I dun understand love.
what is love anyway?
i believe it is nothing but a bug which bites us to make us aware of its existance.once aware,it slowly layer by layer,eats us up.soon we are more vulnerable to getting hurt,pain and harm.we open ourselves like dumfucks and allow the person to enter into our so called perfect lives to permenantly alter our perception on things.
its all so horribly OVER.
she did it as if it were so easy for her...jus a snap of her long fingers and "its over,i think v shud stick to being friends"
and all i could do was NOD,cuz i was afraid if i spoke another word,a sob would escape.
i clung to da phone tight,and managed to say a "uh huh"(cuz i realised dat v are on the phone and she cant see me nod).she asked me "are you gona be ok?"
did i tell u how much i hate her?
i hate her for understanding,but not doing nethng about it.i hate her taunting me about my self harm("now wht r u gona do?go go,cut urself"),i hate her talking about her boyfrnd all the tym to make me jealous,i hate her being so bitchy and moody with me.
i hate her.
u mustve heard of it,im sure(or even gone through it)
ok...she's not a bad person,u noe.so yea,i had horrible days cuz of her...but she actually tries VERY hard to understand me.i come across as this complicated,messed up,confused girl.funny thing is,she comes across as the same!actually,im more on the emo side...she's impulsive,crazy,dont-give-a-damn kinda chick.something I dont understand.
she made me cut myself wit a scissor,knife,needle n razor.she made me have 20 *munch* (india's manufactured) chocolates in two days.she made me have an overdose of painkillers(leading to a 7 hr sleep in broad daylight).
need i say more?
WHY DOES SHE ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY SUMTHNG MEAN AND RUIN EVRYTHNG???!!
she told me online yesterday : im starting to wonder what SR said was right about you.
yes,im back.i was back 1 week b4.
First of all,merry christmas to all u lovely people out there!:)
OMFG!i cant stop laughing!
argh!i created another mess for myself!not a big surprise,cuz this is what i always do.im known for it in my friends circle.sheesh.i suck.
Yday was the most fun day ever!i went to S's place,and after a while,her parents suggested we all go out to eat somewhere.We went to the airport.The Dubai airport has amazing places to eat.It has a vast variety of restuarants.And besides,her house is close to the airport.We talked,We laughed,We danced.I must admit,i dunt get along very well wit my own family.Im the typical teen who gets embarrased
Ok.ok.its been a VERY long time since ive been here.i know..dere has been SO much happening in my life..gosh!
im officially declaring myself as a complete bisexual.lets jus say that i ditched BOTH da guys...arnd two months bk itself.( it wasnt working wit either of dem) .
i jus got off da fone wit S.v were havin dis discussion if LDR(Long Distance Relationship)really last or nt-or rather SHE was havin a solitary discussion(if dere is nethng lyk dat!)cuz i was nt reli sayin nethng thruout.my last LDR was a big tym flop bt my current one seems 2 b goin gr8 guns(although its too early 2 say nethng).so i dun really noe wht i shud say on LDR's.she tinks its too early fe
okieee..so i came across dis site on google..i had searched fer "teen blogs" bt i found ntn interesting.n den..i see dis site.n i luved it!!its perfect..exactly wht i was lukin for=)
neways,im ur not-so-average,16 year old girl whos addicted 2 redbull,bisexual and gets pleasure in pinching babies.