacation for a few weeks and didn't really have the time or inclination to get on the computer. So hi to everyone new that i don't know!

shit.

fox333 — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 17:22:05 +0300

I gave the wrong person my card info a few days ago. now i have to go in and redo everything. I was pretty upset with my self. how could i be such and idiot. and then what my mom said really struck home. its everywhere. and not just me. even little baby animals and mommy animals arn't safe. I have heard about these things called puppy mills.

casual my flaming red hair.

fox333 — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 06:32:17 +0300

I have never tagged any of my journals before.... does that mean they float away to the great journaly beyond? or do they stay, and remain forever more?

happy thanksgiving

fox333 — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 22:25:30 +0300

so my sister and i stayed up and I prodded her into telling me how i ruined her childhood. something about her having to take care of mom becasue she couldn't take care of me. man it must be painful to have a child going through that ammount of pain and not being able to do anything about it.

its like my life, but figured out!

fox333 — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 05:40:06 +0300

iv always wanted to model and iv always wanted to be in the army (don't ask me why i have genuinely no clue on either count) so iv desided to do both in that order. Iv desided to go to college in a big city so that I can try to model (which probably won't work becasue Im not all that photogenic) and when I get out Ill go into some army thingy... Then Ill do international buissiness...

my sister

fox333 — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 22:54:34 +0300

Why don't you love me?
no one else does
doesn't that make it your job?
Why can't you ask me?
no one else does
doesn't that make it your job?
can't you poke and prod me?
no one else does
doesn't that make it your job?
Can't you disturb me
no one else does
doesn't that make it your job?
my sister?