You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Something is so wrong with me.
I had my English Literature Paper today.After it got over,I got out of that stupid huge hall and caught up with my friends who were in the canteen.
I noticed S and D were not around,with a few other missing friends.

I havnt been talking about my new girlfriend right?
Well,she was my best friend for quite a while now[2 years],and recently,she declared her love for me...in THAT way.
We kept flirting after that...until a week back or something,i asked her out.
Yepp...i asked her on the phone.I went like,"soo...since you like me...i like you...uhm,would u like to be my girlfriend?"
I waited.For a moment.

Im ok.Really.I think im finally moving on.D[my current gf] is a very very sweet and adorable chick[more on her in the next entry].

So im watching The L word and im wondering,shit really happens everywhere,doesnt it?

OMG!
I need to chill.Really.
A random chick just called at place and goes like[in this rapid speedy voice] "Your a freaking bisexual" and CUTS THE PHONE! she just says that and hangs up.
WHAT THE FUCK.
actually my mom picked up the phone,and my mom asked her" who's speaking?" and she said,"muskan". and i dun noe ANY muskan!!

ok.i had a dream that i wore the same damn bra for 3-4 days continous!
That was some scary weird dream.I could actually FEEL my disgust when i woke up with a fright.
Im so strange.

This movie is awesome!
I cried my ass out.Its so touching and romantic.Their love is so elevating and absolute...
They arent necasserily lesbians...Its just that their love for each other is as Best friends is SO intense that they just need to express it in that way...

So yesterday,me and my friends(yes,she was also there),went out to this shopping fair which has come up.
Eveythng was pretty cool because maybe im just too good at pretending.
But then,i lost it.Completely.
My best frnd K was going to take a picture of HER ass...like you noe,when she walk's...because evry1 know's she's got a GOOD ass.

So now she's telling her boyfriend on face book,that i am a *Fake Emo Chick*.
No,really.
first she bitches about ME to her BOYFRIEND(must be occurring quite often,i suppose) and then she does that in PUBLIC! on Facebook!
no,she didnt use my name. but any of our close friend's would get it.its so obvious that she WANTED me to see that.

ok.so yesterday was my birthday.i turned SEVENTEEN finally!:D:D:D
apart from turning 17 and growing older,nothing was really worth remembering about yesterday.
i went to HER house,in order to get things sorted out.but alas,who was i kidding?i guess i just had to face the hopelessness of the situation. silence hung over us like some dagger.neither of us sopke much...it was pointless.

I dunt feel weird around her.I dunt care if she talks to me or not.I dunt miss her anymore.I dunt cry for her at nights.I dunt miss her touch.Her thoughts dont linger anymore...She doesnt affect me in anyway.

HAH! if only all that was true!

School sucked.

Its been 16 days since it all happened.
And it still hurts.
School is a living torture.
Seeing her is mentally upsetting.
How do make a person realise that u miss em so much,that u cry to urself in the night?
Does she know?
Can she notice the vacancy in my eyes?
Have i always looked so pale?

If only she'd hold me the way she used to,i'd feel again...
If only she'd breathe into our memories,i'd learn to live again...
Mend my black broken heart.
Maybe then i'd actually feel the blood pumping through my veins...
...Rather than drinking up my own bitter tears...

so its been 7 days since it all.
im kinda more stable now.i cried and cried and cried for 4 days continous.i wake up,and i cry.i hear our song,and i cry.i see her,i WANT to cry.in the night,on my bed,i cry myself to sleep.