T and I broke up.

Alright, look, the breakup sucked. I mean, it was mutual...sort of. I think it's the only way to resolve our problems, which is unfortunate to say. But we just kept going in circles with a bunch of little stuff. And then I started planning going to college and that sent her into a tizzy. You know, I'll be going away, long distance doesn't work, etc etc. So, an expiration was slapped onto our relationship.

T and I have been alright. It's always back and forth with us. We went to Santa Anita Racetrack closing day and had a wonderful time together. It was a very nice day. At the end of the day we had a little tiff about our sex life and talked it over. Still no resolution, but we have been more intimate.

As for the "crush." Well, forget it. I don't even think about it anymore. I'm glad it passed.

T and I have felt a little less than connected lately. I've been off for the past few days, and she's been nice and bared with it, but I feel like we're having trouble really getting in sync with eachother.

Well, for one, our sex life is going down the tube. I never thought the term "lesbian bed death" would apply to my relationships. Frequency is about once every couple weeks. We're really trying to work on it, and really seems to be on me. Her sex drive is a billion times more than mine, but even so, mine seems pretty low...

I feel much better having posted that entry about my crush. It made it seem less like a big deal once said "aloud." It's less of a deal when it's not such a big secret.

Alright, I'll just say it. I need to get it off my chest. Maybe now it will go away.

I have a crush on someone. An 'attraction' may be more the word.

Now, I want to get something straight: I have no intention of pursuing this girl or going behind T's back or anything. (Reading my previous post will help go along with this one.)

I think I'm overthinking it, a little. But I really hate this. It's fun to have a crush, but it also sucks when you're not supposed to have a crush and you have to suppress it. Major confliction!

It's been about a year since I've posted something. I believe my last post was about the non-fiction story I wrote for a class that had a positive influence on an in-the-closet classmate. I wonder how he is...

I haven't posted on here in forever because I haven't needed to. I remember someone posting a while back on how this site is mainly useful to those who are questioning/insecure/need someone to hear them when no one else will. Well, I'm secure in who i am, I have supportive friends, family, and a lovely girlfriend, so I'm set. This site has been ever so helpful to me and I owe a lot of who I am to the people on this site who helped me feel more comfortable about myself.

Ah I really don't use this thing anymore.

I was listening to The Little Ones and this one song ("Oh MJ") reminds me of this site. Not any connection in lyrics or anything, just that I listened to that song a lot back in the day when I posted on this frequently. So, I decided to pay a visit.

The last time I posted was in July. Dang. Do you remember?

The night before last I had a dream that I had a new girlfriend. But that was all after a huge wave came in and dug out a cliff on the shore and took all our beach items. Nah, this was later, after that, in a shack-like beach house.

Having an ipod will be great... when everything is done. It's only on the Cs and it's been running for over an hour. Whew. Easier than uploading disc after disc though.

I can't wait until I just have a day to sleep, eat, do some chores, sleep, draw or paint or write music, and just lounge, without a damn thing to do. This week has been jam-packed with activites and it won't end until Monday.

Ah I will no longer be a highschool student after today. I grow up today. I have to walk a straight line and sit between two tall guys for a couple of hours, recieve an empty case mimicking my diploma and then I get to have cake with family members and go hang out at C's beach house.

How convenient that my wireless reaches the backyard. I bought some tanning lotion at my work and some aloe lotion and now I'm all set to brown for the summer. Hopefully minus the skin cancer. I've sunblock on,t oo, though.

I was signing my friend's yearbook. It was block schedule for senior finals and I had art that morning with the girl who resembles Alexis Bledel [I forget her acronym... Z? do you remember? It's Z now]. K and B had it planned to tell people what we thought of them at the end of the year, though I really only had one in mind.