I went to see The Drowsy Chaperone last night. Very fun show, Bob Saget was wonderful. Everyone was. The highlight of the night?

The Charmin Restrooms. If you ever need to pee in the daytime in Times Square, go there. It's so much fun! Very clean too. They clean each bathroom after each use. You can take pictures with the bears on sleds or do a cheer, vote for which toilet paper you like better, there's even a gift shop! There were post cards and coupons and Vicks Vapor Rub Puffs tissues, which are very nice.

Love it

I just got a call from school (automated of course) that there was a graffiti bomb threat at the other high school in my district. Alas, I still have school tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the last day of school before Christmas break. Which is technically winter break but we all know it's Christmas break. I'm going to The Drowsy Chaperone because it closes at the end of the month and Forbidden Broadway on Sunday. January 5th I see Spring Awakening...for the sixth time. Second time on stage. Yaaay.

I stayed home from school today for no reason. My mom just kind of decided to keep me home. I had a bad night.

So last night was my winter concert. I'm in the Chorale which is the seniors and select 10th and 11th graders. We are the good chorus. The bad chorus is the Mixed Chorus, freshman and the other sucky 10th and 11th graders. It used to be the Freshman Chorus and Concert Choir. She (the choir director) changed it this year.

The Concert Choir always wore robes so both choir's wore robes. After the concert the Mixed Chorus, who had never worn the robes before, threw the robes on the racks, unzipped, stohls not on the hanger, and out of numerical order. I WAS LIVID. So I stay after to help clean up the mess and my father gets all pissy because he's tired and wants to go home so he leaves in the f-ing car so I have to walk home with my mom, without a coat, sick, wearing summer clothes (it's very hot what with the lights and robes and all) and with a bad knee.

I was so incredibly mad last night. It was supposed to be a really nice, happy night. I just sang, it went very well but no. It had to end pissy. Argh.

Parade rehearsals are going well though. Yay for that.

I came out to my parents. I just decided to get it over with Saturday night. I'm bisexual. The end.

Today my mom asked why I had decided to tell them. I told her that I thought they should know and it would either be then or if/when I had a girlfriend. She wanted to make sure I would be monogamous because you know us bi's and the promiscuity! She's very socially aware and she didn't really say anything like "You're bisexual so people will think you can't stay in a relationship with one person," but rather she wanted to make sure I understood that it wasn't true.

I really hate talking about this stuff with my parents. I don't talk to them about it. Even after coming out I don't. We're very open, I just don't like talking about it.

Off to the orthodontist and then rehearsal.

I just burned myself making pasta. The water was feisty. It kept jumping out of the pot and on to me. Ouch. I'm okay though, no worries.

I was so close to coming out to my mom today and then I decided not to. I don't talk to her about my love life anyway. If/when I get a girlfriend...they'll know. Honestly? I have all this rainbow stuff, I constantly comment on good-looking women and I go on about marrying female celebrity crushes. HINTHINTHINT!!

In other news, I get to do a tap solo for my dance recital. *yay* I was supposed to do a duet but the other person doesn't have time. I'm thinking Broadway, soft-shoe and some wings. FUN! I wish I knew a guy who could tap dance well enough to do some partnering with me. *sigh* Perfectness.

Tomorrow is Friday! I have a field trip to sing Christmas carols at some plaza, the tree-lighting ceremony with Tri-M and the improv show back at school. Which I am not in because he made the stupid auditions on Wednesday at 4:30 when I teach. Grr. But I'm happy I get to see all my friend perform.

My friends are so talented. I'm so happy to be in their company and lucky to get to here them all the time...for free haha. Soon I think they will be off getting paid large amounts of money to do the same thing I hear them do in our living rooms. Amazing.

Any holidays coming up soon? Christmas? Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!

6 more days of school until vacation!

P.S. I was supposed to go on a "Tech and Teva" (Technology and Ecology) trip to Israel for Jewish Educators. I teach beginner Hebrew to 8 and 9 year olds. They didn't say there was an age requirment. I filled out the application and got accepted.
I couldn't make it to the first meeting because of a SCHOOL engagement. Tuesday they call me and tell me I can't go because THEY didn't REALIZE how YOUNG I was. I was crying off and on the rest of the night. I so wanted to go to Israel on this trip, my mom was going and so was our very good friend.
I hate this.

I got a 174. Eh. My math score was 55 and my verbal was 64. I'm fine with math but verbal I want at least a 700 on the SAT. Uch.
At least it went up from last yer (161).

