So My mom came home asked me if I liked to read and I gave her a funny look cause she knows I do and then she handed me the bible and walked away...it was the most random thing ever....

So last night I thought even harder about maybe joining the Air Force or the Navy. It's always been in the back of my mind. But I never liked the fact I wouldn't really be able to be gay. But I would like to do it, and my mom and dad are amazingly enough okay with it. I'm not even sure yet, I called the air force recruiter, talking about my options with her. She was friendly enough.

So I'm stuck here at my parents house now, since my sister kicked me out. I'm pissed but I guess it's what I get. I'm sad. I miss tacoma already. And I haven't been here a week. It's too hot for what I like. Since pretty much anythign over 70F I dislike. I miss her, and I want to go back....

Ah so I'm flying down to my parents house for a few weeks on saturday. Mostly to just pack my stuff up and do some things to earn money for school. I'm sad cause I have to leave creature here for a few weeks but I'm leaving her at my Gf's house. So hopefully all works out well.

I dropped out of my class because I was failing it. So now I'm pretty much doing nothing, cause the technical college I was going to finish my high school up at won't take me cause dun dun dun, I have less than 10 credits, oh well. I think I'm just going to go get my GED.

So yesterday when I was at the mall I got a haircut, and I bought my gf a prepaid phone so I could call her with mine, for free, I didn't really think about it till I was signing the paper for it. It's a little odd... but I'm happy and I'm getting an apartment with 3 friends soon, I can't wait.

So I was at the hospital for a bit of yesterday cause my sister had her baby. I'm excited. She's so cute :). And tiny! 6lbs. I love her already. I'm going back soon. To see her again and so my brother and sister can get some rest.

So I got myself a new gf, and we've been dating for about a week, and everyday I've been on the hour-ish bus ride to go see her. It makes me happy. Her best friend amuses me greatly. Made me miss all of my friends I drifted away from. But oh well. She's at work and my sister was due yesterday, but the baby hasn't popped out yet. I have a job interview tomarrow.

I've got avrils new album pre-orderd and when i get more money im pre ordering another dvd. I kinda like having a job.... :)

So class got out early today, so a few of us went to taco bell after standing around saying goodbye to lindy, She ended up having my cell for awhile, which was pretty amusing. Trying to tell her not to pick up for "amy", but for all caps "AMY", cause i have 2 amys in my phone.

I have a paper due for class today, it's supposed to be a min. of 2 pages. But I don't feel like writing it. I have half a page done and gave up. I have 3 hours to finish writing it. And I have no idea if I'm going to finish it. I might I just was like eh Fuck it. I don't have to do it. I don't know even if I'm gunna go today. It's only the second day, and I dislike the teacher.

I'm going through and finding old poems, I wrote this one about 2 years ago, It's pretty interesting, so I thought I'd share it.

Your watching,
Your thinking,
Of me,
I know you are,
Don’t lie.

Your lying,
I know you are,
Tell them the truth.

Tell them about my wrists,
You saw them,
You kissed them.

You kissed the wounds,
To make them better,
Now make me better,

I cried really hard today, and gave my self a headache that won't go away. It hurts. Damn head.

I hate my computer sometimes, It's angry at me. I kind of sort of want to kick it, except that might make it more angry, and since my other computer is half-way taken apart, I'd have to fix two. Anyways, my dad's unit changed, and since this unit is new and hasn't been to Iraq, theres a higher chance he could go on his third tour. That pisses me off.

I hate living on one. The planes flying over-head hour after hour bothers me. I should be used to it being I've been in the same place for 7 Years, I should have moved about 5-4 years ago. I'm glad I haven't but, now its up in the air that I could. It makes me sad, I've been with my gf for 18 months now and I don't just want to have to up and leave that, She makes me so happy.