So lets see

PurpleLioness — Fri, 16 May 2008 22:55:12 +0400

I'm oh so naive when it comes to situations.
Such as someone putting your hand on their lower stomach area means they want you to slip it in their pants.
Things like that.
I was rather smashingly drunk at the time but still I figure I should have known that.

I am incrediably stupid

PurpleLioness — Wed, 14 May 2008 13:16:34 +0400

What two weeks sober now and I go and fuck it up.

If any of you have watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas you will know what I'm going to talk about.

So I get a text from one of my friends last night that he's learned how to make Ether.

What do I do?

As soon as I'm not staying over at her house I call him up and tell him to bring me some.

So its been a bit

PurpleLioness — Tue, 06 May 2008 14:08:24 +0400

I'm surprised how my moods have swung since the last time I wrote.
My weekend was amazing except for being sick all of last week and it looks like I'll be sick this week too.

Anyway about my weekend.

Went to a psych clinic today

PurpleLioness — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 10:40:27 +0400

After only having an hour and a half of sleep.
I got angry a lot.
I'm now prescribed Zoloft.
Idk if I"m going to take it though.
I would have wasted my whole day pretty much but I don't care.

So I was going over my most recent entry and something about it bothered me.
I re read my past few and wonder why am I posting this shit?

Broken

PurpleLioness — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 03:36:57 +0400

So I accidentally cut myself really fucking bad at about 4:30 Thursday morning.

I showed my crush's mum because she's a nurse and she said I should have gotten stitches but I didn't want to get sent to aurora or wherever they would have sent me because it is obviously self inflicted and all my other scars.

So I didn't go to the doctor.

I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin

PurpleLioness — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:27:54 +0400

I had a really weird vivid dream last night.
I thought about it and figured out that the feelings I had felt in the dream me and the fact that I would shake for no reason was what my mind views how a withdrawal would go.

I realized that I could end up like that in the future and in a sick way I want to see if it will really happen.

My crush has been talking about getting a girlfriend.

Quitting is hard.

PurpleLioness — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 12:33:34 +0400

when drugs have become such a large part of your life.
4/20 was supposed to be my last day smoking pot.
I smoked a bowel before I came home tonight.
The thing is I don't really care that I broke that to myself.
I don't really care about much now a days.

And I have mad craveings for coke right now.
Its such an amazing high..
I might break down.
I was clean for a month.

Oh my oh my

PurpleLioness — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 19:43:15 +0400

One of my really close friends got in a car accident.
He died on the scene.
The driver was drunk.
Its been like two weeks.
It still hasn't hit me.
I miss him
I haven't realized I won't ever see him again.
I'm afraid of what I'll do when I finally realize that.

Uhm..
In other news I went camping in the desert on monday until yesterday.

Its been a while

PurpleLioness — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 06:15:19 +0300

Since I have been on here.
A lot has happened.

I decided that I was bi, and then proceeded to get a boyfriend.
I actually liked the boy, he was attractive, skinny, full of problems a little feminine but that was very fine with me.

We dated for about a month and a half then broke up because I felt he didn't want to go out.

She is everything to me, The unrequited dream,

PurpleLioness — Sat, 29 Sep 2007 15:15:53 +0400

The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.
-Slipknot: Vermillion part 2

I see a habit there. I always start off with parts of songs.
I haven't been here in so long.
So far it seems everyone I knew is doing well.

Whats been happening in my life?

Fighting with my mum.

One good thing about music

PurpleLioness — Sat, 12 May 2007 13:04:06 +0400

When it it hits you you feel no pain.
One good thing about music
when it hits ya you feel no pain
So hit hit me with music
Hit me with music now yea
hit me with music
brutalize me with music.
-Sublime.

I absolutely love them, and that part of the song right now makes me feel a bit better.

I've been very numb or the past three days.

Rock and roll is a prostitute...

PurpleLioness — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 10:29:12 +0400

It should be tarted up, performed. The music is the mask, while I in my chiffon and taffeta..."
-Velvet Goldmine.

Strawberry gashes

PurpleLioness — Fri, 20 Apr 2007 21:41:57 +0400

Jack off Jill is a good band.

When I'm a-walking I strut my stuff and I'm so strung out

PurpleLioness — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 10:59:16 +0400

I'm high as a kite I just might stop to check you out.
Ah I like that song >_<

Infuriatingly enough I'm starting to like someone who I know nothing will happen.
Firstly she's just realized she might be Bisexual.
She's way cute, she was very worried when she came out to me.
I love that kid, I'm so excited I get to see her on Tuesday.

Once there was a rainbow penguin

PurpleLioness — Thu, 12 Apr 2007 00:10:05 +0400

Who forgot their e-mail and pw, So they magically turned into a lion months later.

So I've been away. Working working working. I hate not having any time to hang out with my friends. Stupid car payment, I can't even drive.