I got cast as Mrs. Phagan in Parade. Yaaay. Happy Chanukkah to me. That was my present.

Happy Hanukkah!

Or...Chanukkah, Chanukah, Hanukah, etc.

The math test went over pretty well. Not too much suffering on my part. Now I get to wait and see how well (or poorly) I did.

I got a $50 gift card to Borders. I am...ecstatic. If you want to make me happy, give me large sums of money to spend at bookstores.

I painted my nails blue for Hanukkah (this seems to be the spelling my computer recognizes). So pretty. From Hot Topic. Too expensive and it chips 5 seconds after it dries but, so pretty.

AP US History test tomorrow. Three chapters. GO!

I half a math test on half-angle formulas and double angles formulas and proving identities.

I went to my math tutor today and usually after she re-teaches me everything (...my teacher is a crazy psycho who can't teach to non-geniuses) I get it. Today I was crying.

Uch. This is hard. I hate this. ARGHH.

A blender fell on my moms toe. Very painful.

Do I have happy news? I had some ice cream today. It was quite tasty.

So yea. Happy World AIDS Day everyone. Totally check out http://www.sexetc.org for some info about AIDS and other stuff. Cool beans there.

Nothing too new. I just added a bunch of movies that were reviewed here to my Netflix queue. Looking forward to watching them all. Fun little gay film festival of my own.

I'm definitely bored. I should be babysitting soon. Speech and Debate is sold out and that makes me sad. Firstly because Gideon Glick is in it and he has very pretty eyes and secondly because it's supposed to be a very good show and thirdly because tix are only $20 which I can afford.

I also can't get 3 on-stage seats for Spring Awakening. I can't get 2. Or 1. Bah!

I think I'm done with my holiday/birthdays-that-fall-around-the-holidays shopping. Uncommongoods.com has really awesome, random shit. Flip-flop socks! How cool! They're socks that kind of resemble mittens so you can wear them with flip flops. Score for my holiday shopping.

Love that song. It's actually about Christmas though, isn't it?

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving (well, everyone who celebrates it I guess), I had a nice time. I don't much like Thanksgiving food. Or at least the Jew-Thanksgiving food. Turkey, brisket, marshmallow & sweet-potato, chips with hummus etc. But the chocolate brownie pie was kick-ass good. Mmmm so good.

I love Allan Cumming. Just thought I'd put it out there since there is an interview with him. I was in Cabaret last year and I had always been such a fan. I hope he does the 10 year anniversary show. I hope I can get tickets to it.

My best friend finally came out to his parents. I'm so happy for him. I'm floating on air happy for him. It's such a wonderful thing.

World Aids Day is coming up. I think the theme is Take the Lead. What the hell. That's not much of theme. You can't...do anything with that. What ever.

I bought some Dane Cook albums off of iTunes and I've been listening to them all day. I know some people love him. He's ok. I like some comics better but he's definitely funny and entertaining.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Years, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanza, Happy Whatever-Else-You-Celebrate

Hey guys, I write for a comprehensive sex ed magazine called Sex, Etc. I'm writing an article on coming out to parents.

I wanted to get some quotes from teens.

If you would like to send a short quote about either

a) Your experience telling your parents or
b) Advice to other teens

Please send it to me with your full name (your full name does not have to be printed) age and city/state/country.

I really do need this ASAP so please don't hesitate. Anything you write would be wonderful!

My psychiatrist decided that my current therapy is not working and I should switch. Because it's SO obvious it's not the medication. Whatever. Fine.
I'm supposed to go to DBT which is Dialectal Behavioral Therapy. I have a friend who goes. She told me it was Diabolical Behavioral Therapy. By accident. Freudian slip?

School is going okay. From my English class I have learned 3 three things:

1) The CIA killed Marilyn Monroe and JFK to cover up their affair
2) Yeshiva kids are sometimes rude
3) Guys don't have eating disorders

And for AP US History I get to do an ABC book. So much fun. What is an ABC book you ask? Well, I will gladly tell you! For each letter of the alphabet I have to pick a word that relates to the American Revolution and write a paragraph about it and have pretty pictures and make it very beautiful and creative. Now I have one month to find and report on 26 topics about the American Revolution. Two years ago I had to do one on Islam. This is not fun. At all.

