Wow. I went to a party tonight with my dad and step-mom. Um. Liana was there, as was Maia, who I don't get to see that often. When I walked in through the door, I was shocked at the decor. The once nice, if not overly glamorous, lesbian abode had been transformed into a sort of middle easter tent. There were carpets and pillows and drums. There was weird Israeli music.

I cut my hair. It's something I've been wanting to do for a very long time. A veeeery long time. When my hair guy person with the scary sharp scissors was cutting it, I watched each long strand fall with excitement. It was like a weight was lifted (both literally and figuratively). It was, to say the least, awesome. The next day at school, people kept telling me that I looked like a guy.

There's something about San Francisco that makes me happy. It calms me and makes me happy to be in the city. It's so beautiful, and there's so much to do. (Not to mention all the rainbow stuff to buy). My weekend was supposed to be a rainbow-filled shopping one, but then my sister decided to ditch school and tag along.

Wow. I feel like an idiot. I looked at the Google ad at the bottom of the page, and I read "Gay and Lesbian Cuisine." I started freaking out, thoughts flashing thourhg my mind in backwards spirals. "What!?!?!" "They're going to EAT me!?" "Is that food for us?" "Wait a sec... They can't write that..." "Oh, I'm an idiot." "Oops. It says "Gay and Lesbian Cruises." Never mind.......

Liana sent me this on Facebook. Our friend wrote it to keep some weird creepy guy she hates away.... I found it amusing.

He wrote this for me to give to the annoying creep daniel.
Between You and Liana

Liana
Your eyes are like twin jellyfish

Translucent, slimy, green,

With striking iridescence,

That is, isotopic sheen

Your hair is slick, as if a band

Of slugs had coiffed your ‘do

Perhaps you think that these advances

Might pay off for you;

I must admit a secret though

Of content quite intriguing -

(affecting, by the way, your search

So. My four day weekend will consist of: staying around doing nothing, doing my homework, going to my sister's soccer game, and going to San Francisco with my mom. We had Friday off and will have monday off as well. I don't really know why, but I appreciate the alone time. I'm actually very antisocial.

My guitar/drums teacher and I recorded my song today. I wrote this cool picking guitar part, and he helped to write the second part. I used the "When I draw you" obsession thing as lyrics, and now it sounds awesome..... We're probably do a clean recording next week... Ishy I'm so happy. But now I have to my homework.

My obsession for Sabrina has actually calmed down somewhat. Liana's convinced me that she's a total bitch. She really is. She hates all freshmen, except for me, and is a total heterophobe. Which is amazingly hypocritical, since she's bi and gone out with waaaaaay too many guys.

When I draw eyes, please know
that I am seeing you again
Pure Reflection
in the iris of my soul
When I draw lips, please know
that I am dreaming of touching mine to yours
Endless Bliss
in the contortions and misconceptions
When I draw ears, please know
that I cannot hear any voice but yours
Pure and Sure
everlasting in my mind
When I draw noses, please know

I went to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show last night with Liana, her dad, and a friend from middle school.... It was really fun. I was de-virginized..... Today I've been cooking. My sister and I made apple-sage marinade from this awesome cookbook. We made the necessary apple juice from apples our next-door-neighbor gave us from his tree.

My longtime crush and obsession, Sabrina, came to GSA today. She let me read a story she wrote about a girl coming out to her mom. I asked her if it was based in a real-life experience, and she said no, because her mom doesn't know and would nearly die if she did.

OMG!!!! Earthquake!! That was so awesome! It was the first one I've ever felt. Wow. http://quake.wr.usgs.gov/recenteqs/Quakes/nc40204628.html

Davis Sedaris is amazing, brilliant, and one of the coolest gay guys in the world. I saw him last night with Liana and a couple of friends from middle school. It was awesome, and I think I saw one of the English teachers from my school, who's also a very cool gay man.

Okay, I'm really excited. The Red Sox won the World Series!!!! Okay, done gloating. Next, I'm going to see David Sedaris tonught with my dad!!!!

My self confidence has dropped into the negatives, from the 2% it was at during the summer. I think I'm an okay person in general, but things don't really work in my mind. Also, today was super happy fun day. It was supposed to be super happy fun, but the GSA president was also suffering from self-confidence issues because not very many people (as in four) showed up.