Do people not understand that straight people are not sane in this world? Some crazy woman was calling my phone like 20 times last night...

All I do is sit here all day, ok Jeff I admit it I sit here all day well most of the day. Obsessing over little things like that other I still have that boy chris on my buddy list, someone just please shoot me for still obsessing over a boy I will never have.

I'm still looking for a job... not like thats anything new? I know some of you know about the panelist thing, I had one on Monday the 16th but it got canceled I don't know why. I'm just sick of being let down, and always just wondering why? Sometimes the only job I'll ever be able to get is as a hobo. Why do I have these self image issues?

my mom is pretty much saying that she doesn't care (in a bad way) that I get a job at bryson and won't give me money to get there at first (I have to take bus and subway(metro as some call it)

I feel so lost writing it, I want to write it down and preserve it in the connected world of today but just can't get any farther I have MS word open and stuck I'm stuck at Coming Out
By John Ervin

My brother was admitted to the hospital last night, They think he is type 2 diabetic I really don't know. Because of things my mom has said to him about me being gay, even more so recently I'm afraid to talk to him and I really don't know what to do.

Yes, so I finally got over there about 3:15 yester, left at 6... :( Had fun and everything. Just wanted to say hello to everyone. My mom wasn't happy with all of that but at least my stuff wasn't in trash bags when I came home.

Hmmmm.... can't seem to find any employment in this damm city. I tried looking all over online, Applied to a few places online but none have called that would be good. Where shall I find a job?

I don't know... There's someone new I'm interested in and I have his number already (because it was late after getting out from movies with some friends/ other people)... My friend talked to him and she said that he said that he could tell that I like him etc etc.... I try and call him but it rings twice and then I hang up because I'm nervous...

This is very scary... Along with local BSA council getting evicted for refusing to change anti gay stuff in policies.

There is also this regarding the Boy scouts of America VS. City of Philadelphia Vs. LGBT community.... I am out to a few since I'm involved in venturing. I'm just scared of Council going on "Gay Witch Hunt"

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I don't know waiting for this phone call may never come... because the person is not sure how to handle this... and then my mom has to go and tell me something that i realized today about it... the little step she took forward seems to be 50000 giant steps backwards now...

After about a year and a 1/4 of reluctance I've finally come out somewhere where I was a bit afraid to.

First of all with Damon...

I feel kinda bad, got into an argument with my mom in 2 different parking lots, just feel like i did something so wrong because she said she was depressed about the usual, and was like take me home and just ope that she just doesn't do anything...