This weekend will be great. So far it's started out good. Tonight I went over to my friend's house with 5 of my other friends and we all 'worked' on our take home test in our english class. In 3 hours we managed to finish half of it (only 15 problems) but in like an hour we got bored and decided to play a board game. It was really fun, and I'm actually surprised I had as much fun as I did.
I hate to be emo. But I truly do hate myself. I hate myself for loving. Stupid teenage hormones! stupid stupid STUPID! Why would I let myself fall this far if I knew I'd have to end it?
I'd probably save myself by now.
That song is phenomenal: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendI...
Today my lit. class got into another discussion about religion. We get into the best conversations in that class -____-.
Wow. Can I just say how great it is when your crush compliments you?
Lately I've been debating on whether I want to tell my friends, or a friend, that I'm bi. Actually, it's been like a month since I've been thinking about it. Theres a couple reasons I don't want to tell them though. I can't actually see myself telling them.
Aha! So it does work! I was watching Dateline tonight because I was supposed to watch a movie but, suprise suprise!
Today was blah. I had a short nap after school and pretty soon I have to leave for soccer, yay!
Today wasn't a bad day at all, it was very lazy for me. I woke up around 2 and had a snack and after a while of watching tv with my mom (soaps, ugh!) I went into my room to play a couple of hours of Half-Life 2. It was fun, until I got stuck.
"...and maybe this was the only, the only way." -Tegan and Sara
i tried to fight it off
i tried to close my eyes
but the darkness was consuming
and encompassed my disguise
and your image was still burning
from the window in my soul
i tried to wipe it clean
but instead it left a hole
i thought i tried my best
i thought i tried but failed
i walked the path to life
Have you ever thought someone was one of those quiet shy people who don't really talk that much and it turned out the opposite?
Today I felt really mellow. Usually I'm either energetic or just tired and catatonic, but today I was somewhere in between, and it felt good to be in control. It scares me at the same time. I know it's coming soon. Before I lapse into a short period of depression I'm always calm and mellow, and I'm scared that I feel this way today because I know it's inevitable.
I finally bought Twilight. I've been wanting to buy it for a while, but I'm kinda lazy and never got around to it. I was two thirds finished with it by the end of the first day and finished it the next.
the new semester starts tomorrow and i had to pick another elective and i got stuck with TA or clothing....
TA job is probably the easiest class EVER but its boring.....and clothing...ha
me: what's clothing?
me: -_-....ok ill take that
BUT....BUT BUT BUT!
so she says: 'your math will have to be switched to 4th period'
*fireworks* YAY! GUESS WHAT GUYS