I told someone lets call him T a secret. About my schitzophrenia and other mental diseases. Im afraid that if I leave him as a friend (everyone says he just wants to get laid and is not my friend {well ok one or two people say that}) He will retaliate by telling everyone about me. I don't dislike him enough to leave this friendship yet, but I am sorta afraid. I mean I hear from everyone that he is a bad guy, but he has been nothing but nice to me and has said that he respects my decision to be nothing but friends. I am SO confused, a little afraid, and seriously stressed.

I saw my first prostitute in Ampsterdam I don't know maybe three days ago. She was so perfect. Just the way she looked at me innocentish and timidy or shy. Who cares if that is what she really meant she looked so perfect. I just wanted to take her home with me and let her live with me and feed her.
She was pretty skinny. But I thought in an attractive way. She had dark skin and dark hair with dark eyes. She looked so young.
I stayed up most of the night worrying over her. Was someone hurting her? I thought probably, but that impression might be from all the Law and Order SVU Iv seen...

I am going on a little trip for a while and I don't know if I will be able to get on oasis for a couple weeks or so. I will miss you all :(

has any one ever heard of connexion? I googled LGBTQ social networking sites and it was the first one up. I would be thankful for any information on it. I have no clue if it is ok or not.
Thanks <3

I have fallen out of friendship with a friend. Neither she nor her new friend seem to like me any more. Lets call her S and the new friend N. I adore S and I like N too. I was happy that S had made a new friend even though it meant that it would take her away from me at least a little bit. But i got over my feelings and managed to accept N and want to be friends with N. Now they both seem to not like me one bit. I know there is nothing I can do about this but I cannot help but ask, what can I do?

I tried writing a song today. About women who kill men who abuse women. I thought it was going to turn out pretty cool. Now it is a rap. I think..... I mean I have never had many music classes and I don't really play guitar except like 3 chords and that I do that clumsily. So it is something that is in my opinion rap. I know a lot of people have problems with rap.

I think that I might be gay again because just the idea of having sex with E is pretty ewwwww, but I am in love with him and I want to see if I can be with him. Who knows, I might change between now and summer and get into the bi thing again. :P I can only hope.

I just found out the girl I was starting to like likes guys. But her info didn't say that she likes girls. I was SO sure. I guess thats what I get for being over confident.

I just heard from E. He texted me like hey :D I just got my phone reactivated.
My jaw dropped. After all these months after all these months of WORRYING blaming MYSELF he texts me like hey. He is SO in for it later. I mean don't get me wrong, I am SO glad to hear from him, just like all those other girls whos boyfirends leave them then come crawling back. I am SO happy and SO angry that it is balancing its self out. He was in a BAR when I called and he was like Hey :D. oOOOOh! I don't care if I have to stay up all night! This is going DOWN.

-adapted from the Tweety Bird original.

I saw this girl who I think might be gay. She gave me her number and said that we should hang out some time :D. I think I scared her with my over enthusiasm though. >.< I talk too much when I am at any stage of nervous. :(
She is pretty cute though, in a butchish kind of way.
I wonder if she will want to hang out tomarrow? I certainly hope so.
Oh, and someone took down my main gay get together flyer. I am a little upset about this. But its all good.

I wouldn't really advise reading this.

How do you know that you will love someone? I know it is normaly the other way around, but what if you can't feel love? Like you can feel every other possible emotion except sexual/romanic love?

I am writing a comparitive essay (or atleast I think it is called a comparative essay) on a couple of peices of art. It made me wonder about taste. Are the things that we find repuslive due to our genetics, our upbringing, or are they simply the opposites of what we pride ourself in? The woman in one of the works is very large, and very naked. Do I not like that becasue I like being skinny? Or has socioty indoctinated me into a "thin people only" sort of belief? And it is not simply that, she is also posed (I think) provocitivly. This forces the issue.

I had a dream about a mysterious brunett (or atleast I think brunett) woman who I am starting to think may have been a bit younger than me who I may have met on oasis (note: I think that either this person has not gone on this site before or I just have not met her or something like that or maybe she just does not exist at all who knows?) But I am very grateful to her, even if she only exists in my dreams. I think she is the first person I have ever really wanted to have sex with. Sure other people I like, and I fawn over, but she has shown me that maybe I do have those feelings.

I got rejected. Again. Why is everyone else in a relationship? What is this, Happy Feet? Everyone pair up your first year and never get out of a relationship. I problably should just go somewhere and die. No one wants me. I mean sure, people care. I'll give them that. But no one loves me in that way. Forget polyamourous. I have problems finding one person interested in me.