I have a good friend (whom I used to date a long time ago) who has been having a lot of trouble at home (actually everywhere) recently. Nobody's heard from him in 3 days. He's either run away or has the flu. Nobody is answering at his house. He doesn't have a cell phone. It's scary. Hopefully I will know soon what is really going on.

Happy Sukkot!

EDIT: My friend didn't run away. He's in treatment. Good.

I saw Tyne Daly and Chris Seiber today! I went to the Broadway Flea Market. Very Fun. I got a free Mary Poppins soundtrack. Ironic because I actually hate Mary Poppins.

School is very tiring and boring and has a lot of work.

Dancing is amazing.

I'm going to see Across the Universe now. I've heard from people that it's amazing. I can't wait.

The opening of Rocky went very well actually. Amazing compared to what it was the day before (absolute crap). It was great. I'm excited to open with the other cast on Saturday.

I just finished this amazing book, "Every Visible Thing" by Lisa Carey. Check it out. Next is "Specials" by Scott Westerfeld because it finally came out in paperback. Psh. Damn them for having it come out in hardcover first.

I got on-stage for Spring Awakening for me and mama. BB 1 and 3. I'm pumped.

Hopefully my guidance counselor will get info for me about Long Island High School of the Arts (here on out referred to as "Boces" or "CAC"). I want to audition for the dance program. It's probably a good thing they changed the name because maybe now people won't assume you're stupid or have problems, especially confusing CAC (arts school) with CCA (emotionally disturbed and learning disables school). I hope I can get it. I hope if I do get it, my school district lets me go.

On that note, my school district finally got a new teachers contract (woohoo!). It's only been over 3 years. Whatevs, right?

Yom Kippur is on Friday/Saturday. We're supposed to have tech again for Rocky on Friday. Guess who's not going? Half the cast 'cause they're freakin' JEWISH! I mean...seriously.

I miss doing theater at school because of the people. I don't miss staying at school until 5:30 and I don't miss the director/teacher. BUT I love doing community theater. I also love dance class. And dancing.

So apparently there is a free Hair performance in the park (NYC) on Saturday. WHYYYYY??? Uch! I want to see it. It's not fair. I'm going to be praying and fasting and then (later on) dressing and dancing like a slut.

I should practice my haftorah for Yom Kippur actually. They only gave it to me because nobody else wanted it. I'm so glad my talents are appreciated at my synagogue. So glad.

Rocky Horror opens tonight. Uhh...we're not ready. Oh well. I'll have a good time. Even though my parents and family friends that have known me since I was two are going to be there. I'll sex it up.

I love Mallomars a lot. So yummy.

I'm ridiculously tired. I had rehearsal last night until 1:30 in the morning and then I had to get up at 7 to be in NJ allll day and now I have a midnight show.

Can we say caffeine?

Mmm. Good night.

Rocky rehearsals are exhausting. The dancing is intense, this is my first day off since Monday. Tomorrow we have a six hour rehearsal but it is finally at the theater! Woohoo. I have bug bites all over me (in...random places) from the gross temple that we've been rehearsing at. The garbage there has not been taken out in...I don't know. I don't really want to know.

There are some really great people in the cast. There are also some really horrible and annoying people. Those people are in the ensemble with me. Which makes it that much worse.

One of the four dance captains (why do we need four dance captains?) can't actually dance. She kind of moves but does it wrong. Thus teaching other people the wrong dance moves. Making the dances not as fanstasmic as they should be.

Enough of that. After my hopefully-not-horrible six hour rehearsal my dear, dear friend C is coming to spend the night. I am baking her cupcakes and we have amazing hot sex. Or...just hook-up a bit. We definitely will. I will make sure of that.

I actually really want to date her, but she is too good of a friend to lose when we break up. And when we break up, hell will freeze over. I will lose other friends and we will hate each other forever more. That is what would happen if we started dating. Sucks.

School starts on Wednesday. I still have to finish Native Son (not liking it) and do 4 chapters of AP US History homework. It's a shitload of work. Each chapter has a huge packed with tons of questions and essays and such. I definitely do not regret not doing it at all this summer because it would have sucked. I just don't want to do it at all. I can put of finishing my book for another month or so but the US homework must get done by Wed. or I will die a horrible death.

I miss camp and having people to talk to all the time. I hate rehearsing because it's at the exact time that I would be with my friends. Grr.

So Rocky Horror opens on September 15 at midnight. I'm sure some of you must live on Long Island. Get your gay-asses over there at some point, we're running through Halloween, maybe till November.

Message me if you want the details and such.